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- majoralaur:
hey u
- AdamBeWorkin:
hey babe
- AdamBeWorkin:
dealing with the asshole of all
assholes on the phone right
now
- AdamBeWorkin:
lol
- majoralaur:
working away?
- AdamBeWorkin:
this is great
- majoralaur:
lovely..lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
a guy didn't like his appraisal
value
- AdamBeWorkin:
even though it was enough for the
loan
- AdamBeWorkin:
he wants his money back because he
thinks his house is worth
more
- majoralaur:
lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
people are absolutely
assanine
- majoralaur:
you're telling me...
- majoralaur:
has he looked at comps in the
area?
- majoralaur:
does he really know the value of his
property?
- AdamBeWorkin:
yeah - and some house sold for
more
- AdamBeWorkin:
blah blah blah
- majoralaur:
ahhh....so I see...
- AdamBeWorkin:
this guy makes archie bunker look
PC
- AdamBeWorkin:
the appraiser is black and apparently
was "lazy and didn't do his
job"
- AdamBeWorkin:
LOL
- majoralaur:
oooh shit!
- majoralaur:
:-O
- AdamBeWorkin:
i love this shit
- majoralaur:
thats almost like me makin' the
comment....that if I was craving a taco
late at night...
- majoralaur:
I'd swing by your 'hood
- majoralaur:
;)
- AdamBeWorkin:
lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
and this guy cancelled the
loan
- AdamBeWorkin:
good LORD
- majoralaur:
the wonderful world of real
estate....
- AdamBeWorkin:
:-)
- AdamBeWorkin:
so...
- AdamBeWorkin:
i see you that you IMd me
first...
- AdamBeWorkin:
that's a first
- majoralaur:
so I did...
- AdamBeWorkin:
;-)
- majoralaur:
;)
- majoralaur:
lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
you need to add a nose to your
smiley
- AdamBeWorkin:
;) - wrong
- AdamBeWorkin:
- all good
- AdamBeWorkin:
; - )
- majoralaur:
you're screwin' the smileys all up,
now...
- AdamBeWorkin:
huh?
- AdamBeWorkin:
no you are
- AdamBeWorkin:
you keep forgetting the
nose
- AdamBeWorkin:
at least it's not showin up on my
end
- majoralaur:
your nose wasnt showin up
either...
- AdamBeWorkin:
oh reallllllllllllly
- majoralaur:
plus, I dont think smileys have
noses
- AdamBeWorkin:
(sigh)
- majoralaur:
lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
to make the emoticon come
up
- AdamBeWorkin:
you gotta add the nose
- AdamBeWorkin:
;)
- AdamBeWorkin:
you don't see the yellow face
right?
- majoralaur:
maybe u can create your own
smileys...
- majoralaur:
add whatever u want to
them
- AdamBeWorkin:
nevermind...
- majoralaur:
sarcasm..over the head
again?
- majoralaur:
lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
lol
- majoralaur:
thats fine, i'm just getting used to
it
- AdamBeWorkin:
your icon rules
- AdamBeWorkin:
i'm all trying to
concentrate...
- AdamBeWorkin:
man was this morning
frustrating
- majoralaur:
why?
- AdamBeWorkin:
i must have run through every single
inch of your body all
morning
- AdamBeWorkin:
turning the lights on was a good
idea
- AdamBeWorkin:
and again - you've now made me work
out
- AdamBeWorkin:
thanks
- AdamBeWorkin:
lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
and that's sincere
too...
- majoralaur:
lol
- majoralaur:
that is a good thing...gotta take care
of yourself now..
- majoralaur:
that included working
out
- AdamBeWorkin:
what included working
out...
- majoralaur:
*includes
- majoralaur:
sorry...MY grammar is off
today
- AdamBeWorkin:
well i do enjoy it honestly - but it's
so wonderful that you understand
it
- AdamBeWorkin:
and were you serious about
Saturday?
- majoralaur:
what part?
- AdamBeWorkin:
working out together?
- majoralaur:
of course!
- majoralaur:
I enjoy it...and motivation always
helps
- AdamBeWorkin:
heh
- majoralaur:
- AdamBeWorkin:
where?
- AdamBeWorkin:
or do you just want to run around in a
park?
- AdamBeWorkin:
i bet i have more stamina than
you
- AdamBeWorkin:
- majoralaur:
ooooh, is that right?
