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1:00 PM, Friday, June 17th 2005:   Columbus, Ohio:   I've spent the last 30 minutes arranging my couches in the new apartment while listening to WNCI 97.9 (sorry 101, couldn't get you in) and hearing commercials about Red, White & Boom next week. Every few minutes I step out onto the balcony and look at the surroundings and take in how green everything is. How clean the air is, and how much I actually prefer this weather over LA. Is this the moment I wake up? No, I just woke up after an incredibly long 10 hours of sleep which I so desperately needed after a long day of moving and unpacking. So what, the, fuck, is going on Adam?   Heh, I'm helping Jess move into her apartment. LOL. I enjoyed that paragraph. Hope I got a couple of you.   Jess is at work right now and I'm here alone just cleaning up and putting boxes in the right parts of the aprtment. Must admit though, since all of her "stuff" is shared stuff we bought together - this absolutely feels like I'm rearranging my new apartment back in Ohio. Strangely, it doesn't give me that overwhelmingly sick feeling in my stomach that it used to. And that really doesn't mean what you would think. It just means I'm somewhat numb to all pain. The sensitivity to failure that I had in 2002, is simply gone. You can't continue to be oversensitive when you're exposed to something 24 hours a day for 3 years. LOL. That was a whole lot funnier if you could've heard me say it. Ahhh, speaking of which...   ...my dad gave me a pretty damn good idea the day I got here and it's been rattling around in my brain for a bit: Books on Tape. Well books on CD these days. Some of the stories within the journey, would make really good "spoken" stories especially with all the music already written. And in a sense that was what the 4tvs Journey show was all about. Telling the stories with all the videos and music in one big show. This could be a companion to all of that. What I like more than anything about this idea is just the marketability of it all. I can make a complete 5 CD novel - recorded professionally with music (the uniqueness of all of it) and would have an actual product to sell to book companies. The problem of course in this is that I know nothing about the publishing world and from what I do know, there are no books ONLY on tape. It's usually a very popular novel that has such HUUUUUUGE demand busy people can enjoy it to and from work. I can't imagine a no-name author with a bookless novel just getting a publishing company to push and market this group of CDs. I know, I'm such an insanely good devil's advocate that I ruin good ideas before they start. Well rest assured I like the idea and am going to make one disc (roughly an hour of the story) and see what I can do with it. What will make this feasible of course is that in the worst case scenario - I have a very cool product that I can just file on Adamazon.com and move on.   I also have to say that it solves some aggrivations I've had about the journey: that people can't read for more than 5 minutes without getting distracted. Well who's to say they're going to be able to listen to someone read for any longer? The universal attention span in our society is at such a deficit it forces artists to change their art. It's as big of a problem as just getting signed. Your song is 5 minutes? Too bad. Your BLOG isn't 2 paragraphs? Forget it. Who's gonna read ALLLLLLLL of that?   It should be interesting telling a story like this. It's really just talk radio. My only concern is just how boring it will be. And whenever I delve into the idea of doing fiction instead of just doing the journey I can't get away from just making some big-ass Boyles episode. I'm in such dire need of a good producer, director, manager... I'm just too creative. Wow, how arrogant is that statement? But damnit it's so true. I need someone in-the-know to harness all of this creativity and whittle it into a focused path. It's so funny everytime I mention that I think of Marshall who constantly yells at me when I say that. "Why do you need someone to tell you what to do!!" And I always reply that without it - I do EVERYTHING. He's lucky in that his heart is easily read. He's a filmmaker. Has no interest in performing whatsoever. He's in film groups, writes short films, produces them - and is in that genre of the industry. His path is much more focused and he doesn't really need anyone to tell him what to do. When I search my heart? Holy shit. What don't I want to do? Hell, what do I do so poorly it's obviously not a talent I should follow? Dancing. I shouldn't be a dancer. LOL. There, glad we have that settled. Now what other parts of the industry are left?   (sigh)   I can't even pretend I'm stressing about my career right now, 'cause I'm not. I'm quite relaxed right now to tell you the truth. Fully rested, chillin' on the couch typing an entry. I'm honestly completely content with what I produce and create. My artistic side is filled so much all the time. Thank GOD for computers! My canvas is so huge! And now portable! It's just a matter of time before the rest of the world catches on. Too bad I've been saying that line for 1/2 my life. Heh.   More from Columbus soon...   Adam A