It's just so
perfect, isn't it? It's not the best, but it's just so
tidy. All the cards in order, and all in the same
suit. It's what you did when you were 9 years old and
you got your first deck of cards...you put them all in
order. It's what I want my life to be more than
anything in the world. Well, not actually my whole
life, but just some clear-cut career path with goals.
The chances of having that are about the same chances
of getting THAT hand at a poker slot machine in
Vegas.
Well, I guess my
career is screwed, 'cause I blew my perverbial wad on
the slot machine. Yup, I hit a straight flush in Vegas
and got 250 times my money. I'd love to tell you I was
playing the $100 slots and got $25,000 - but that just
ain't the case. Quarter-slots. I know. $62.50. Sucks
doesn't it. Then again, I could've been playing the
nickel slots and gotten $12.50. As it stands, I paid
for our hotel room, gas money, and a few more slots.
It was quite the thrill though. Holding a bucket of
290 quarters (thank GOD I won early), and watchin' 'em
put it in the machine to count them. Of course it
didn't take long until I did the math with the other
slots. $1 slots and I just won $250. Oh well, thank
GOD I didn't hit the nickel slots. I'd have been
bummed all weekend.
Oh
yeah...uhm..."HEY! Jess and I are going to Vegas
tomorrow!" - Uhm, that's what I should've told you a
few days ago. I missed that one didn't I. It was
basically that "spur of the moment". A friend of mine
from way back in the WTVN Late Show days was there and
I said: "Hey, let's have dinner!" And Jess had the day
off, so we went up. It's only a 4 hour drive, and we
got a hotel room for $30. God love Vegas. Cheap rooms,
free parking - free drinks, and we drove home actually
"up" from before we went there. How freakin' often
does that happen? But it all gets me back to the
problem at hand: direction.
You know, the 4tvs
show last week was actually called: "4tvs - pick
Adam's career".
Thursday,
January 25th, 2001 - 8:30-10:45
PM
LULU'S BEEHIVE
12
THE SETUP
Again all of
the zip-ties broke on one tv. (sigh) - somehow the tv
didn't go all over the place. I'm lost - they all
break on ONE tower, the other one is fine. I'm
gonna have to figure that out for nect time. As well
Marty isn't here, and that just pisesd me off. I had
to ask some customer to help me take he towers down.
The whole thing was designed for two people. I gave
the guy a free cd for helping me unload and load. It
just makes me feel completely UN-professional.
Otherwise, the set-up was a breeze...except
I moved a speaker in front of a tv, and got that
nasty magnetic thing going...I couldn't get it
fixed...hopefully it works out nect
time.
Voice felt
good, and man was the audience paying attention..it
was great. I guess on to the
reaction...
THE REACTION
Great, great,
great. I called the show: "Pick Adam's Career".
I've been stressin' lately about what the hell I'm
gonna do. Of course after everything was said and done
- everyone just said: "Keep doing THAT - that was
COOL!" (sigh). The first set there were 24 people
watching intently. The place was silent. It was great.
Even on The Harry Connick Jr. set they seemed
enamored. So the rest just flowed with no problem.
I love doing Harry and Rhythm because it shows
people I'm a serious singer as well as this goofy
gimmicky guy. So everything went well and had great
reaction. A guy even gave me $10 in the tip jar!!! I
felt bad because I would've gladly given him a
CD, but Jess said "he thought you were worth it
without getting anything. Goddamn that feels good
I must admit. Then the kicker of the whole night,
the guy who helped me unload said there was a HUGE
RECORD EXEC in the audience. He was pointed
out to him, but didn't know his name or who he was
with. Sounds great, but of course the guy never came
up to me, so it's a complete failure in my mind.
Again, someone who could probably help me writes me
off because I was probably doing a goofy parody set
the moment he walked in. Whereas if I had been
doing some originals, and serious stuff, he may have
given me his card. On the same hand if seom
TV exec walks in and I'm doing some original
stuff, and showing off NONE of my personality,
I'm in the same boat. What to do, and where to
go...it's all begininng to haunt me.