- majoralaur:
I'm sure I can prove u wrong in that
arena....
- AdamBeWorkin:
i ran cross country
- AdamBeWorkin:
i have pretty stupid good
stamina
- majoralaur:
thats what they all say
- majoralaur:
;)
- AdamBeWorkin:
h
- AdamBeWorkin:
a
- AdamBeWorkin:
well you asked me to "prove it" last
night
- AdamBeWorkin:
oh speaking of which...
- majoralaur:
yes?
- AdamBeWorkin:
too afraid to put HIV test in your web
browser at work?
- AdamBeWorkin:
LOL
- majoralaur:
haahha
- AdamBeWorkin:
i started to and then
thought....
- AdamBeWorkin:
hmmm
- majoralaur:
prob. not the best
idea...
- majoralaur:
the IT guys do random searches every
now and then
- majoralaur:
lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
so uhm....
- AdamBeWorkin:
we're doing a little bush beating
here...
- majoralaur:
??
- AdamBeWorkin:
heh
- majoralaur:
speak for yourself
- majoralaur:
lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
beating around the
bush...
- AdamBeWorkin:
was everything cool last night? Weren't
you late?
- majoralaur:
no...everything was
cool
- majoralaur:
perfect timing
- majoralaur:
;)
- AdamBeWorkin:
what days do you go to work
later?
- majoralaur:
it really depends
- majoralaur:
I dont have a 'fixed'
schedule
- AdamBeWorkin:
cause i'd love to meet with you for
brunch or something one
morning/afternoon
- AdamBeWorkin:
i can meet you on your way pretty
simply
- AdamBeWorkin:
and i'll be more high class than
Denny's
- AdamBeWorkin:
lol
- majoralaur:
uh huuuuuuh...
- majoralaur:
;)
- AdamBeWorkin:
(sigh)
- majoralaur:
lol
- majoralaur:
it's all good...
- majoralaur:
i'm only playi
- majoralaur:
*ng
- AdamBeWorkin:
you PLAYA
- majoralaur:
thats right ;)
- AdamBeWorkin:
you workin out tonight?
- majoralaur:
yep!
- AdamBeWorkin:
can we actually meet for coffee after -
you know the whole "hour tops" idea you
had yesterday
- majoralaur:
ahhhh, sure...that worked out just
perfectly
- majoralaur:
lol
- majoralaur:
exactly 56 minutes...or
so....
- majoralaur:
;)
- AdamBeWorkin:
no - more like 5
minutes
- AdamBeWorkin:
and then "we should go back to your
place..."
- AdamBeWorkin:
ha
- majoralaur:
sorry, i'll try to control myself
better next time....
- AdamBeWorkin:
well no if that's what you have in mind
- just tell my ass NOW
- AdamBeWorkin:
lol
- majoralaur:
lol
- majoralaur:
so...no lunch for you?
- AdamBeWorkin:
...
- majoralaur:
it's 12:30
- majoralaur:
i'm hungrrrry!
- majoralaur:
hungry = moody
- majoralaur:
lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
you asking me to lunch?
- AdamBeWorkin:
lol
- majoralaur:
if u werent so far...
- AdamBeWorkin:
yeah - no shit
- majoralaur:
but for me to go OUT OF MY FUKKEN WAY
again......!!!!
- majoralaur:
;)
- AdamBeWorkin:
ha HA!
- AdamBeWorkin:
serioulsy - tonight?
- AdamBeWorkin:
can you pull it off?
- AdamBeWorkin:
HA
- AdamBeWorkin:
that came off wrong
- majoralaur:
tonight may be a little
difficult
- AdamBeWorkin:
k
- AdamBeWorkin:
i figured
- AdamBeWorkin:
it's all pretty much in your court from
this point on
- majoralaur:
he leaves again this
friday...
- AdamBeWorkin:
so don't take me not asking as a sign
that I'm not
interested...
- AdamBeWorkin:
jesus really?
- majoralaur:
yeah
- majoralaur:
busy month
- AdamBeWorkin:
what time friday?
- majoralaur:
sometime early
afternoon
- AdamBeWorkin:
hmmmmmmmm
- majoralaur:
I have dinner plans at 7 that
night
- AdamBeWorkin:
k
- majoralaur:
what r u doing late
friday?
