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12.22.07
8:50 PM,
Wednesday, April 13th 2005:
The
following two back to back days are
classic Palaur legend rolled into the
quickest amount of time. I mean
I must admit, this one sure doesn't
fuck around does it?
So we
talked Monday night and Tuesday morning.
It was beautiful and loving. Nothing I
liked better than hearing her as I went to
sleep and hearing her as I awoke. It
looked like we'd finally have the lunch we
had tried to set-up for days the previous
week:
Palauragain:
hey!
Adambeworkin:
i know i know
Adambeworkin:
lol
Adambeworkin:
goddamn piano tuner was an hour
late
Adambeworkin:
couldn't work out
Adambeworkin:
and was late for work
Palauragain:
haha
Adambeworkin:
and he didnt fix DICK
Palauragain:
after all that??
Adambeworkin:
grrrrr
Adambeworkin:
yeah
Adambeworkin:
please tell me you have pleasant
news
Adambeworkin:
Palauragain:
'pleasant'?
Palauragain:
haha
Palauragain:
hmmmm
Adambeworkin:
as in the opposite of
Adambeworkin:
i'm not eating today
Adambeworkin:
so you'll never see me
again
Adambeworkin:
lol
Adambeworkin:
:-)
Adambeworkin:
;-)
Adambeworkin:
:-8
Adambeworkin:
hmmm - i need more quizical
faces
Adambeworkin:
:-/
Adambeworkin:
======D~~~
Adambeworkin:
now ya see, that there is what we did
back in the day - to make the girls go
"ewww"
Adambeworkin:
;-)
Palauragain:
sorry...damn
Palauragain:
people are CRAZY
Palauragain:
men in particular
Adambeworkin:
watch it
Adambeworkin:
i've been told i'm a
man
Palauragain:
man...so....last night at the
gym...
Palauragain:
this guy who I see almost all the
time
Palauragain:
came over
Palauragain:
started talking
Palauragain:
introduced himself blah
blah
Palauragain:
I was nice, shook his hand, said
'hello' and went back to my
workout
Adambeworkin:
right
Palauragain:
he proceeded to ask what I did for a
living, blah blah...
Palauragain:
I said I work in commercial real
estate
Palauragain:
and my name was Alaur
Palauragain:
THATS IT!
Palauragain:
so...
Adambeworkin:
well you obviously tried to fuck
him
Adambeworkin:
lol
Palauragain:
I get a call right now!
Palauragain:
shut up!!!
Palauragain:
he tracked me
down.......!!!!!!!!
Palauragain:
called the receptionist
Adambeworkin:
wait
Adambeworkin:
that's scary as fuck
Palauragain:
she transferred his cal lto
me
Adambeworkin:
he should at least wait until he sees
you again
Adambeworkin:
and ask for your #
Palauragain:
I answered "This is
*****"
Adambeworkin:
christ
Palauragain:
NO SHIT!!!
Palauragain:
he said "Hi, this is ****, remember
me?"
Palauragain:
I was sooo caught off
guard
Palauragain:
I didnt know who it was at
first
Palauragain:
then he said "from the
gym...:"
Adambeworkin:
wow - was that just right
now
Palauragain:
I DIDNT EVEN TELL HIM THE NAME OF MY
COMPANY!!
Palauragain:
HOW THE FUCK DID HE TRACK ME
DOWN???
Adambeworkin:
wow - it must be a sign
Adambeworkin:
go for it
Adambeworkin:
lololololol
Adambeworkin:
what did you tell him?
Palauragain:
Call EVERY SINGLE real estate comapny
in West LA??!?!
Palauragain:
lol
Palauragain:
and ask for a
"Alaur"!?!?!?
Palauragain:
I know I laugh now..but thats kinda
weird
Adambeworkin:
KINDA?
Adambeworkin:
so what did you say?
Palauragain:
said he wanted to 'take me for coffee
and talk business'
Palauragain:
I said "I really dont know my schedule
right now, I'll have to get back with
you'
Palauragain:
He said "Ok, see you at the
gym"
Adambeworkin:
you should have said - if i wanted you
to call me i would have given you my
number
Adambeworkin:
CLICK
Palauragain:
lol
Palauragain:
No shit!
