- Simply
gorgeous. Thank you as well for the pictures of me
and Donna in the park, they are as precious to me
as anything I have, and even made her mother tear
up on the other side of the world. We all believe
in you.
-
- Dear
CBS,
-
- I've thanked
you all privately and individually, but as a whole:
you are, and will always be, the start of my
career. You went so far above and beyond the call
of duty to help me I cannot do it justice with
words. You will see it in my work ethic, my
creativity, and my absolute determination to help
you and your show. I have to actually stop myself
from thinking about the future with you guys
because I get so excited I can't stay
seated. There will never be enough ways to show my
appreciation, but I'm never gonna stop
tryin'.
-
- Dear
Charlotte,
-
- Can you believe
this? (I just heard you say "no" to your
blackberry) I'm sure we'll redefine our
relationship when I get back to LA, but no
matter what we've both grown so much in 5 years and
we both deserve this. The mending of our
relationship is so healing and so
needed. I appreciate your intellect, your
ability to see all the angles, and your ability to
be honest and open with me. Please know that the
harsh words over the years hidden within these
entries are from a place of absolute pain and that
I really do love and care about you deeply. Thank
you for your spectacular suggestion of hosting the
Living Room Live segment and thank you in advance
for helping co-create solutions to all future
challenges. Oh, and The Sopranos fuckin' rocks
too.
-
- :-)
-
- Dear Mike
& Suzannah,
-
- I believe
I've thanked you guys 5 times on the site, but it
never gets old. You kept me in your thoughts and
gave me the suggestion of a lifetime back in June.
Thanks a million. And Mike, I think we can let
the world know that you are indeed Mr. Penny from
Entry
#7
(areally incredible entry) nearly 7 years
ago:
-
- As I walked, I
seemed to get more and more frustrated. I don't
know why. I was fine yesterday, but now...Jesus,
I can't do this. Everyone would understand if I
just got back into radio and didn't really push
4tvs that hard. I kept thinking about CD101 and
how I should've stayed. It was really boiling
up. I got to the office and the package was from
an old listener and a great supporter of 4tvs.
Inside was a check for $500.
-
- I cried. I just
cried. So much emotion today, and then this. As
if a sign from all of you saying: "We are here
for you, we will not let you fail..." When I got
back to the apartment I sat on the couch and
regained composure. I showed Jessica the check
and she had the same reaction I did. We just
hugged each other and tried to calm down. It
wasn't the money. That didn't solve our
problems. The money will help pay for the work
done on Jessica's car last month that she had to
get fixed before the trip. Somehow we still have
to make 3 people's salaries working shitty jobs
to make it. What it did, was open my eyes to how
much you all care about us. How much you believe
in what I'm trying to
accomplish.
-
- THANK YOU.
-
- Dear Mom,
-
- Your words to
me yesterday were so appreciated. You have such a
deep caring and sensitivity to the world around
you, and your perspective was able to get me out of
my "head" long enough to see just how lucky
I was. I'm so thankful we found our niche
together after all these years. I feel at
times like that 6 year old who felt safe knowing a
fellow alien was there to help him get along. I
love you, or as we like to say:
Nanu-nanu.
-
- Dear
Dad,
-
- I think
I hid it pretty well, but your beeming after
I was on The Early Show had me incredibly
choked up. You know damn well that there was a
period that I was literally writing those entries
to YOU as no one else was even bothering to click
the button. Thank you for being my biggest
supporter throughout everything. I can't wait to
share the upcoming great news with you. We're gonna
have the time of our lives.
-
- Dear
Lonna,
-
- Excited yet? I
can't express how much your warmth towards Donna
has made her feel so welcome. Thank you so much.
She is so far from home and is so excited about
getting to experience a holiday with people that
care about her. She has literally asked me about it
everyday. "So we're gonna carve pumpkins? Can we
drink cider? Oh my GOD! You guys have a basement!?!
I've only seen those in MOVIES" <- I'm not
making that up. LOL. She's the most adorable person
I've ever met and you guys are gonna have a ball.
Can't wait.
-
- Dear
Cassi,
-
- Happy month for
ya huh? (sigh). Life comes at you at lightspeed
sometimes and nothing can prepare you for
it...except life. Try and recognize the
overwhelming moments as fresh (even the bad ones)
and live them. Feel 'em. Cry, yell, jump,
run - experience them. You have rolled with this
craziness with a great deal of resiliency and I'm
proud of ya. Thanks for all your warm thoughts
about CBS and Donna even though inside you
were heartbroken. Congrats on the new place you
found, congrats on your incredible job, and I look
forward to watching you fly.
-
- Dear
Keith,
-
- Well, the
brotherhood lives on. I've been away from the house
longer than I even knew you and now I
feel like I'm coming back to your house.
LOL. Well buddy, it is your house, your home and I
couldn't be happier to have you there. Thanks for
taking care of it so well while I'm gone, I'll be
on cleaning duty for awhile! You've enriched my
LA experience tenfold and I can't wait to
share your future successes as you watch your
talent take you to extraordinary places. Get the
campfire ready for me.
-
- Dear Fellow Online
Supporters,
-
- If anyone
deserves this more than me, it's you. You have been
through some of the most wretched shit ever. You
read stories and watch movies to escape and for 7
years you've had to put up with MY ASS
watching every single section of my life crumble.
You guys always came through with a nice email, a
nice post and most importantly: you kept comin'
back to see what happened next. THANK YOU.
There's finally a payoff. I sincerely hope
that you'll look back on this journey as one of the
most rewarding things you've ever experienced. Tell
as many people as you can, and write on the boards
whenever you think of even one word to add. It's
the lifeblood of the site.
-
- Dear
Donna,
-
- Ha!
I laugh at even the THOUGHT of how long
this entry could be if I truly tried to thank
you. Let me just say that what happened last night
was extraordinary (wow, I may need to
pontificate a little on that). You saw me filled
with years of pain, anger and an incredible force
of negativity...and with a few calming words you
showed me love in a way I have simply never
experienced. I watched the hate
I filled that room with get enveloped by a
gigantic wave of loving energy and you healed me
instantly. You healed me. I can tell myself
that all of the hurt I've experienced is somehow
lessened because I've maintained friendships with
those who hurt me...but the truth is, my heartache
is incredibly deep and incredibly real. I spit that
pain and anger towards you, even waking you up to
do so, and you surrounded me with a blanket of love
that I will never forget. Thank you, thank
you, thank you.
-
- Love,
- Adam
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