- AdamBeWorkin:
u
- AdamBeWorkin:
that was a response
- majoralaur:
oooh, gotcha ;)
- AdamBeWorkin:
but i'm pretty open
babe
- majoralaur:
k, well if nothing better comes up on
your end...
- majoralaur:
maybe we can hook up after
dinner
- AdamBeWorkin:
?
- AdamBeWorkin:
lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
are you really that devoid of self
confidence or was that a
joke?
- majoralaur:
u cant tell sarcasm when u see
it??
- majoralaur:
hehehe
- AdamBeWorkin:
lol
- majoralaur:
or are u only good at giving
it?
- AdamBeWorkin:
probably a stupid question, but do you
have any plans whatsoever to talk to
him?
- AdamBeWorkin:
or are you just gonna ride this out
while it's still fun?
- AdamBeWorkin:
I just want to know where your at - so
I can forget about it
- majoralaur:
well...
- majoralaur:
like I kind of said last
night...
- majoralaur:
with him being gone alot...it's easy to
simply not talk about
things..
- majoralaur:
cause he leaves for a few
days...
- majoralaur:
then my desire to tell him
lessens...
- majoralaur:
I don't know
- majoralaur:
I guess I keep thinking..."when the
time is right.."
- majoralaur:
but is it ever?
- AdamBeWorkin:
my position here is pretty obvious I
guess...
- AdamBeWorkin:
you just hope for soooooo much
more
- AdamBeWorkin:
but I just don't see you seeing me as
anything but temporary
- AdamBeWorkin:
all I can do is be here
though...
- majoralaur:
- AdamBeWorkin:
and I'm not sure you'd have the balls
to admit that to me
either
- AdamBeWorkin:
or maybe the OVUM
- AdamBeWorkin:
lol
- majoralaur:
lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
if I am - tell me, I'll play that role
- and we'll have a fuckin good
time
- majoralaur:
I don't want to say
'temporary'...
- majoralaur:
cause you never know
- majoralaur:
things happen...things
change...
- majoralaur:
things happen for mysterious reasons
sometimes...
- AdamBeWorkin:
things happen when you make them
happen
- majoralaur:
yes, but...
- majoralaur:
I just dont know if I can do that right
now...or tomorrow...or
whenever
- majoralaur:
I just don't know
- AdamBeWorkin:
what do you need from me
then
- AdamBeWorkin:
what fulfills you?
- AdamBeWorkin:
what do you want me to
be?
- majoralaur:
I just want you to be
yourself
- majoralaur:
be who u really are to
me
- AdamBeWorkin:
i'm always that
- AdamBeWorkin:
but "us"
- majoralaur:
I can't answer that...
- majoralaur:
it's still all so
new...
- AdamBeWorkin:
yeah
- majoralaur:
I mean, to spare our feelings...and
maybe make things easier..if you want,
maybe we could just make it a 'fun'
relationship...
- AdamBeWorkin:
how can you live that?
- AdamBeWorkin:
don't you want more?
- majoralaur:
of course I do!!
- majoralaur:
but..
- AdamBeWorkin:
has your relationship always been that
devoid of passion?
- majoralaur:
if I want more, I'd have to make some
pretty drastic changes in my
life..
- majoralaur:
his passion is his career...not
me
- majoralaur:
he loves me, but...
- majoralaur:
I know I am not his
world
- AdamBeWorkin:
herein lies the rub of
course
- AdamBeWorkin:
in time Major, we're only gonna get
closer
- AdamBeWorkin:
the "in love" will grow to
more
- AdamBeWorkin:
and then I have to sit there and
think...
- AdamBeWorkin:
"will she do this to me if I have a bad
week?"
- AdamBeWorkin:
lol
- majoralaur:
bad week???
- majoralaur:
what do u mean?
- AdamBeWorkin:
well no
- AdamBeWorkin:
i mean
- AdamBeWorkin:
you're cheating on your
husband
- AdamBeWorkin:
period
- AdamBeWorkin:
i believe it's because you have no
connection with him
- majoralaur:
so what you're saying...is
obviously...
- AdamBeWorkin:
got married for "business" like
reasons
- majoralaur:
once a cheater, always a
cheater?
- AdamBeWorkin:
what is making you
stray
- AdamBeWorkin:
that's what I'm asking
- AdamBeWorkin:
and what is making it so
comfortable
- AdamBeWorkin:
you have no itch to talk to
him
- majoralaur:
saying, that if we are starting off on
this 'wrong foot'..whats to say I
wouldnt do it to u in
time?