Adambeworkin:
but, well - i might be a bit
biased
Palauragain:
I was just completely caught OFF
GUARD
Adambeworkin:
i mean, that's pretty stupid
aggressive
Adambeworkin:
i've walked that thin line of stalker
in my day
Adambeworkin:
but you don't track someone
down
Adambeworkin:
who didn't give you their
#
Adambeworkin:
and expect them to be anything but
freaked out
Palauragain:
no kidding..not the best impression to
make right off
Palauragain:
usually I work out with my friend
*****
Adambeworkin:
yeah - but he got you when you're
thinking about business
opportunities
Palauragain:
so guys leave me alone
Adambeworkin:
ahh
Adambeworkin:
good call
Palauragain:
but last night I worked out
alone
Palauragain:
so...I guess I was fair
game?
Palauragain:
lol
Adambeworkin:
is that why you were so
late?!?!!?!
Adambeworkin:
Palauragain:
lol
Palauragain:
shooooosh!
Adambeworkin:
....
Adambeworkin:
so...
Palauragain:
I just told *****
Adambeworkin:
still there?
Palauragain:
ya, he's giving me 'advice' on the
situation...
Adambeworkin:
<rolling eyes>
Adambeworkin:
lol
Palauragain:
hehe
Adambeworkin:
$10 it involves him
Adambeworkin:
lol
Palauragain:
hahahaaha
Adambeworkin:
gimme an eta on lunch
babe
Palauragain:
man, I really need
GIRLfriends....
Adambeworkin:
that was my advicec
Palauragain:
my 'guy buddies' are waaaaay too biased
on their opinions
Palauragain:
lol
Adambeworkin:
but i thought i'd let you figure that
out
Palauragain:
know any cool girls my
age?
Palauragain:
heh
Adambeworkin:
...
Palauragain:
is that a no'?
Palauragain:
you must work with alot of
chicks
Adambeworkin:
scroll up
Adambeworkin:
lol
Palauragain:
I don't
Adambeworkin:
eta on lunch
Adambeworkin:
lol
Adambeworkin:
and yeah - i could help you
there
Palauragain:
ahhhhhh
Palauragain:
no eta as of yet
Palauragain:
introduce me to cool
girls?
Palauragain:
no younger than 26
please
Palauragain:
lol
Palauragain:
then they are downright
immature
Adambeworkin:
lol
Palauragain:
<not that I am miss maturity all the
time>
Palauragain:
<Ms. Pac Man!!!>
Adambeworkin:
LOL
Adambeworkin:
what was biased about *****'s
advice?
Adambeworkin:
i just assumed he would say you guys
should work out more
often
Adambeworkin:
lol
Adambeworkin:
and he was sorry he wasn't there for
you
Palauragain:
pretty much!!!
Palauragain:
hahaha
Adambeworkin:
he'll make sure that doesn't happen
again
Adambeworkin:
what's he look like?
Palauragain:
he did say next time some guy tries to
hit on me at the gym...
Adambeworkin:
lol
Palauragain:
he'll walk up and put his arm around me
and give me a big kiss
Adambeworkin:
well how nice of him
Palauragain:
retard
Palauragain:
whats who look like?
Adambeworkin:
no i assumed that's what *****
asked
Adambeworkin:
about the **** guy
Adambeworkin:
what's he look like...
Adambeworkin:
so he could "run into
him"
Palauragain:
lol
Palauragain:
he knows who he is
Adambeworkin:
oh
Adambeworkin:
hah
Palauragain:
cause **** is always
there
Adambeworkin:
the gym is so the bar of the 21st
century
Palauragain:
it really is....
Palauragain:
I should join an all-womans
gym
Adambeworkin:
now i'd pay to see that
Adambeworkin:
sorry
Adambeworkin:
being a boy
Adambeworkin:
ahem
Palauragain:
hee
Adambeworkin:
nothing worse than this morning
though
Adambeworkin:
cute teenage girl had a crush on me as
a teacher
Adambeworkin:
if that's not a penthouse forum waiting
to happen
Adambeworkin:
goddaaaaaaaaaaaaamn
Palauragain:
hahahahhaha
Adambeworkin:
hey you want that link?
Palauragain:
what link?
