- 9:07 PM, Friday,
May 7th, 2005:
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- Why is it
always something? I mean you just have to
wonder sometimes: Will this really be a journey of
neeeeeeearly making it...for decades? Can't be, right?
Not possible...right?
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- When they showed
the contestants earlier in the week I was taken
aback that they would allow an act so clearly
lip-syncing... then I went on their myspace page
and realized they were a professional act in Chicago
(17,000 friends strong) and then later even realized
they were already signed to a record contract on a
label.
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- I mean, I know
I walk the line of professional/amateur more than
most of the acts that have been shown - but what the
fuck? I'm only professional because of the way
I present my shit... this band has, been,
signed. They have the pull of a label which alone
makes their reach miles longer. Hell just the fact
that they can email 17,000 people at the drop of a hat
destroys anything I could do. Then you add
in the label itself and their contacts/ability to get
the word out... it's insurmountable.
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- So to test,
I had 4 computers running the "Trinitraptions" as
I did for the previous round, and I picked
"3 Feet Up" 'cause they made me laugh. We did just
about the same amount as last time when I won by
67%...
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- ...and they still
destroyed us. See that 69% Ditchwater got was
including our mass of votes (which was a
test-run for this upcoming round) and it not only
didn't even make a dent... they won by even more. It's
daunting to say the least and at most ridiculously
unfair. I just don't see what the point is of
having an unlimited voting contest, and allowing acts
that have a record contract and the ability to
easily outmarket those who are simply
IN THEIR LIVING ROOM (ahem) LIVE...
showing off their talents. The end result is gonna be
3 bands with record contracts fighting to
be...discovered? (sigh)
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- Don't get me
wrong, I'm still gonna vote - and still want everyone
to try their hardest but if you were privy to the
numbers we were able to put towards "3 Feet Up" and
then realize that Ditchwater got over 4 times as
many...you too would be wondering how in fuck's sake
Lucy is managing to pull the ball away AGAIN. And each
time I realistically believe that this
time I'm gonna kick it through the
uprights.
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- And what kills me
even more is that I was so honest with my hatred
toward the unlimited voting from the beginning. Even
though I used it to my advantage in Round 1, I
was still pissed that I wasn't involved in a contest
based on TALENT. That's all I've ever wanted in my
entire life... yet it is uncanny just how I seem
to not be a "fit" for any judgement of talent...ever.
It looks perfect and then it falls through for
something completely out of my control. I just
can't fathom how that is possible.
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- (sigh) This is
just too much right now. It was easy to split emotions
(grandmother/competition) when they were opposite
feelings. Now they seem to be merging together with
each situation fueling the other. I want to fight
this, but it just seems like the writing is on the
wall for the Early Show. And again, what amazes me is
that it's not the winning that I want so bad,
it's the "not losing". It's the relief of 8 full weeks
of simply feeling normal again. Of having a goal to
work towards without constant
disappointment.
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- 550 entries.
Jesus.
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- Adam
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