- majoralaur:
is that what you're asking
me?
- AdamBeWorkin:
you don't communicate enough of your
feelings for me to know
- AdamBeWorkin:
i dont believe once a cheater always a
cheater
- AdamBeWorkin:
it depends on
circumstances
- majoralaur:
thats what I think...
- majoralaur:
look, bottom line..I love my
husband...I really cant imagine my life
without him right now,
but...
- majoralaur:
we have no deep
connection
- majoralaur:
we have no intense
passion
- majoralaur:
we treats me like a husband treats a
wife
- majoralaur:
but without really knowing me as
Major...and not just
'wife'
- AdamBeWorkin:
yeah - it's wrong babe
- AdamBeWorkin:
it's what a million people do all the
time
- AdamBeWorkin:
and they find their passion
"elsewhere"
- AdamBeWorkin:
in fact - isn't there a WHOLE TV SHOW
based on that?
- AdamBeWorkin:
LOLOLOL
- majoralaur:
I know...and I know what i'm doing is
wrong!
- majoralaur:
lol
- majoralaur:
perhaps....
- majoralaur:
but, I can't deny the feelings I have
for you...
- majoralaur:
I just want to make sure what we feel
is not 'fleeting...'
- AdamBeWorkin:
there
- AdamBeWorkin:
that's what i wanted to
hear
- AdamBeWorkin:
that's communication
Major
- AdamBeWorkin:
I understand what you're
doing
- AdamBeWorkin:
where you're coming
from
- majoralaur:
its still all so
confusing...
- AdamBeWorkin:
that will lessen in
time
- AdamBeWorkin:
but i will NOT, just be your passion
fill - that you take and then
leave
- AdamBeWorkin:
because that will gut
me
- AdamBeWorkin:
if you want to know if this is
real
- AdamBeWorkin:
if you want to really know me - and
appreciate what it feels like to be
this connected
- AdamBeWorkin:
then I will trust you
- AdamBeWorkin:
and enjoy every second I
have
- majoralaur:
and I'm not just using you as an outlet
for passion
- majoralaur:
I think it's much more than
that
- majoralaur:
there issoemthing about
you
- majoralaur:
*is something
- AdamBeWorkin:
yeah - I'm perfect for
YOU
- majoralaur:
quite possibly
- AdamBeWorkin:
that's what
suuuuuuuucks
- majoralaur:
but there is sooo much more I have to
explore with you...
- majoralaur:
to really know that for
sure!
- AdamBeWorkin:
I will give you as much as I can
Major
- AdamBeWorkin:
It's exciting to me, to know that this
is all so new to you
- AdamBeWorkin:
but when you know
Major...
- majoralaur:
and honestly...I never believed in that
whole 'love at first site'
thing...
- majoralaur:
I believed in 'lust at
first'...
- majoralaur:
so when u tell me those things..I just
don't know..
- AdamBeWorkin:
I said I'm in love with
you
- AdamBeWorkin:
I am
- AdamBeWorkin:
it's not just physical
- AdamBeWorkin:
you know that
- majoralaur:
yeah...
- AdamBeWorkin:
i did not say I loved you
though
- AdamBeWorkin:
and you know the
difference
- majoralaur:
no..there is a
difference
- majoralaur:
I know very well
- AdamBeWorkin:
that just grows in time
- AdamBeWorkin:
but lust also doesn't infiltrate your
head every second
- AdamBeWorkin:
even a guy's head
- majoralaur:
even for a guy?
- majoralaur:
lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
lol
- majoralaur:
k sweetie...I have to go
now...
- AdamBeWorkin:
hey one more thing
- AdamBeWorkin:
when you do KNOW
- AdamBeWorkin:
whenever that is
- majoralaur:
??
- AdamBeWorkin:
I need you to be the person who grabs
it
- AdamBeWorkin:
who stands up for
herself
- AdamBeWorkin:
and demands a life that she
sees
- AdamBeWorkin:
and wants
- majoralaur:
of course...
- AdamBeWorkin:
if that isn't in you...
- majoralaur:
I have always gone for exactly what I
wanted...
- majoralaur:
and 9 out of 10 times, gotten
it!