Adambeworkin:
actually - i dont want to keep you from
work
Adambeworkin:
cause i REALLY want to see
you
Adambeworkin:
and have more than 15
minutes
Adambeworkin:
the link to that first entry about
us
Adambeworkin:
with the first IM
Adambeworkin:
man are you still talkin' to
jesse
Adambeworkin:
lol
Palauragain:
yeah...work related this
time
Palauragain:
lol
Palauragain:
send me the link
Palauragain:
I would love to read all
that
Adambeworkin:
it's not gonna make you
late?
Adambeworkin:
ok
Palauragain:
late?
Adambeworkin:
i dont want to keep you from EATING
LUNCH
Adambeworkin:
boy I'm just a barrel of laughs with
you aren't i?
Palauragain:
I swear....still
reading...
Palauragain:
"Minialaur: i'm just looking for new
friends....
Minialaur:
so dont get the wrong idea
"
Palauragain:
lol
Adambeworkin:
heh
Palauragain:
"Adam4tvs: i dont want to jump around
and dance "
Palauragain:
"At one point she actually twirled her
hair while laughing – I mean was
she trying to pick me up?
"
Palauragain:
heheheh
Adambeworkin:
i'm reading too btw
Palauragain:
lol...still reading
Adambeworkin:
man - that's a good
entry
Palauragain:
I am away from my computer right
now.
Palauragain:
it really is...
Palauragain:
man
Adambeworkin:
can't wait to hear what happens next
huh!??!?!
Adambeworkin:
lol
Palauragain:
hee hee hee
Palauragain:
that's crazy
Adambeworkin:
what
Palauragain:
it's so amazing to keep a record of all
your thoughts
Palauragain:
I'm sure you read thru the olf
entries
Palauragain:
*old
Adambeworkin:
some i can
Adambeworkin:
some i cant
Palauragain:
and truly think...wow!
Adambeworkin:
some are so painful
Palauragain:
time will heal
Adambeworkin:
but it's a great way to learn about
yourself
Adambeworkin:
but you knew everything i said in that
entry though... right?
Adambeworkin:
or was it just different to see it in
print?
Palauragain:
I knew...you told me...wild to see it
in writing though
Adambeworkin:
well rest assured it's
safe
Adambeworkin:
no one can read
it
(it was locked at the
time)
Adambeworkin:
and obviously every name is
changed
Adambeworkin:
i'm reading the 2nd one right
now
Adambeworkin:
lol
Palauragain:
2nd one?
Palauragain:
hehe
Adambeworkin:
what do you need to do to get to
lunch
Adambeworkin:
lol
Adambeworkin:
i dont want to waste all your
time
Adambeworkin:
READING about us
Adambeworkin:
when we could be seeing each
other
Palauragain:
hee
Palauragain:
I love reading
though....
Palauragain:
all your thoughts
Palauragain:
brb babe
Adambeworkin:
i feel like I'm talking to Michael
Jackson
Adambeworkin:
hee hee
Adambeworkin:
OW!
Palauragain:
MJ??
Palauragain:
how do u figure?
Adambeworkin:
hee hee
Adambeworkin:
lol
Palauragain:
ooooh
Palauragain:
Adambeworkin:
Palauragain:
"smart" - ass
Adambeworkin:
i'm gonna drive you crazy
here
Adambeworkin:
but I'm going to start driving at
noon
Adambeworkin:
lol
Adambeworkin:
cause it will take 45 minutes either
way
Palauragain:
it is noon sweetie....
Adambeworkin:
oh
Adambeworkin:
i thought it was 11:51
Adambeworkin:
lol
Palauragain:
my comp says 11:59
Palauragain:
lol
Adambeworkin:
my phone says 12:01
Adambeworkin:
heh
Palauragain:
sh*t....soooo busy all the
sudden
Adambeworkin:
(sigh)
Adambeworkin:
i dont want to miss you today - because
it's gonna be awhile
Palauragain:
I got an appt!
Palauragain:
yipppppeeee
Adambeworkin:
you rule
Adambeworkin:
lemme guess - it's a lunch
appt
Adambeworkin:
rofl
Palauragain:
not for today, silly...
Adambeworkin:
;)
Adambeworkin:
so...
