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11:13 PM,
Thursday, September 6th, 2007:
A year ago
today...
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ZAPPOW!
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RANDOM!!!
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GLEEFUL!!!
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The producer of
The Early Show on CBS said they want to do a piece on
me and have me on the show introducing the winner of
the competition two weeks from today in New York.
I believe my reaction was something along the
lines of:
"Are you
FUCKING serious?!?!"
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Ahh
yes, back when I still used Journey
Gods. Before so many unbelieveably good
things happened to me that I gave up
even posting them anymore. This was the
most influential Journey entry of all-time
at that point and in many ways it still
is. This was the opportunity that
I made every right decision. This was
the one that ended up with me going to the
next level - and a year later I'm still on
that level... albeit a bit shaky at the
moment. Read the
entry
last year if ya wanna know all the
particulars (and the next two months if
you want your jaw to drop because it's
extraordinary what occured in
September/October 2006)... this entry is
really taking it all in and seeing "what
happens next?"
I'm in a really
strange place a year after that call. Things would go
straight UP for my career in a way I've never known
for week after week, month after month, for 70
straight entries and 6 straight months and then WHAP.
A blast of cold NY air and it was all over.
From that moment on I went back to the guy I was
before the infamous call a year ago today: the
schemer. There have been nice, happy little moments
since then, but for all intents and purposes - the
ride was over and I was now in the mode I've been
comfortable in all my life: struggling like
CRAZY to get seen/heard/recognized...only this time
with what would seem to be ideal situations to get
just that. Which I guess makes it even more maddening
that the struggle continues.
Artistically? I've
actually outdone myself in the 6 months since the
"communication breakdown" in March. That's the
crazy thing. I start producing better and better
material and somehow end up spinning my wheels more?
The Journey in a nutshell. You gotta remember folks -
the artistic journey and the puzzle that is "making
it" are completely different paths. They just are.
Accepting that allows the "anonymity" of what I've
done lately a little easier to swallow. 'Cause as an
artist... I'm happy. My work is gooooooooooood. The
fact that everything has fallen through since
March.... meh - who cares honestly. I'm making good
shit. I'll keep playing the game, but I'm playing it
as the old "scheming" Adam. I like that
guy.
You guys confused
yet? What about the test show? Isn't that in
conjunction with the big locked entry in February?
You've been alluding to it every show man... what the
hell? To a degree, it is. Yes. But it's Adam scheming.
It's Adam just making things happen and using every
single opportunity to push my ideas further and
further. The "help" I need to take it to the next
level isn't really there anymore - and with what's
happening with Steve any minute, that's not an
exagerration. No, everything that's been going on with
The Egos in the episodes is just a product of scheming
and dreaming. And high quality work is always
good for your career - but truthfully, it's not as
important as luck. You hate to hear that don't you.
You who is an amazing artist so incredible at your
craft. You want to hear that you just have to be
incredible at something and work hard and it will all
work out. Not in show-biz baby. Everyone, repeat along
with me: "Talent and hard work are the
pre-requisites to even ATTEMPT this business."
So once you meet those requirements the only variable
for the break is time. The longer you're here - the
more opprnities you'll get. If you're lucky one of
those opportunities will blow up...much like
CBS did a year ago today...
...but it deflates
just as fast - that's show-biz. Stay a little longer,
you just may get another "dream
crack" phone
call...and the privilege of starting the cycle
allllllllllllllllll over again.
