- 11:42 AM, Sunday,
September 11th, 2005:
- ...my song anyway.
Don't get all geared up for The Boyles just yet.
- After making
"Leaderless State" a week ago I sent the video
and mp3 to a bunch of stations on Air America as fast
as possible as I felt the song was only "current"
while there was a lack of response. Oddly enough a
couple days ago the host and producer of "Mother Jones
Radio" gave me a call and said they wanted to use it
for the end of their show this morning. Well Giddy-up.
Air America is gaining quite a bit of steam this year
across the country and I'll certainly be sending them
anything else I do politically. They're also
linking my site and video on their site. Can't
- I do feel the need
to say to anyone new to the site jumping on that
I find both extremes of the political scale to be
somewhat hurtful to the struggle to find the "truth"
in all that's going on. I appreciate what Air
America is doing, and what Mother Jones has done for
years, but it all seems so agenda-driven the
"truth" gets blurred. Right now however -
I believe the "truth" just happens to be the
exact-fucking-opposite of what the Bush administration
is saying, so the far left media rings truer than ever
before. LOL. I have never had a label other than
"libertarian" (my favorite none of the above choice),
and my core beliefs are actually quite conservative.
Responsibility, smaller government, the whole "rugged
individualism" aspect that used to be the core of most
conservative beliefs. Now however, that's all a thing
of the past as our government has twisted everything
so far out of proportion there's no other label for
them other than "wrong". The choices this
administration has made have literally endangered our
lives. Not only are we less safe we literally taunt
the rest of the fuggin' world while we put our
defenses down. (sigh).
- In a surreal
moment last week, Marty and I finally spoke to
each other about this. Marty is 100% pro-Bush and has
been as long as I've known him. As men tend to do, we
just don't talk about it. I consider him my best
friend and there's never been a reason to go down any
other paths that would piss us off. In the nearly 9
years I've known him we've never been in a fight. The
only time I was pissed at him was when he came out
here in late 2000, then gave up after 6 weeks. But you
can't be really pissed at someone who readily
admits: "Dude I was scared, wanted to come home."
And that was really the end of it.
- However, this
month is obviously unlike any of the other 68 months
in the Journey. It was unavoidable that the subject
would be brought up - and I just came out and
asked him how he felt. He posed it in such a way
I was literally befuddled with compassion. That's
a strange thing to be befuddled with... He said:
"Here's what I'm hearing...". It wasn't argumentative,
it wasn't emotional. We're all slaves to the
information so: "Here's what I'm hearing..." You can't
help but counter that with: "OK man, here's what
I'm hearing...." And what unfolded was one of the
nicest, most peaceful discussions I've ever had on a
political subject in a long time. Amazing considering
there has never been a subject that has hit me more
emotionally than this. No grand compromises were
conceived, it really comes down to if you're pro-bush
in September of 2005, nothing is going to change your
mind. When your mouthpieces on the radio say
unequivacolly that it was a local bundle and not FEMA,
you're going to be hard pressed to change your stance.
The bottom line here was, we had a peaceful discussion
because we just shared the two sides and we were both
INFURIATED at how many days passed while those
people didn't get help. ANd guys, I'm completely fair
about this: I think the governor could have
done more...but the point is - when it's obvious this
person is OVER there head - hell even
POLITICALLY, it makes sense to go in there and get the
job done right. Everything I'm hearing says she
declared the State of Emergency the Saturday before so
Bush had every right to do that. JUST as they did
in Florida the year previous. The theories as to why
FLORIDA might have gotten preferrential treatment are
just beyond my wee little brain to comprehend.
- Anyway, it was
certainly a bit eerie listening to a mono
an Adam Kontras song after all these years. LOL. They
stream it live so I was able to get a nice
recording of the end of the show and put together a
little video for it. The host and producer were really
great: "Thanks so much! You do great work, very
powerful! Keep it up and stay in touch." So
they'll certainly be a first stop for anything new
I do that's political. Always nice to have
positive feedback. Curious to see what will come of
the links to the video version of "Leaderless
- Now, in other news
- I'm off work for a little over a month. Whew.
I have been "checked-out" for quite some time and
I finally just went in and told them I had
to refocus and come back. Luckily when I first
got there I was kicking much butt and they know
what I can do. I just have to be in a certain
frame of mind for this job. It's 100% money-driven.
100%. I however, am not money driven. Not even a tiny
percent. When I had to be last year and
early this year - I thrived like no one. I had no
other choice but to. Now? I have no immediate
needs. I'm not responsible for a wife or a child...
and making $20,000 a month just doesn't mean anything
to me. I see the value in concentrating for 3-4
months and making a fortune, but I am simply
unable to do that right now. This job is literally a
competition between others and they straight up tell
you: "____ made $30,000 last month, ____ made
$25,000 - what can youuuuuuuuuuuuuu do?!?!?!" LOL.
I can protest in DC about the injustice of our
own actions against the rest of the world. How much is
THAAAAAAAAAT worth? LOL. I believe this phase
will pass (as will some of my savings) and come late
October I will need to get back into that mode.
For now I am worthless as far as selling loans is
concerned. It's a means to an end...and it's an end
I already have. My heart couldn't be further
- Which of course
brings me to that part of this journey.
I am without a doubt, smitten. The lack of
pressure on my relationship with Cassi is completely
intoxicating. I'm sure it's much like what Jess is
feeling right now with her boyfriend. Comfort. It is
such an insane difference compared to what we've both
been through in the past year, you can't help but let
out a sigh of relief and enjoy it. To laugh, smile,
hug, kiss, and RELAAAAAAAAAAAX. Oh the pain will
come...LOL. But for right now all people involved are
breathing and moving on. It's healthy, it's needed and
it's completely BORING to the readers. Thank, fucking,
- I'll be leaving
for DC in about a week and a half. Rest assured this
will be covered much like the Japan trip and
I will do my damndest to get arrested with great
police brutatlity videos for the site!