Palauragain:
so... <sorry, crazy busy all the
sudden>
Adambeworkin:
k
Adambeworkin:
call my cell when you have a
chance
Adambeworkin:
if there's any shot of me seeing you -
i have to leave now
Adambeworkin:
i'll be in your neck of the woods from
1 pm - 2:30 pm
Adambeworkin:
...
Palauragain:
sorry babe, I am really busy
Palauragain:
ehhhh
Adambeworkin:
np
Adambeworkin:
ehhhh?
Adambeworkin:
818-***-****
Adambeworkin:
those assholes will let you eat at some
point
Adambeworkin:
lol
Adambeworkin:
if you REALLY can't get out from 1 pm -
2:30 pm
Adambeworkin:
just call me on my cell so i can turn
around...
Adambeworkin:
cool?
Palauragain:
sweetie...please dont plan on me being
available
Palauragain:
I got in later this
morning
Palauragain:
thsi afternoon is nuts
Palauragain:
I'm really beginning to hate this
fukken line of work....
Adambeworkin:
which is exactly why i didn't want to
waste your time this
morning
Adambeworkin:
reading shit
Palauragain:
?
Adambeworkin:
well i didn't want to waste your
time
Adambeworkin:
so now you're all backed
up
Palauragain:
no...I wasnt crazy busy right when I
got in
Palauragain:
things happen in spurts
Adambeworkin:
oh
Palauragain:
I have to finish 2 proposals
today
Adambeworkin:
so you're not gonna eat
today?
Adambeworkin:
this is only frustrating because of the
symbolism of it all
Palauragain:
prob walk across the street to Quiznos
and bring it back to my
desk
Adambeworkin:
lol
Palauragain:
babe, I dont want u to drive out
here
Palauragain:
for 5 whole MINUTES
Adambeworkin:
i know you dont
Adambeworkin:
i've gathered that
Adambeworkin:
it's just frustrating that you seem to
have so much time every other damn
day
Palauragain:
so much time?
Adambeworkin:
well yeah
Adambeworkin:
running errands
Adambeworkin:
long lunches
Adambeworkin:
that's why we're in this
business!!!
Adambeworkin:
lol
Palauragain:
it's all WORK related
Adambeworkin:
i thought you said yesterday it
wasn't!
Palauragain:
99% of the time
Palauragain:
so it's cool
Palauragain:
yesterday it was BANK
Palauragain:
very important!
Adambeworkin:
right right
Adambeworkin:
they fucked you
Adambeworkin:
lol
Adambeworkin:
i swear all mortgage companies
man
Adambeworkin:
anyway - no biggie babe
Adambeworkin:
i'll hit up subway or
something
Adambeworkin:
are you sure this isn't because you're
concerned someone you work with might
see us?
Palauragain:
that really didnt cross my
mind....
Palauragain:
but now that u mention
it....
Adambeworkin:
(nice move Adam)
Palauragain:
hmmmmm
Palauragain:
they all know my
husband
Palauragain:
might appear a little
strange...
Adambeworkin:
there are other places to
meet
Adambeworkin:
but it doesnt matter
Adambeworkin:
this was pretty much the only
day
Adambeworkin:
really...
Palauragain:
:)
Palauragain:
not 'only....'
Palauragain:
brb sweetie....
Whew. I was
having some difficulty with this one for sure.
I just didn't...believe her. She was
"away" for the rest of the day. I mean I'm
sure the truth is just as feasible as a lie - but when
there's all these little lies like the limiting time
thing...it just plants doubt. I was pretty
disgusted to tell you the truth. I left work
around 4:30 pm, the earliest I think I've ever
left. When I got home the moment I stepped
out of my car, she called me and asked if I was
gonna go back online. I said I was home and
that I would...
Adam4tvs:
boo
Palauragain:
:-)
Palauragain:
so...
Adam4tvs:
so...
Palauragain:
reading some more...
Palauragain:
from yuor site
Palauragain:
probably not the best
idea
Palauragain:
I mean, some of it was borderline
porn
Palauragain:
lol
Adam4tvs:
?
Adam4tvs:
about us?
Palauragain:
oooh no
Adam4tvs:
so confused
Palauragain:
earlier entries...
Adam4tvs:
rather vague...
Palauragain:
Palaur shit.....