Grrrrr....
Everyone told me
to keep doing 4tvs. That helps. Ya see the past few
weeks I've been in a constant state of confusion.
I feel this incredible need to PICK something and
GO FOR IT. On the other hand, I feel
this incredible need to keep doing 4tvs because it
shows so much. Well the show really nailed home the
point. Apparently a really big record exec was in the
crowd during the show, yet he never came up to me. A
patron later told me. Now most likely he was on during
a goofy set, and missed the fact that I could really
sing, or write original music. So there's an
opportunity completely wasted, because I'm doing too
much. So now what do I do? Drop everything and pick
one road? Just original music? Just stand-up comedy?
(sigh), for now I'm staying the course until something
shows a bit of light, but never before has my gut been
so torn. My gut has lead me to some pretty cool shit
though:
Sir Paddy Talker
is doing a web cartoon for www.nibblebox.com and asked
me to do the them song for the show. That's cool.
Those of you with my "Hearing My Thoughts" CD, will
recognize it as a slight bastardation of "It's You".
The Web-toon is called "Bitches" - it all just fits.
The nice part about this, is on top of a nice little
check for doing the song (very little, but still
cool), I'll get a tiny residual per episode...or so
Sir Paddy Talker says. LOL. I have to razz him here.
Not sure if he still grasps the concept of
"SHUTTING THE FUCK UP
UNTIL YOU CAN BACK IT UP"....but
GOD LOVE his enthusiasm.
As well, his
roomate Marshall heard the song, and felt my music was
perfect for the short film he was putting together.
This has no money attached to it, but the exposure
could far exceed "Bitches". He's submitting his film
"Pep Talk" to many film festivals. It's a cool little
10 minute short about a guy who talks to himself to
fell better about his girlfriend dumping him. Marshall
felt my music was perfect, and I must say - thank
GOD I kept all those bumpers form WTVN. They came
in quite handy. What was simply made for a transition
from commercials back into my show, have provided the
perfect segue for the scenes for this movie. As well
the "Ooh-la Oh-la" songs on my "Hearing My Thoughts"
disc are a godsend. People thought I was freakin' high
when I wrote them, but they have found a nice
little home. The shiznit about ALL of this is the
fact that someday soon, I'm going to be able to sit in
a theater and hear my music. Christ. There's only one
way to spell that experience: B-O-N-E-R. Baby steps
indeed, but quite a thrill.
For
the past several months I've also been
working with Michele Greene, an
actress/singer you may remember from her
days on "LA Law". She was the youngest
prosecutor in the firm. She's still acting
and has just released a cd, samples of
which you can find on her site:
michelegreene.com.
I've put together this site, as well taped
a live performance in November and put
together a full length and demo tape for
her. Check out the opening
to the
video.
On the net, it's pretty dark to see some
of it, but the whole thing was a bit dark
as it was done in a nightclub.
All of these
little things are what has lead me to the next entry
which will be entitled "4tvs Productions". The
realization that I'm producing soooooo many different
things, in so many different areas, that I'd like to
merge it all into one production company. Things as
simple as photo-retouching, to full out video
production, to musical scoring, to web design, to even
logo designing...I've done it all on a professional
level, and well. The unused stuff on Hollywood
Screentest ALONE is a huge amount of work that shows
what I can do. So I'm hoping next week I can put
together a nice huge section showcasing my experience
and hopefully getting a few jobs. As well, for even
you reading this, you may see a service you could use.
Would you like to make that 60 minute tape of Kevin's
Barmitzfah about 10 minutes with music behind it and a
few graphics? Guarantee I can beat anyone around with
price, creativity, and speed. Worst-case scenerio, I
get no work, I still have a great resume online
showing more avenues of talent. Of course...wasn't the
point to focus more?
