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9:27 AM, Sunday December 5th, 2004:
 
That poor little guy trying to climb the mountain. This will be the 4th year he's been bumped and yet he waits as patient as ever. With everything going on, I just realized how huge that title could've been. The Journey show waits, the show.
 
You know if I keep this up not only will The Journey 4tvs show be sometime in 2010, it'll have my kids in it. I find it highly comical that on the first Trinitrons DVD I have a trailer for this show and it says "Fall 2002". Cute Adam. It'll be closer to Fall 2012. For the first time however, I truly think I've got it. Every time I've had these sliver of ideas that make me actually sit-up while laying in bed and say "Oh My God" the outcome has always been good.
 
So somethin' has been telling me not to cut my hair lately. I would argue the genius that is Adam Kontras and how I just knew I'd need it for some grand master plan, but the truth is I'm fucking lazy as hell about shit like that. The hat has worked for me for about 15 years, so why stop a good thing. With so much on my mind you should all be happy that I actually enjoy showers, because most of the time it's not to be clean...just because it's warm and feels nice. Boy, do I know how to get off on the best tangents or what?
 
Anyway the reason it wasn't obvious for me to cut my hair was because in the back of my head has been a "scene" that I just can't ignore. A scene I think is incredibly funny and know needs to be captured on-screen somehow. That scene is G playing basketball like G...with real basketball players and getting destroyed - yet constantly acting "cool" about it. It stems from how G looked onscreen next to the tower of a man that is Mark in T3. G can slightly pull of being black, probably mixed. It's obvious I have a tiny bit of soul in me...but you stand me next to Mark I am the tiniest, whitest loser ever. And it is just funny as shit. Mark told me about a league he plays in while we were driving during shooting and it started to grow. All black, G walks in and talks the talk. Then gets worked so hard, but continues to talk the talk. Imagine his first shot going up - getting swatted as bad as you've ever seen, G looking humiliated but immediately returning with "Yeeeeah dawg. Good Block...yeeeeah". I have so many shots in mind but never really a story or a reason to do a Trinitrons Movie.
 
Cut to my most recent reaction to the first Trinitrons DVD. Georges the Greek at work. Heh, since I'm Greek I can call him all sorts of shit - it's fun. Olive suckin' pedophile is my favorite. Anyway his first response, as is many people's, is HBO. Something he'd see on HBO. Where I think he's right, I've never been able to see a good avenue to get to that. But last night I was thinking about it as I went to sleep. How I'd pitch it. I'd obviously make some sort of demo from the material I had, and then I'd pitch the "has-been"  boyband idea. An idea of these 5 guys that had their 15 minutes of fame and are trying to regain something...maybe ending with a reuinon show - or something. I had toyed with the idea before.
 
And then as fast as the day in November in 1998 when I saw the TVs sitting there onstage The entire outline of this piece became clear to me. It's a mix between the pilot of Curb Your Enthusiasm and VH1's Reuniting The Band. Wow. My first genuine, LA moment folks. I just did an "Oceans Eleven meets Look Who's Talking" or whatever pathetic thing producers say to describe their project. For the first time, this one is perfect. A pilot where against their will, or 4/5ths of their will, they are taped documentary style trying to get them to come together for one more show. They are basically acosted at their homes as we catch up with where they are now (enter fit for G scene ideas). And I cannot wait for you to see Spencer's excitement when he thinks he's on Trading Spaces or something when he opens the door to a camera crew. A million ideas. When it comes to the group however, they of course can't stand each other and make no bones about it. To make a long story short they do finally agree to the show, but unbeknownst to the producers only through Cameron's idea of 4tvs, pissing off everyone the day of the show to be taped for HBO - but setting up some incredibly funny moments. Not sure if that makes any sense to you but my head is racing, and as I reread it I can't tell if it's just me who gets it - or if any of you can see it.
 
Now this concept changes quite a few things. Obviously they aren't The Trinitrons. This goes back to the original idea I had even before the name was the thought of: "Band members who hate each other so much, they'll only perform onstage via televisions". It was something I tried to establish in the "Cameron Openings" from T1 - but never fully materialized because that format didn't allow it. This however does. And if what I'm seeing in my head is possible...this is the pilot you shop around. In order for that to be feasible it needs to be highly professional and shot with a full crew and people that know what they're doing. Even if I have friends that could help direct and shoot it, I will still need thousands, if not tens of thousands of dollars to do this correctly. Where on earth will I get that kind of money...
 