Adam4tvs:
(sigh)
Palauragain:
hmmm
Palauragain:
made me think a little
Adam4tvs:
...
Palauragain:
just...
Palauragain:
made me think
Palauragain:
rather not discuss over
IMs
Adam4tvs:
you dont have that
option
Adam4tvs:
i need you to tell me the
truth
Palauragain:
well....
Palauragain:
I almost get the
feeling...
Palauragain:
that the way u say you feel about
me...
Palauragain:
is nothing
'special'.....
Palauragain:
:-\
Adam4tvs:
if you want to compare when i was 21 to
now, that is your right
Palauragain:
i'm not comparing
Palauragain:
just too many
similarities
Palauragain:
kind of weirded me out
Adam4tvs:
you have lied to me
Palauragain:
?
Adam4tvs:
on numerous occasions
Palauragain:
??
Adam4tvs:
about why you were
somewhere
Adam4tvs:
why you couldn't be some
places
Palauragain:
I don't understand...
Palauragain:
what this has to do...with what i'm
saying
Adam4tvs:
i'm trying to make a
comparison
Adam4tvs:
that you have had similarities to
her
Adam4tvs:
and it hasn't made me feel
different
Adam4tvs:
i believe we have that
connection
Palauragain:
so I see...........
Adam4tvs:
but when you always tell
half-truths
Adam4tvs:
it makes me doubt even like
today
Adam4tvs:
because of the little lies on
sunday
Adam4tvs:
or the thursday before
Adam4tvs:
that you actually didn't eat lunch
today
Palauragain:
of course I ate
Palauragain:
for like 15 minutes
Adam4tvs:
it's just seeds of
doubt
Palauragain:
I've been busy...
Palauragain:
do u really want to throw that in my
face??????
Adam4tvs:
Babe, i believe that
Palauragain:
whatever
Adam4tvs:
my point it - with all the little
things
Adam4tvs:
that i've had to dig at you
at
Adam4tvs:
like limiting time with me
sunday
Adam4tvs:
when all you had to do was tell me the
truth
Adam4tvs:
adn i would have been fine with
it
Adam4tvs:
or on last thursday when you had to
spend time with him
Adam4tvs:
which i thought was a good
move
Adam4tvs:
yet i had to drag that out of
you
Palauragain:
fine...I'm a LIAR
Adam4tvs:
you seem to not want to tell me the
entire story
Adam4tvs:
babe - i'm only repeating what you've
told me
Palauragain:
believe what u want
Adam4tvs:
am i incorrect?
Adam4tvs:
have you been 100% honest with
me?
Adam4tvs:
and because 7 years ago I was in love
with someone else
Adam4tvs:
and was HONEST then
Adam4tvs:
i'm somehow not treating you
special?
Palauragain:
once again, probably not the best idea
for me to read your
shit
Palauragain:
that's all
Adam4tvs:
if you feel i am
insincere....
Adam4tvs:
i can't ...
Adam4tvs:
change that
Adam4tvs:
i've done everything i can possibly
do
Adam4tvs:
to show you
Adam4tvs:
how much i care about
you
Palauragain:
i'm not gonna be a replay of your
fuckin past
Palauragain:
plain & simple
Adam4tvs:
the problem is - you
are
Adam4tvs:
you are setting it up
Adam4tvs:
so you can be
Adam4tvs:
you're giving yourself an
out
Adam4tvs:
right now
Adam4tvs:
to go back to your
husband
Adam4tvs:
and live happily ever
after
Adam4tvs:
because you're scared
Adam4tvs:
...
Adam4tvs:
it seems as if you don't want to face
your problems that I havef specifically
brought up
Adam4tvs:
and if you just tarnish the thought of
me enough
Adam4tvs:
you won't have to
Adam4tvs:
am i off base here?
Adam4tvs:
please respond Babe, i'm doing
amazingly well tyring to type with how
i feel right now
Palauragain:
i'm so confused
Adam4tvs:
just as it's unfair to base you off of
what happened 7 years
ago
Adam4tvs:
you need to give me the same
courtesy
Adam4tvs:
this is 7 YEARS ago
Babe
Palauragain:
i'm not judging you off how u acted 7
years ago
Palauragain:
but I can't be an EXACT
replay
Palauragain:
down to everything!
