The
title is a veeeeeeeeerrry narrow allusion to the XFL
player (who is now whoopin' ass for the Carolina
Panthers in the NFL) who had "HE HATE ME" on his
jersey. Uhm…yeah, moving on:
Tonight, tonight.
Woot.
I really didn't
intend to write another entry before the show, but I
just have to get this down.
The patients at
work are so genuinely excited and supportive of this
show that I'm almost at a loss for words (gotta add
"almost"…look at the past 273 entries - heh).
Reserving seats, asking me about the intricacies of
the show…genuine, sincere excitement. I've been
thinking about it for the past week, and why it amazes
me for some reason. I finally put my finger on
it:
For the past ten
years, I've really never just been Adam. From the
flash that was college right into talk radio…CDs,
Boyles - to 4tvs and DVDs and everything, my talents
have always overshadowed me. By my own doing mind
you…I've been focused on my career since I wrote
my first songs at 12-13.
So when I first
started working here, it was somewhat relaxing to be
in a world where I was anonymous in a way. There
wasn't even the hint of showbiz or entertainment in my
job. Just some tiny interactions with patients,
dealing with my boss, and office work. Truly the first
time since I had to detail cars at Big Ten Auto Sales
in the summer of 1993, where I was just
me.
And believe it or
not, I was good at being me. Heh. People actually
still liked me when I was simply funny
"person-to-person" and not onstage. I know that sounds
strange, and I really had no reason to think they
wouldn't…but the bottom line is - it just hasn't
happened in soooooooo long. Strange
analogy:
Think of Tom
Cruise in disguise working an office job. He'd
probably be fine at it - but he'd probably feel really
awkward too. His talents and past always slam open
that door - so you never really have to rely on just
personality. Of course, I have zero fame - all my
feelings are self-induced by years of putting the wall
of talent ahead of me, but the end result is the same.
And apparently I lost all faith in myself somewhere
along the line (ahem 2002), that I could be likeable
stripped of my talents. Weird huh? I swear, LA is a
doozy on your psyche man.
So people are
actually coming tonight. Solely based on how they've
viewed me as a receptionist. Not because they know
what it's gonna be like, just to be nice and
supportive. That blows my freakin' mind, that I
could've had that type of effect on people I see
randomly for a few moments throughout weeks/months.
The great part
though, is their support will be well rewarded in the
end. Most of the people have zero idea what to expect.
They're probably preparing themselves for the absolute
worst, because they know they have to face me again at
the office - and that's really what I'm most pumped
about. There's always something nice to say about the
show, so it's not like it's gonna be all awkward. Even
if you don't laugh once, the technology and sheer work
put into it is impressive, so on some level they'll
enjoy themselves.
So I guess more
than anything, this is just a long thank you that I
will most likely carry-on into the next entry. As
Sally Fields would say: "You like me, you really like
me". What a genuine insight into an artist's head
man… Yeah, you can be satisfied without that
feedback - but for most of us, people diggin' you is
the final piece of any entertainment
puzzle.
Tonight is gonna
kickass.
Adam - But
wait!!!
THE VIDEO
- Now a video that will blow your mind. It
is from the future - it is exactly 12
hours into the future - of the first 2
audience members waiting for the show to
start. How can it be?!?!?! MAGIC.
Web-Magic.
