B610WTVN:
you know exactly when you write
something that is
untrue
Palaur:
whats that suppose to
mean
B610WTVN:
meaning you KNOW thats
wrong
B610WTVN:
you ARE strong..you've just been
with someone who makes you feel like
shit
B610WTVN:
and it's REALLY PISSING ME
OFF
B610WTVN:
you are dead...you are not
living
B610WTVN:
you should never have to go through
this shit
Palaur:
think about how better off lives
would be if i wasn't
involved
Palaur:
pat could do what he wanted, you
could focus on your career and
dreams..
B610WTVN:
get off line
B610WTVN:
now
Palaur:
no
B610WTVN:
im calling
B610WTVN:
DAMNIT LAURA...you are scaring
me
Palaur:
i won't talk, i;ll just
cry
B610WTVN:
you need to hear my
voice
Palaur:
it won't be worth your
time
B610WTVN:
you dont have to say a
word
B610WTVN:
now
Palaur:
why doesn't he love
me
B610WTVN:
sign off
B610WTVN:
please
Absolutely
never intended to be shared with anyone. Palaur
blows me away each time I read it.
Strangely enough,
I remember vividly the night at Tee Jaye's after a
4tvs show in 1999 when I told Jess and Moose my
idea:
"I have
all these entries and instant messages from the
whole Palaur incident as well as all these songs,
videos, clips from the late show - and I want to
put them up in REAL TIME on my web-site. So
everyone has to literally wait until the following
day to see what happens next."
What I didn't
realize was that it was really "The Journey" that I
was describing. Palaur became the foundation for how I
would chronicle my entire life. Instead of focusing on
one tiny story, I forced myself to have the
discipline to continue to write songs "for the
moment", continue to create to keep the story going
and more than anything be passionate about every
second of my life. What I couldn't show Laura,
I was able to weave into my own everyday
existence...
...but Palaur
absolutely bitch-slaps The Journey in terms of
voyeurism. The instant messages within those 50
entries just rip through you at times. This isn't
make-believe, it's two people's only means of
communication for so much of the story and there's
just no bias there. It puts you smack dab in the
middle of these people's lives and goddamn it gets
addicting half-way through. I was floooooooored
re-reading it. You really do forget how the hell it
ends! I mean you know we're not together, but
good GOLLY at times you just sit there and think:
HOW?!?! Nearly a decade later I was completely
entranced again and couldn't stop clicking
"Next" at the bottom of each entry to see what
would happen next. And just when you think it's
finally coming to an end one of the last entries
knocks you on your ASS. And every word of it true. I
absolutely love the experience that is
Palaur.
The way I put
the site together back in 2000 however was hideous.
Back then, the VAST majority of the world was on
dial-up and Palaur was simply too far ahead of it's
time. In order to make people actually download the
videos and songs within the entries I would put the
next entries zipped inside the downloads. Good
idea actually but it meant people had to know how to
zip and unzip things, had to have extra
programs...ugh. It was a jumbled mess and I'd venture
to say less than 20 people in the world have ever
actually been through it because of that. No
longer:
Simple,
concise, if not a little whimsical of a
layout considering how dramatic the story
is. But for the first time it's
incredibly easy to navigate. If you
want to skip ahead and not listen to any
of the songs or videos...so be it. You do
however miss the entire point of the site,
but it's your free will. ;-) I do warn you
though, NONE of the videos stand
alone without the entries (although
this
one
is cute) and the songs are only magical
when you understand how/when/why I wrote
them. So take a look.
This is by the
way, the perfect "at work" reading. Many of you
have jobs where you surf the net all day while you're
in between other work tasks...this absolutely rocks
for that. I guarantee that if you get to February
in the story (Entry 12) you will be completely hooked.
UkAmber from the boards (who actually helped me bug
test it back in 2000) reread the entire thing again in
ONE DAY on Thursday. It's not just me who finds
it addicting.
For those of you
who already went through it and commented on it, I
actually took the time to make message board threads
for every entry, song, video and late show clip on the
entire site ANNNNND transferred all your comments
(one-by-one) over to the new threads. Whew. Palaur is
a bit different than "The Journey" when it comes
to community interraction after the entries. You start
to feel like a pack of friends going through it and
you end up looking forward to what "so-and-so" is
thinking after each entry. It begets more responses
than usual...
So why now? Isn't
there something more productive you could be working
on ADAM!!?!? Listen assholes, the new cartoon is
coming - I have to see how the Israel/Lebanon
conflict plays out as it effects everything. We're in
Day 1 of the cease-fire so we just might get out of
this thing without World War 3 breaking out. Although
don't tell Bush that he already said we're
in WW3 in
May (here's a screen
capture in
case the story is taken down) That...and honestly,
I started reading Palaur again and was completely
sucker punched at how gripping the scenarios were. It
really does stand the test of time.
Oh
and I contacted Laura for the first time in over
6 years.
Heh.
Absolutely
nothing to read into that as it was awkward and
strangely combative but it lead to me re-opening those
old pages on the site and being frustrated at how
complicated it all was. The site has actually been up
non-stop since 2000, but some ass clown stole
palaur.com from me. I mean what the fuck dude?
I never got the email when it was running out.
Whatever, it makes very little difference but he's
just name-sitting and that always pisses me off.
I googled the name to see if anyone else would
want it and check this
out:
PALAUR is an
association of working artists rooted in the heart
of Jutland.
PALAUR is a
collaboration between artists across borders and
limets since 1986
PALAUR is
expressive language of form in paintings and
scultures.
PALAUR must be
a constant focus of exchange of artistic
views.
PALAURs
manifesto is: nothing is sacred. To members of the
group, any sign of life is a potential picture:
human beings and human behaviour, landscape and the
world of nature, objects close to hand, fairytales
and myths. No restrictions are to be imposed on
artistic expression, but the society provides the
right conditions for mutual
inspiration.
PALAUR arranges
art exhibitions, where resempbances and differences
meets in the discussion and palaver about and with
the visual expression.
PALAUR is a
long row of exhibitions in Denmark and
abroad.
Some crazy
ramblings on a site from Denmark. Weird
huh?
So my rambling is
over. Really try and check out the
site. Even
guys get into it - remember all those wrestling
fans in
2002? LOL. It really poses the question to men and
women of just how far would you go for
love...
Adam
PS - and also -
please click the feedback buttons at the bottom of
each entry in Palaur. It's actually more important
than even say the one at the bottom of THIS page that
no one ever hits - :-). Almost every single one has
what other readers think at that point in the story
and it really adds to the whole community aspect of it
when you throw your 2 cents in after each entry. One
sentence is more than enough...