- AdamBeWorkin:
alright
- AdamBeWorkin:
well - I just need to make that
clear
- majoralaur:
so dont even worry bout
that...
- majoralaur:
we'll talk again..
- AdamBeWorkin:
i can't handle a docent
woman
- AdamBeWorkin:
k babe
- AdamBeWorkin:
go eat
- majoralaur:
bye sweetie!
-
- Several
hours later…
-
- AdamBeWorkin:
...
- majoralaur:
hola!
- AdamBeWorkin:
hola! chica!
- AdamBeWorkin:
i had a pretty intense
lunch
- AdamBeWorkin:
you?
- majoralaur:
lol
- majoralaur:
how intense??!
- AdamBeWorkin:
just thinking about
everything
- majoralaur:
such as...
- AdamBeWorkin:
this situation
- AdamBeWorkin:
what the right thing to do
is
- AdamBeWorkin:
it was just a really good hour of
battling in my brain i
guess
- majoralaur:
and what was your
conclusion...?
- AdamBeWorkin:
looking at it from your
perspective
- majoralaur:
and...
- AdamBeWorkin:
if you've truly never felt
this
- AdamBeWorkin:
I can imagine how you're thinking about
things
- AdamBeWorkin:
you don't put a bomb into
things
- AdamBeWorkin:
now
- AdamBeWorkin:
you just dont
- majoralaur:
right....
- AdamBeWorkin:
i understand that
- AdamBeWorkin:
because there's probably no real way to
just "talk" about things with
him
- AdamBeWorkin:
since you've been down this
road
- AdamBeWorkin:
before
- AdamBeWorkin:
once you start that
conversation...
- majoralaur:
we've talked about things many times
before...
- AdamBeWorkin:
it will unravel
- majoralaur:
many, many times....
- AdamBeWorkin:
right
- AdamBeWorkin:
and you've known me for all of 2
days
- majoralaur:
and he has vowed many, many times that
he will do anything to make this
work
- majoralaur:
right...
- AdamBeWorkin:
really?
- AdamBeWorkin:
keep talking...
- majoralaur:
yes, he's told me that
before...
- AdamBeWorkin:
what did you say you
needed?
- majoralaur:
I told him....we have different views
on life...and where we want our lives
to go...
- majoralaur:
he agreed
- majoralaur:
knowing that I am not 100% happy, he's
asked me numerous times what he can do
to change that...
- majoralaur:
and I told him, that I am not trying to
change him as a person..you are who you
are...
- majoralaur:
we just dont see eye to eye on many
things
- AdamBeWorkin:
how big of a reason was the greencard
for the marriage
- majoralaur:
not the entire reason
- AdamBeWorkin:
right
- majoralaur:
but it was a real agreement from the
get-go
- AdamBeWorkin:
how long had you been "together"
though
- majoralaur:
we 'dated' long distance for 2
yrs
- majoralaur:
before we married and moved in
together
- AdamBeWorkin:
wow
- AdamBeWorkin:
wow x2
- majoralaur:
we really didnt know each
other
- majoralaur:
x2?
- majoralaur:
lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
and you weren't faithful before the
marriage
- AdamBeWorkin:
as he probably wasn't
either
- majoralaur:
who knows...
- AdamBeWorkin:
but since the marriage -
completely
- majoralaur:
not to say I wasnt
faithful
- majoralaur:
yes, since the
marriage///
- AdamBeWorkin:
yeah but you were with other guys
during the long
distance
- majoralaur:
I was seeing my ex
- majoralaur:
on occasion
- AdamBeWorkin:
right
- majoralaur:
and I know he was going otu alot here
in LA too...
- AdamBeWorkin:
right
- majoralaur:
so, whos to say
- AdamBeWorkin:
what about now?
- majoralaur:
we never really discussed
that
- AdamBeWorkin:
just curious
- majoralaur:
what about now...?
- AdamBeWorkin:
with him?
- AdamBeWorkin:
i know he's in love with the idea of a
wife
- majoralaur:
u mean, do I think
he's...?
- AdamBeWorkin:
but he's not
passionless
- AdamBeWorkin:
even if it's not directed towards
you
- majoralaur:
right
- majoralaur:
I don't know
- AdamBeWorkin:
so you don't think he's feeding that
somewhere
- AdamBeWorkin:
other than his job?
