!?!?! Is this the
wrong entry? March 12th? Well it's certainly WRONG -
LOL. Let me explain. On January 12th, I wrote
this entry believing in my heart of hearts it was
true. I kept it locked as it was quite inflamatory -
and I wanted to see if it could be resolved. On
February 9th, while reeling in depression and wanting
to get my side out for lack of resolution, I felt It
had to be unlocked. I added this amendment to
it:
What follows is
the very first "Locked" entry in the history of
"The Journey". At the time I didn't want Gary to know
that I knew what he had done... On February 9th, 2002
after rereading it, I decided to unlock the
entry. It explained a small part of why I was so
depressed, and really, there's no reason to have it
locked unless there was a way to properly solve the
problem. However there isn't. The only thing
I can do, is tell my side, and hope somewhere
down the road, people will take the time to read it.
Unfortunately, people believe what they want to
believe - what sounds the best...and will most likely
never take the time to "research" the truth. Well to
those who have gotten this far, here's what
happened:
It stayed unlocked
for another month until March 8th when I found
out that what I originally believed, and the entire
reason for the entry, was COMPLETELY wrong. I
immediately locked it AGAIN. (sigh, this entry has a
"journey" of it's own).
And after
publically exhonerating Gary on March 12th, I am now
opening it back up for the last time - poking fun at
just how wrong I was. Here ya go:
4:51 AM, Saturday,
January 12th, 2002:
Exactly two months
ago today, I had the night of my life. I was on
top of the world. I rocked The Comedy Store. That
night was one of my proudest moments. The flyer for
that night was framed and hung in Charlotte's office,
my office, and my father's office. Just looking at it
fills me with pride, and it's easily one of my dearest
possessions. I not only made an impression on the
audience, but everyone involved with the venue was
glowing. The woman who booked me, Belinda, even got
onstage and announced to the crowd that I'd be playing
the main room from this point on. To this point, the
pinnacle of my career...
Amazingly, Gary
outdid me. He got me. He was able to absolutely ruin
one of the best memories I've ever had.
It's
funny, after reading this entry in
February,
I'm
pretty sure Gary wished he HAD done this -
LOL.
Get
this:
The reason I'm not
playing The Comedy Store again, and why Charlotte
isn't having any of her calls returned is because that
night back in November, I apparently told everyone I
belonged on the main stage THEN, that this was all
just a formality. I was rude and arrogant to every
single employee there telling them this. I even
personally called back TWICE since then, asking
why I hadn't been booked on the main stage already.
That is how every person involved with The Comedy
Store now feels about me. And this is why, I have not,
and will not, be asked to come back again.
Got all
that?
Miscommunication,
not fact - simply what I was
told.
That
lead to this
assumption:
So where does Gary
fit into all of this? Well, after my show back in
November - Gary started talkin' shit to our apartment
manager about how I didn't thank him for all he
did for me. As I mentioned in the
"Incomprehensible" entry back then, his interference
almost did-in the show. Because of him now draggin my
name down to mutual friends, I felt the need to
completely break ties with him. He showed his true
colors in so many ways, and I simply cannot surround
myself with people of his class. If you don't take
things like this seriously in this city, you're
doomed. I decided I had to break off ties with
him, and quickly. I wrote a very succinct letter
listing the several lies he perpetrated in my face and
how because of this, I could no longer be associated
with him. I ended by saying I wished him luck, and
hoped he could see what he had done and learn from
it.
Gary
was pissed I didn't thank
him,
and
we actually settled those issues in
person
as
I describe in this next
paragraph:
A month later (the
night of my XMAS show), he comes to my door and
actually apologizes. He says he reread the letter and
saw that I was right. No shit people...this really
happened. He said he didn't know what he was doing at
the time, and was just trying to help. I was so
flabbergasted that he would admit fault I just
sat in silence. He basically wanted to clear the air,
and I said that I could be cordial and we could put
this behind us. Then of course comes today
(technically yesterday), and Charlotte's call to The
Comedy Store.