And folks, sometimes it just works out. I actually started to tear up as I wrote that last sentence. When you see the last 6 years of your life finally show a true path with the planets just aligning at the right time - you have to just let it take you. So I don't put it all in the bank, I'm good at poor. Now I can produce a kick-ass 30 minute pilot, short-film, that will not look cheap in the least. Thanks to the advent of the DV-Cam now being a common tool for television shows trying to look "Real"...I have the ability to make a broadcast quality film and do so around an idea that I not only believe in - but one that wasn't possible before. Why? I wasn't old enough. Hard to be a has-been in a boyband at 24. Not so hard when you're pushing 30. As well, say I was "pushing" this pilot - they would obviously re-shoot it and have their own ideas so you'd be looking at 2006, 2007 at the earliest - my age actually works for me.
 
So welcome to my 2005. If you don't think it will take a better part of a year to arrange all of this you guys are fuckin' crazy. This isn't one man and one camera, this is a crew of a dozen people for several, several days. A minimum of 10 days (a weekend per character) and even that may be cutting it close. For now though - I work my ASS off at this job and get as much bank as humanly possible while I'm writing this script. Then use the weekends as the time to pull it all off. I see it all finishing in September/October again with the big push for pitching the ideas in January of 2006. Finding representation of some sort during this process is mandatory and now I have an exact idea for them to pitch. Not just some crazy show with no direction. Man, this really is the project. This makes sense on every level. I believe in it on every level. That's so important for my over-analytical mind you guys can't even begin to understand. Right Adam, 376 entries of overanalysis of your life gives them no clue. So maybe you do understand. What I meant was, every avenue has had such an element of doubt within it. Just like pushing The Trinitrons sit-com to NB fuckin' C when I never had one positive piece of feedback from any industry insiders...EVER back in 2002. What was the point in killing ourselves on a script then? Now I'm not just selling some script and idea...I am going to have an actual piece that will stand alone even as a film. I could put it in festivals, get some buzz that way. It allows me to do so much, and with the history I have to show leading up to it (Trinitrons 1-3) the commitment is glaring. And again, I will also have the money to fund this the way it should be done. What I'll have next fall will be a piece that shows everything I've been killing myself over for 6 looooong years. It's funny that 4tvs is merely a footnote in this piece, but it's the punch-line too - so that's cool.
 
As well, I will now cash-in on every goddamn favor, and create more "favor-debt" than I've ever known in my life. I will need access to houses, office buildings, cars, extras, production assistants, tons of people... it is going to be a HUUUUUUUUGE undertaking. But the good thing is, not only have I come into a new way of making money, I've come into a new group of people that actually have money or know people that do. So doing a scene in someone's Million Dollar home isn't as far-fetched as it sounded even last month. Man, shit can just come together sometimes can't it?
 
The jilted Journey show gets bumped again. It's not like I was looking for a reason to bump what is easily the most depressing idea I've ever had, but I am pretty glad I don't have to wrap my life around all the fucking drama that is years one through five of this trek. There is a place for that, and for now it will just have to be on The Journey DVD (which was about to burn last night at 2:30 AM, when surprise - UNKNOWN ERROR. This is on the new and improved version 5.0 of this stupid fucking worthless no good goddamn freeloading sunuvabitch retarded big mouth know-it all asshole jerk of a program the folks at SONIC like to call DVDiT! - Ahem, sorry). Right, so the DVD will be released in January. It is actually an amazing piece folks. I'm thinking of giving them away. I love the project that much. Maybe just $10 to cover shipping and whatnot. The preview copies I've burned have turned out tremendously - and those with a 16:9 widescreen TV will be in for a treat...it looks incredible.
 
Alright, so I need to go calm down. Get over this flu that has ROCKED my body the past 3 days. Guys, I have an inner ear infection so intense that it actually made me dry heave because of the gurgling and pain. It's slightly better now, but I swear to GOD someone needs to figure out what the fuck is up with my ears. Criminey. Health insurance in 60 days. Woot.
 
Adam