- 2:46 PM, Monday,
March 26th, 2001:
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- It's a double
whammy today. Thus such a strange title for today's
entry. I had a planned entry, and then was
inspired yesterday to write more. I'll start with the
inspiration.
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- See The Oscars
last night? Can you believe they were under 3 1/2
hours? WOW. I have been taping every show since
1989 and that is the first time it didn't go 4
hours...and most times it apporached 4 1/2 hours. I
will refrain from giving my opinions on the show like
everyone seems to be doing. "No one gives a shit what
you thought about the show..." has gone through my
mind all day as I flip through the internet. There was
one moment, and one moment only that stood out to me
as incredibly special. Steven Soderbergh's
speech.
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- Not only did he do
what should become the NORM in Oscarland (here
I go with my opinions...grrrr) - thanking people
privately...what he said really hit me...
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- "There
are a lot of people to thank. Rather than
thank some of them publicly, I think I'll
thank all of them privately. What I want
to say is, I wanna thank anyone who
spends part of their day CREATING. I don't
care if it's a book, a film, a painting, a
dance, a piece of theatre, a piece of
music...anybody who spends part of their
day sharing their experience with us - I
think this world would be UNLIVEABLE
without ART and I thank you. That
includes The Academy, that includes my
fellow nominees here tonight. Thank you
for inspiring me, thank you for
this."
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- Quite simply the
most inspiring thing I've heard in a loooooooooong
time. As you can see by hopping around the site, I put
a stupid amount of work into this site. Truly not
worthy of my time in a sense. People rarely read all
these entries (for now)...and I know that. Many a
hidden counter within these entry pages has shown less
than 10 hits. 3 of which include myself, Jessica and
my father - LOL. So why the hell do I put so many
hours and hours into it? I have to. I have
to create. I have to write, I have to produce the
videos, I have to sing the songs, I have to act
the parts, I have to direct my life, and
I have...to be...an artist. And I think that's
what hit me so hard about his speech - thinking of
myself as "an artist".
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- I'm not a big fan
of most people within: "the art world". It's filled
with such arrogance and such entitlement, it's
something I don't strive to be a part of. But I am an
artist. Goddamn am I an artist. I'm the most obsessive
artist I know. I feel I have to - EVERYDAY
OF MY LIFE - produce something that is
tangible and creative. So much so it's a challenge
like no other to "focus" on just one (though you bet I
am lately)...
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- So thank
YOU Steven. I felt so proud to be who
I am at that moment - I can barely express it.
And for an artist, that's saying a lot. You have
inspired me in a way that I certainly wasn't
expecting. And isn't that the best way to be inspired?
I will thank you in person someday.
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- Alright - so the
original reason for this entry. So I get a call from
MSN, my DSL provider last night...starting as
early as TODAY - my DSL will cease to work. Northpoint
commnications is no longer working with MSN, and they
were the provider. So I am screwed. After months and
months of fighting and 5...yes 5 technicians in my
home trying to get it to work - I have it for
about 7 weeks. GREAT. I get to keep the modem
which is cool, but most companies make you use their
own. My biggest bummer was of course the access to my
mp3s which through NAPSTER has been going amazingly.
Nearly 1000 people fully downloaded my stuff - and
lord knows how many people downloaded from THEM. But
without a broadband connection it's worthless. So
before armageddon hits, I've uploaded Star Wars Blew,
Hearing My Thoughts, Stronger Than Before, and The
Late Show Anthologies 1&2, and 3&4 to Scott's
server. I then scanned the backs of all my CDs and
made 200 seperate FREAKIN' HOTSPOTS for you to click
on to download the mp3s. Yeah - that was a good waste
of about 2 1/2 hours. JESUS. As well mp3s is now a
permanent link on the site and "The Trinitrons" will
be moved to the "LINKS" section of 4tvs in April. Not
sure why I didn't put it there to begin with - guess I
was just excited.
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- And of course the
4tvs Productions section STILL isn't done. I've
outdone myself with that - but 4tvs Productions is my
most vaiable money-making prospect for the near future
so I need to invest some time into it.
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- I will try - oh
how I will try - to make my next entry 4tvs
Productions...but something tells me I'll find some
excuse to do another entry before then.
Heh.
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- Thanks again Mr.
Soderbergh,
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- Adam
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- original
video file
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