Charlotte got
ahold of the artist relations person at The Comedy
Store. He proceeded to tell her what I described
above. Now obviously, every single word of it is
untrue. I talked to none of the other employees that
night except the woman who booked me, and everything
was more than cordial. And someone apparently called
up The Comedy Store pretending to be me demanding to
know why I wasn't booked on the main stage
already. Gary being a regular now at The Comedy Store
(did I mention that? Jesus I didn't....hmmm
lemme finish this thought) obviously lead to the
"arrogant" rumors as I was well aware that he'd use
whatever power he thought he had to besmirch my name.
Because
I had talked to no
employees
that
night, this was my
assumption.
I
now realize that because I acted
like
"Live
Adam" (arrogant, cool, &
silent)
BEFORE I
went onstage, that
lead
to this feeling. Charlotte really
felt
people
would get the joke once the
other
TVs were making fun of
me.
They
didn't.
Now the regular
thing. I just went back over all the entries and
realized I missed quite a crucial part of the whole
Gary story! This whole time you've thought Gary was
the manager at The Comedy Store...well he ceased doing
that in late October. Mitzi found out he was a comic
and she didn't want him to manage her store anymore
and he became an "unpaid regular" At the time, this
was thought of as a big STEP UP for Gary. Yeah, he
lost a paycheck, but he was now an unpaid regular at
The Comedy Store. I was quite happy for him, and
somehow never mentioned it within the entries.
Of course what
really gets me though are the phone calls. That is a
form of malice so outstanding, It would be comedic if
not so horrific. Charlotte and I racked our brains on
any other explanation for this but the artist's
relations guy was quite specific that I had
called. Charlotte even said right then: "I know he
didn't call", and was met with: "Performers are known
to do that you know..."
Miscommunication,
I spoke with him
personally.
Whew. This is
overwhelming really. I simply need to take deep
breaths, allow my true thoughts and feelings to come
out, and again give insight to how the "journey"
transforms me. Every single event that happens now
justmolds my character SOO MUCH. It's really
amazing. So what do I REALLY feel?
I am completely
heartbroken. To know that's the true feeling of that
establishment completely breaks my heart. To know that
someone called AS ME, and acted so rudely and so
arrogantly - so much so as to keep me from ever
playing there again, is devastating. To know that this
has been the prevailing feeling for 2 months and only
NOW do we know of this, is an utter embarassment.
Worst of all it taints the happy memories so much. The
reaction at THAT ESTABLISHMENT was what made the
night so special. To kick ass there at that moment,
showed me, Charlotte, my father and everyone - that
this was all gonna happen. To know now that all the
happiness stopped the second I got offstage
because I apparently told everyone I should've been
playing the main room, and that I deserved this and
that -just breaks my heart. Kills me.
This
is all absolutely
true.
I was
COMPLETELY
devastated.
My number one fear
realized: arrogance. The one thing I try so hard
to balance. I'm obviously confident of my abilities -
but I DO NOT throw that in other people's
faces. I know how good I am with people who
congratulate me after shows. I know that I
SINCERELY care about them. That night I was so
thankful for everyone's response and never mentioned
anything more. The only mention of the main stage was
made by the woman who booked me who
GOT ON STAGE and announced it. I know all of
this...
...but it doesn't
change the situation. It doesn't change that the
message received (through lies and out and out
malicious fake phone calls) is one of an arrogant
asshole who felt he deserved the world. So much show
that it bled into ALL OF THE BOOKERS,
for ALL OF THE NIGHTS.
This
DID NOT HAPPEN.
Now that this has
sunk in a bit, add this to the mix - and "celebrity"
becomes just a bit easier to understand.