- majoralaur:
if he is finding it elsewhere...he's a
damn good actor
- AdamBeWorkin:
heh
- AdamBeWorkin:
well how hard is it to act when you see
each other so little?
- majoralaur:
I wouldnt blame him...
- majoralaur:
but I would be hurt with his
dishonesty
- AdamBeWorkin:
of course
- majoralaur:
I have no proof...
- majoralaur:
so I cant accuse...
- AdamBeWorkin:
right and I don't mean to bring that
up
- majoralaur:
and if he came to me one
day
- AdamBeWorkin:
i'm just trying to see the whole
thing
- majoralaur:
and told me he met someone
else...
- majoralaur:
and wanted to be with her, I wouldnt be
totally shocked..
- majoralaur:
I would let him go...
- AdamBeWorkin:
yeah -but you have always been the
perfect wife to him
- AdamBeWorkin:
right?
- AdamBeWorkin:
I mean - for a part time
marriage
- AdamBeWorkin:
why would he give that
up?
- majoralaur:
yeah...
- majoralaur:
I don't know,...
- majoralaur:
I do alot for him
- AdamBeWorkin:
right
- majoralaur:
aside from cooking & cleaning and
whatever...
- majoralaur:
I support his career
100%
- majoralaur:
thats big to him
- AdamBeWorkin:
right
- AdamBeWorkin:
it would be big to me
too
- majoralaur:
of course
- majoralaur:
I would never shoot down ones
dreams
- majoralaur:
it was his idea to move to
LA
- AdamBeWorkin:
it can co-exist...
- majoralaur:
and i Backed him
entirely...
- AdamBeWorkin:
what were your dreams before
then?
- AdamBeWorkin:
for example while you're
thinking
- AdamBeWorkin:
Jess only wanted a
family
- AdamBeWorkin:
she's a helluva worker
- majoralaur:
see...I was young...just ready for a
change...dont think I really had a
vision of where my life was going at
that point...
- AdamBeWorkin:
moved up the restaurant chain of
command quick as fuck
- majoralaur:
nice!
- AdamBeWorkin:
but her true wanting
- AdamBeWorkin:
was a family
- majoralaur:
hmmm
- AdamBeWorkin:
so when she came out and "supported" my
career
- AdamBeWorkin:
it wasn't as if she gave up the
world
- majoralaur:
right
- majoralaur:
same with me
- AdamBeWorkin:
unfortunately it ended up she could NOT
have kids in LA
- majoralaur:
I truly wasnt giving up
anything
- AdamBeWorkin:
right...
- AdamBeWorkin:
but now you feel like you're missing
out
- AdamBeWorkin:
in ways
- majoralaur:
I wouldnt mind having a family
here
- majoralaur:
at all
- AdamBeWorkin:
i know babe
- AdamBeWorkin:
i'm well aware of that
- AdamBeWorkin:
;-)
- majoralaur:
I just want to make sure when I
do...its with the right
man
- majoralaur:
;)
- AdamBeWorkin:
to make a long story short in all this,
though we can continue
- AdamBeWorkin:
I owe it to you and myself to try to
put your situation out of my head for a
bit
- AdamBeWorkin:
and just be with you
- AdamBeWorkin:
as much as I can
- AdamBeWorkin:
so you feel some stability and security
in that
- majoralaur:
thats perfect...
- majoralaur:
I'm not asking for much elsefrom
you...
- AdamBeWorkin:
well
- AdamBeWorkin:
there's going to come a time when...
you're sleeping with
him
- AdamBeWorkin:
that's...
- AdamBeWorkin:
going to be insanely
difficult
- AdamBeWorkin:
and i know your instinct will be to lie
to me about it
- majoralaur:
lie to you?
- AdamBeWorkin:
but, you need to be up
front
- AdamBeWorkin:
well yeah - and not tell
me
- AdamBeWorkin:
i mean seriously - have you thought
about that?
- majoralaur:
not tell you when we havae
sex?
- AdamBeWorkin:
are you not going to be with
him?
- majoralaur:
well, honestly...its something u
probably wont want to hear about
anyway..
- AdamBeWorkin:
but i will
- majoralaur:
I can't not be with him
- AdamBeWorkin:
because that means
something
- AdamBeWorkin:
exactly
- majoralaur:
cause then he will begin to questiuon
me
- AdamBeWorkin:
so where does that leave
us?
