It's feasible that
this is just a way to add drama to "The Journey". The
proverbial knife in Maximus's side by Commudus right
before the battle where he kills him anyway.
Unfortunately, I'm
pretty logical - and the knife just may kill
me.
The judges watched
the tape. They enjoyed it. Found it impressive. Saw
that it was quite the crowd pleaser. But this year at
the Aspen Comedy Festival there is a more serious
theme. The theme of "free speech" is apparently a
basis for their judgement. Now obviously most one man
shows EASILY fall into this category. It's one guy
talkin' about his life or his views and being witty
and so on...etc. My show however is very, very
different. It completely stands out. It does not, in
any stretch of the imagination, fall into a "cerebral,
free speech" category.
There will be no
callbacks, they are judging the 5 one man shows by
tape as they don't have time to set everything up.
They have narrowed it down to 10, and I am one of
those 10. The whole world down to 10 tapes, with 1/2
making it, and 1/2 not. It would seem those are good
chances with as great as the show is, but with this
"theme" - I'm fucked folks. No chance in my mind. Why?
Because they can soooooo easily find 5 that go with
their more serious theme. By the nature of one-man
shows it all but eliminates me. As well, she mentioned
that I'm completely unknown. These other acts have
applied for Aspen year after year. I guess that plays
a part as well.
There will be a
big advisory board meeting on Wednesday and they'll
make the final announcement for the one-man show
category by the end of the week. Charlotte knows a few
of the people on that board, and we are rushing to
make tapes for them as we speak. If any of these
people push for me, I could buck the "theme" and make
it.
I take all of this
news 2 ways. The first is absoulte and utter
depression. LOL. Something I've thought about every
day for nearly a year - is most likely not gonna
happen. I have yet to allow that to sink in. But the
other side to all this is that had we known of this
theme before...it would've made no difference. I would
still have made the exact same one-man show and gone
the same route. I would've just realized a
LOOOONG TIME ago, that Aspen this year
wasn't gonna happen. Unfortunately, I've built it up
soooo big that this is a SUPREME letdown. And it
shouldn't be! There's nothing I could've changed!
This one-man show is gonna get me a development deal
either way, and that's what really matters. Aspen
would've helped move that process along
VERY nicely.
I just
turned on my video camera. I had it
sitting on top of my monitor for that last
video and I just realized it's all sinking
in, and thought I chould catch this.
Me allowing this all to sink in. Ha! And I
drank a shot of vodka! There. That's a
good way to solve
problems!!!
LOL.
Well there really
is no "problem" to solve. It's just the way it is. I
got my hopes up for something that I couldn't fit
into. And I'm PROUD AS HELL I can't fit into
it. I don't want to be like everyone else - and if
this year they're celebrity a theme that other "fit"
into...I'm not a part of that.
Of course we will
find out for sure most likely on Thursday, but I'd
just as soon move on - start concentrating on the
pilot again (As opposed to losing my FREAKIN' MIND)
and get ready for the next show which should be very,
very soon.
Fuck.
DAMN I wanted
Aspen. What a shitty case of bad timing -
ANY OTHER YEAR. And no, I have no idea what
the themes were in years previous, but I assume that
9/11 had a lot to do with the more "serious" tone -
and that alone makes this one stand out. Well, I'll
try to be an optomist here. I'll make some copies for
Charlotte to pimp and just see if I get lucky. Goddamn
I wish we had had more shows leading up to this so we
could've created more of a buzz. That just may have
propelled me past this serious shit.