I can't call the
artist relations person. I can't make a simple
phonecall to this guy and explain that there was a
miscommunication. Any of you in this situation would
resolve it quickly. You'd talk to the people involved,
get to the bottom of it and move on. I have to have
others speak for me. I have to let my
representation do everything, and I can't even be
there. I get to sit in front of my computer or TV
and wait. Wait and wait. Try and "not think about it".
So not only can't I take action when it comes to
booking shows or setting up meetings, which
I have been dealing with the past few months -
I can't salvage my reputation. I can't scream at
the mountaintop that I'm innocent of all of this.
I can't seek some sort've retribution from the
person or persons that did this to me. I have to
sit. I have to wait. I have to hope Charlotte says
everything I want to say in the letter to Mitzi.
I have to hope the slanderous events that
happened against me are brought to some sort of
justice. I have to DO...NOTHING.
I
hope this last paragraph gives you an
idea
of
just what I was going through. Unlocking
this
entry
in February was my way to say
"LOOK!
I never did this!!!"
And what is
justice in all of this? Can there be? I want some
sort've retribution really. I want everyone's true
reputation represented here. If Gary has this great
standing as a regular at The Comedy Club, yet my
reputation is turned to shit
BECAUSE OF HIM...I want those roles
reversed! He's the one who should be known as the
asshole...not me. I'm the one who stayed at the club
until 1 AM simply to not be rude to any of the fellow
performers, although I was told I could take my
equipment down earlier. I'm the one who goes
OUT OF MY WAY to be loyal to others,
and be polite and sincere - Gary does the exact
opposite. If true justice were really to prevail here
it would entail clearing my name, and certainly
"clearing up" Gary's. Of course how this could ever
happen is beyond me. I guess a formal letter to Mitzi
and the artist relations person is the only way to
start. Man, everything being dealt with by second and
third parties. So painful. No matter what happens, the
12th of November is forever tarnished. Yes, I can
still be happy about how the audience liked me, but
the people that really matter - the people that make
up The Comedy Store were so offended by how rude and
arrogant I was, I won't be invited back. And that's
what I get for telling someone, I didn't want to be
associated with him anymore. He decided to absolutely
drown me all because I was honest with
him.
Ouch.
It'd be wrong of me to just edit
that
last
paragraph because I realize I was
wrong.
That's
not what this "edit" is for. It's
to
further
explain the truth. It's what we all
strive
for
right? All I can say is had he
actually
done
this...would you feel any
different?
Well to that end I
say this: You got one memory dude. You fucked me once.
You took what was truly the best night of my career so
far, and fucked with my memory SOOOOO much, that
it will never hold the same meaning...
...but you didn't
take the time to look at who you were hurting. This is
someone who has more drive, and more determination
than anyone you will ever meet. And now my ambition is
aimed at you! Don't you see that? In order to rectify
this situation, you've made me HAVE to show everyone
who you truly are! What the hell were you thinking?
I wished you luck and was completely open and
honest with you...and you do this? Now I HAVE to,
because of your actions, bring out the TRUTH in this
situation. That truth is gonna kill you.
No,
it's gonna kill me. This
miscommunication
absolutely
killed me. As you'll read in the coming
months
it
lead to some amazing heartache. The bottom
line
is
th truth is coming out right now. Gary did
not call The
Comedy
Store as me to tarnish my
reputation.
Yet
another year in LA starts with "Talkin'
Shit", but this time it's MUCH more
serious. And it will most certainly be
dealt with accordingly. Apparently
with bread and butter.
At
least I still have a sense of
humor.
YouTube
link added
12.21.07
Adam
You know,
in apologizing to Gary he said this: "Hey,
that was what you BELIEVED happened,
I understand that." And that really is
the bottom line. I will no longer simply
"believe" what others tell me when it
involves something so important. I will wait
to hear it for with my own ears - and even
then...posting it on the internet is the
majority of the time: WRONG. Getting your
side out is one thing, but this went too far.
All apolgies Gary, and to those of you who
are reading everything in order... please
continue doing so. Lots've interesting
developments await.