Adam4tvs:
you haven't been
Adam4tvs:
how do you think you
have?
Palauragain:
I read...
Palauragain:
enough
Adam4tvs:
well you obviously
didn't
Adam4tvs:
because it takes a tangent that changes
everything
Adam4tvs:
but are you saying because i felt the
way i did about her
Adam4tvs:
7 years ago...
Adam4tvs:
that i said the same things to
you?
Palauragain:
I really don't know at this
point......
Adam4tvs:
that i thought she needed
me?
Adam4tvs:
she did
Adam4tvs:
you do
Adam4tvs:
how can you do this to me
Babe?
Adam4tvs:
seriously
Adam4tvs:
I've never lied to you
Adam4tvs:
ever
Adam4tvs:
i have never felt this
before
Adam4tvs:
this is different
Adam4tvs:
you know that when you see
me
Adam4tvs:
i know that when i see
you
Palauragain:
I know how I feel
Adam4tvs:
which is...
Palauragain:
at the moment, very
confused
Adam4tvs:
because you think I'm
insincere
Adam4tvs:
since I've said similar things to
someone else?
Palauragain:
borderline EXACT
Palauragain:
but...
Palauragain:
even though I have not been 100% honest
with u about things...
Palauragain:
I know the way I feel towards
you
Adam4tvs:
...
Palauragain:
$!!
Palauragain:
:-)
Palauragain:
sorry...
Adam4tvs:
whew
Adam4tvs:
that was an unenjoyable 8
minutes
Palauragain:
:-\
Adam4tvs:
Palauragain: even though I have not
been 100% honest with u about
things...
Palauragain:
I know the way I feel towards
you
Adam4tvs:
...
Palauragain:
yeah
Adam4tvs:
...
Adam4tvs:
and what way is that?
Palauragain:
I have felt stronger feelings for you
in the shortest amount of time....than
I have with anyone
Palauragain:
and I just feel that...
Palauragain:
you develop strong feelings with almost
everyone u meet...fairly
quickly
Adam4tvs:
and because I'm an honest about
that
Adam4tvs:
i get to never se eyou
again
Adam4tvs:
and no, i have had 3 or 4 deep
connections in my life
Adam4tvs:
and have made them
public
Adam4tvs:
if they are the right
people
Adam4tvs:
you know right away
Adam4tvs:
because i DONT play
games
Palauragain:
apparently they werent the 'right'
people
Adam4tvs:
to have connections
with?
Adam4tvs:
of course they were
Palauragain:
or you would be with them
now
Adam4tvs:
no no no
Adam4tvs:
my connection with jess is still
there
Adam4tvs:
we can't be married
Adam4tvs:
my connection with laura would still be
there
Adam4tvs:
but she couldnt fight the catholic
church
Adam4tvs:
her family
Adam4tvs:
i mean - you're talking extraordinary
situations here
Palauragain:
fine...
Palauragain:
sorry
Palauragain:
I'm just trying to 'figure things
out'
Palauragain:
figure you out...
Palauragain:
a little better each
day...
Palauragain:
and reading
entries.....
Palauragain:
gives me waaaaay more
insight
Adam4tvs:
no it doesnt
Palauragain:
I definetly have the upper hand where
that is concerened
Adam4tvs:
because you're not reading what is
truly public
Adam4tvs:
you're reading inner
thoughts
Adam4tvs:
if i knew your inner
thoughts
Adam4tvs:
i'd be a fucking madman
Palauragain:
inner thoughts that u have made
'public'
Adam4tvs:
because of this project called the
journy
Adam4tvs:
*journey
Palauragain:
I know...
Palauragain:
I understand
Adam4tvs:
that i felt would help other
people
Adam4tvs:
who wanted to make it
Adam4tvs:
see what it did to you
Adam4tvs:
and I'm now regretting it more than i
can tell you
Palauragain:
no regrets
Adam4tvs:
?
