What
a month. A good month. A month you can build on for
sure. I'd have given anything to have this month last
March. I guess that wasn't possible though. Seems
almost pre-destined when I look back.
As
expected, my outlook on things have changed in the
past month. And although it's more positive, it's much
more defeatist. I believe that's almost a defense
mechanism that I have zero control over. I'm watching
things go into place that will completely stifle "the
dream", but "the dream" almost killed me so I can't
really argue with it. The job, house-hunting, domestic
joys…I seem to be reveling more in that world at
the moment.
I
say moment because I feel one last big push in me.
There will be another "Charlotte", there will be
another "show", and there will be another "almost".
And just maybe that will be the one. The Trinitrons 2
script is coming along. I've moved onto writing the
songs each band member will be singing. Have found
myself laughing out loud at some of the set-ups and
how much fun it will be to see the characters back
again. In an almost "out-of-body" experience I felt
doing "The Boyles" back in 1996, I see Spence as a
real person - and he just makes me laugh. So much of
the script writes itself because I know the delivery
of his lines so perfectly. There will be some
incredibly funny moments for sure.
So
will it be better than the original? I'm still trying
to find a twist that will turn it into the "Toy Story
2" that I'd actually like more. The problem with
originals, is they get all the easy joy. The setup.
The charm of The Trinitrons was seeing it all come
together, the whole first 10 minutes was such a
charming introduction to the "world". Same with the
first Toy Story. It was almost easy to make it shine,
because the concept was so fascinating.
Well
in a sequel all that "easy, fun" part is gone. The
only way to one-up the original is with a script
that's just ass-kicking. In Toy Story 2, Woody finds
out he's a valuable doll from the 50's (genius), gets
lost - and actually wants to STAY lost. Beautiful
idea. The story is so good, that you don't even need
the set-up. To date, I feel it's the best sequel I've
ever seen.
With
The Trinitrons however there's the added problem of
singing. We all want to see Spencer and G sing again,
and of course…Dewey? Or Cameron? But that's a
good bulk of the show. So there's not a helluvalotta
(nice word Adam) room to add huge plot twists. You
pretty have the set-up for the songs, and have fun
throughout them. I believe the set-up is good, and
will keep people laughing throughout - but when all is
said and done, I don't think anything will beat how
amazing it is to see all 4 of the TVs walk back into
their rooms for the first time. But we'll see. I'm
certainly trying.
Had
an audition for Taco Bell yesterday. I swear
commercial auditions are the strangest things on the
planet. First off, cool celebrity sighting there: The
"I LOVE YOU MAN" guy from the Budweiser commercials.
Dude who would cry, tell his friend he loved him, for
his beer. Huge commercials. But man, I had such
empathy for him looking at him. Yeah, he's recognized
- but he's recognized as the "I LOVE YOU MAN" guy. And
he's trying to get another commercial or whatever.
Struck me as sad. BTW - when you go to auditions,
there's usually several commercials being cast, we
weren't competing. Anyway - the audition went
well…kinda. I was supposed to be driving to Taco
Bell in the middle of the night with no cars around,
yet I keep getting stopped by red lights. So I get
more and more antsy. 4 times this is to happen. Each
time more antsy… They told me to look at a tack
on the ceiling for the light. The problem was of
course, I'm supposed to drive up to it - but they want
me to "realize" it's red by hunching over the steering
wheel and looking up. That's just STUPID, because
you'd realize it's red BEFORE you stop - then look up
to see when it turned GREEN. It was so ass backwards
and it didn't seem to strike them as odd. I made the
casting dude giggle one time so I guess that's good.
But whatever. You really can't possibly feel one way
or another. They will ultimately go for a look (one
that I felt the casting director had more than me) -
and that may or not be me. But yeah, the CD had this
funny/cool "look" about him. Hard to put a finger on,
but just right for TV. Not a model by any means, but
just the right face to be in a commercial or what not.
Strange how some people have that.
Anyway
- it's fun to go to the auditions, and who knows,
maybe I'll be right for one at some point. It's
strange though, I saw my "GELLIN'" Dr. Scholl's
commercial on TV the other day. They went a bit older
with the guys. Still a stupid as commercial but I was
kinda blown away by just how "good" a national
television commercial looks. That coulda been me.
Cool. As well, wasn't I just there auditioning? And
now it's on TV? That's awesome.
Speaking
of awesome, my job is very very cool. I am slowly but
surely getting my hands on every aspect of it. Getting
everything organized, and making it run a lot
smoother. How she possibly did this by herself is
beyond me. My days are packed. In fact what was once a
25 hour a week job is 40 easy. There's just so much to
do. Moving her into the 21st century is helping quite
a bit. My photoshop skills have come into play a lot
as well since she has outdated forms and such that
need to be redone. Anyway, it seems they're pretty
happy with me, and I absolutely love getting my mind
off things for awhile. It makes my free time, feel
like actually FREE time.
And
that's the amazing thing about it. When I wasn't
working, I had NO free time. I felt guilty 24-7. So I
would always be doing SOMETHING. Or if I wasn't I'd
again, feel guilty because of that. Now - when it's my
free time - I can allow it. I can say "sit back for a
minute" and I don't get sick to my
stomach.
Of
course the biggest change is with Jess and I. It's
actually pretty difficult. Our world absolutely
revolved around her schedule before and now it
doesn't. It's been hard as hell to coordinate things -
hell even like writing this entry. I would never write
an entry when Jess was home before, but now - I don't
have a choice. So she has to get used to being alone
sometimes when I'M at work, and as well understand
that there will be things I need to do even when we're
together. Totally different.
Unfortunately
this friggin' Xbox League has bit me in the ASSSS. It
became much more work than I thought it would be
because I have to babysit all these guys to make them
schedule their games. I'm learning pretty quick - and
have replaced 4 of them now. It's really interesting
how you need to set up a company/organization in order
to make things run smoothly.
That's
what this is really. I've now inserted a
few rules and been a total hardass, and
voila - all the headaches go away. It
doesn't matter that the product is a
stupid videogame, the structure of
business and success are the same.
Learning a lot for sure. Just got my ass
handed to me last night, 59-24 and now I'm
3-1. You all must see my week
1 run
against Oakland. Those are some serious
moves by yours truly - but alas I'm in 4th
place. Some good players in the league.
Check out the
site
if you're even a tiny bit into sports -
it's purty cool.
Anyway,
I'm still producing like a madman. My New Year's
Resolution was to never waste a day. Little did I
know, that would turn into never wasting an HOUR. It
feels good. Oh and all apologies about the Buckeye
video, I'm trying to add in some picture-in-picture
stuff with my assssssssssss hanging out as a second
section of the DVD. It will be done soon.
