- 7:34 PM, Tuesday,
September 11th, 2001:
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- I have nothing to
add to any of the events that have occured today. In
fact I'm quite sick of people in this community
feeling they have to give their 2 cents worth on the
issue as if their view is any different. Many of you
probably didn't have this, but there's been quite a
few "celebrities" jumping on camera telling how "they
felt". Disgusting. We're all just shocked. We're all
incredibly sad. And we're all pissed.
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- So I write this
with only me in mind. I just want some account of my
feelings when I look through this in the future, and
it seems irresponsible for me not to document my
feelings in this "journey" with what most assuredly
has changed my life forever.
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- At this point,
after 12 straight hours of headaches, I have an
overwhelming feeling of appreciation for my life just
24 hours ago. I feel like someone has taken my
freedom away from me and it REALLY angers me. I
want what I came out here to do to be a reality. I
want the freedom to move in the way I see fit. I want
to fly home in a few weeks and not be scared, and not
have to have a CAVITY search to get on the
plane...
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- I saw the 2nd
tower collapse live and I have to say, I can't
remember being more shaken. To feel as if you're in
the midst of an attack, with all these reports of 5 or
6 places being hit - and being completely helpless. I
couldn't help but tear. Then I had to leave a message
for Jessica as she's in her hotel room and had her
cell phone off. As I tried to explain what was
happening I was just breaking down. I finally got
ahold of her and as I tried to explain it again -
I just couldn't get it out. Such shock. And when
you tell someone what's happening it becomes real, and
you almost can't believe the words coming out of your
mouth.
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- The only thing
I can think to say to anyone reading this is: do
everything you can to not change your life. Do not let
this make you live in fear. I have to get on a plane
in a few weeks, and I will. I will not change my
day-to-day life because of this incident, and I pray
the rest of the country will do the same. We can never
be completely unaffected by today's events, but try
and be aware of it. I understand they have cancelled
the sporting events and entertainment events - but I
pray it goes on tomorrow. We freakin' NEED a baseball
game tomorrow. We don't need to mire in this. We need
some fantasy...we need to laugh. Of course we still
have Dan Rather for that.
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- I swear to
GOD, this man needs to retire. So far my favorite
quote is: "This looks like a scene from the end of the
world. It was the end of the world...trade center"
Yeah good one Dan. (sigh). Though I have to thank
Chris Johnson for allowing me to laugh in the midst of
all this. He instant messaged me online: "Oh my
god...I can't believe it. This is amazing..."
I respond with a "yeah". Moments pass and he
continues with: "I can't believe this. Why would
Michael Jordan come back?" It may seem like he was
trivializing but I laughed my ass off. And it's about
the only time I did all day.
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- But I again urge
everyone to get that sense of humor back and move
about in a respectful, yet determined way. Watch
movies, play video games, laugh - BE FREE. The
longer we alow this to effect us, the worse the
effects will be. Don't feel like a bad person for
wanting to have "fun" while such a tragedy continues.
A worse tragedy is having this attack kill what
makes this country so amazing.
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- Later this week
I'll update you on some other things happening, and
try my best to not dwell on how sad this day
is.
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- Adam
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