Palauragain:
it just opens my eyes
up
Palauragain:
...a little
Adam4tvs:
(sigh)
Adam4tvs:
you've said enough
Adam4tvs:
you've pretty much given yourself a
reason to disregard everything i've
ever said to you
Adam4tvs:
and from now on, you will always second
guess me
Adam4tvs:
i am absolutely devastated that me
being 100% honest
Adam4tvs:
will end up making me lose
you
Adam4tvs:
but i cannot change the
past
Adam4tvs:
you don't know the hundreds of people i
meet
Adam4tvs:
everyday
Adam4tvs:
or even date
Adam4tvs:
that i feel nothing for
Adam4tvs:
so many relationships
Adam4tvs:
that dont get a
"Website
Adam4tvs:
"
Adam4tvs:
yet you just assume I fall for people
quickly
Adam4tvs:
and you still won't
type...
Palauragain:
I really miss you
Adam....
Adam4tvs:
????????????/
Adam4tvs:
you just get through telling me you
think i'm completely
insincere
Adam4tvs:
so what do you miss?
Palauragain:
you
Palauragain:
just...
Palauragain:
you
Adam4tvs:
can you please expound?
Adam4tvs:
my jaw is actually open
Adam4tvs:
you want proof?
Adam4tvs
wants to directly
connect.
Adam4tvs:
lol
Adam4tvs:
nothing like beraking the
moment
Adam4tvs:
now what are you talking
abotu?
Adam4tvs:
didn't you just indirectly say you
doubted every word i
said?
Palauragain:
I never said I doubted
Palauragain:
just questioned
Adam4tvs:
look at this from my
persepctive...
Palauragain:
what do u expect?
Adam4tvs:
i am in danger of losing the most
incredible woman i've ever
met
Adam4tvs:
because i was HONEST
before?
Adam4tvs:
!?!??!
Adam4tvs:
yes - i've been in love with other
people
Adam4tvs:
and at THE TIME
Adam4tvs:
thought it was the greatest person I'd
ever known
Adam4tvs:
but as time passes
Adam4tvs:
and you get BUTT FUCKED by
them
Adam4tvs:
(you did ask me if i had been the bitch
didnt you? ;-) )
Adam4tvs:
your ability to feel
that
Adam4tvs:
DWINDLES
Adam4tvs:
it just gets chipped
away
Adam4tvs:
and you become harder and
harder
Adam4tvs:
so when something like this happens
with us
Adam4tvs:
it's even more special
Adam4tvs:
because in the back of my
mind
Adam4tvs:
i'm still thinking
Adam4tvs:
adam - you're gonna get
hurt
Adam4tvs:
you're stupid
Adam4tvs:
this can't be right
Adam4tvs:
and throughout ALL of
that
Adam4tvs:
and even you lying to
me
Adam4tvs:
i still feel the way i
do
Adam4tvs:
if you end this right now - and never
speak to me again
Adam4tvs:
i will still feel that we have the
greatest connection i've ever
felt
Adam4tvs:
ever
Adam4tvs:
ever
Adam4tvs:
ever
Palauragain:
ever?
Adam4tvs:
(sigh)
Palauragain:
;-)
Adam4tvs:
babe - i'm sick to my
stomach
Palauragain:
why?
Adam4tvs:
why!?!
Palauragain:
and DAMN...thanks for posting all the
soft core porn
Palauragain:
it helped me get thru the afternoon
much better
Palauragain:
heh
Adam4tvs:
i cant read sarcasm
here
Adam4tvs:
where are we?
Adam4tvs:
are you just trying to figure shit
out
Adam4tvs:
or are you saying good
riddance?
Palauragain:
Adam...I cannot say 'goodbye' right
now
Palauragain:
just do me a favor and block me from
your site
Palauragain:
lol
Adam4tvs:
this is not funny right
now
Adam4tvs:
Babe - please skip your workout and
meet me
Adam4tvs:
please
Adam4tvs:
i can't play this game with
you
Adam4tvs:
and then not see you for 10
days
Palauragain:
i'm not trying to play
games
Palauragain:
and i'm not trying to be
funny
Adam4tvs:
you have to see this as more important
than one workout
Palauragain:
i'm just being honest
Adam4tvs:
you have to
Palauragain:
I really hate reading stuff like
that
Palauragain:
it's not about needing to
workout
Adam4tvs:
WHAT STUFFFFFFFFFFf
Palauragain:
it's about taking an hour all to
myself
Adam4tvs:
i dont even know what you're talking
about