- majoralaur:
I mean, i'm still his
wife
- AdamBeWorkin:
right
- AdamBeWorkin:
so how long do you really think you
could play that game?
- majoralaur:
I don't know....at
all....
- majoralaur:
maybe i'll wake up tomorrow, ready for
a change
- AdamBeWorkin:
and why isn't what's happened in the
past 48 hours enough to warrant a "sit
down"
- AdamBeWorkin:
lol
- majoralaur:
lol
- majoralaur:
'sit down'? lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
meaning - there's OBVIOUSLY a problem
in your relationship
- AdamBeWorkin:
that only "minorly" has to do with
me
- majoralaur:
the last thing I want to tell him right
now is that I met someone else over the
weekend while he was
gone..
- AdamBeWorkin:
no no no
- majoralaur:
I know...we know there are
issues...
- majoralaur:
but neither of us have taken a stance
to make a change
- AdamBeWorkin:
wow - what could you
do?
- majoralaur:
cause something is keeping us there...I
cant explain
- majoralaur:
there is obviously some sort of bond
keeping us together or else I would
have picked up and left long
ago
- majoralaur:
I mean, it would be easy,. we dont have
children together...
- AdamBeWorkin:
you dont think it's
comfort?
- majoralaur:
quite possibly...
- AdamBeWorkin:
or because you NEVER thought a
different type of connection was
possible
- majoralaur:
like I said...this has been my first
seriosu relationship...aside from
'puppy love'...I'd never felt strongly
about anyone before
- AdamBeWorkin:
ok
- majoralaur:
I have nothing to compare it
to..
- majoralaur:
and then I met you..
- majoralaur:
and being with you has confused the
hell out of me...
- AdamBeWorkin:
how the fuck did this
happen?
- AdamBeWorkin:
<shaking head>
- majoralaur:
I only wish I knew...
- AdamBeWorkin:
and it's so shitty
because
- AdamBeWorkin:
I can't do anything for you
- AdamBeWorkin:
that I would do if we were just
"dating"
- AdamBeWorkin:
you know?
- AdamBeWorkin:
my hands are soooooooo
tied
- AdamBeWorkin:
on so many levels
- majoralaur:
of course...
- AdamBeWorkin:
just "time" to sit
- AdamBeWorkin:
and not feel that ticking
clock
- majoralaur:
I know...
- majoralaur:
I just want to take 'us' one day at a
time for now...
- majoralaur:
see where things may
lead...
- AdamBeWorkin:
well we don't have to beat this to the
ground
- majoralaur:
get to know each other
better
- AdamBeWorkin:
i agree - but that's a
band-aid...that's all I'm
saying
- majoralaur:
- AdamBeWorkin:
because i have no doubt this will
continue
- AdamBeWorkin:
and if you thought things were intense
before
- AdamBeWorkin:
it will get harder and
harder
- AdamBeWorkin:
there are certain things we haven't
even "done" yet
- majoralaur:
I know...
- AdamBeWorkin:
that is going to be almost too intense
to think about
- AdamBeWorkin:
let alone just tlaking with
you
- majoralaur:
believe me, I have thought about all
that
- AdamBeWorkin:
heh - so have i
- majoralaur:
;)
- AdamBeWorkin:
you were amazing this morning too
btw
- majoralaur:
hehehhe
- AdamBeWorkin:
but we'll cross that bridge when we
come to it I guess
- AdamBeWorkin:
I do have to admit I was thinking all
during lunch "why the fuck does this
happen to me?"
- majoralaur:
thats what u get for searching
CL...
- majoralaur:
lol
- majoralaur:
I mean, I do hate to bring back
memories of your past
relationships...(married
women)
- AdamBeWorkin:
well I resisted the urge to get blown
by a tranny
- AdamBeWorkin:
guess I should've given that another
thought
- AdamBeWorkin:
LOL
- AdamBeWorkin:
it's not that it brings back bad
memories - it's that it was a HUGE
lesson in my life
- majoralaur:
:)
- AdamBeWorkin:
(and I'm kidding about the tranny btw,
please laugh)
- AdamBeWorkin:
you're so behind
- AdamBeWorkin:
ha
- majoralaur:
oops...
- majoralaur:
it's called 'working'
- majoralaur:
;)
- AdamBeWorkin:
yeah - I should do that
too
- AdamBeWorkin:
anyway - huge lesson
- AdamBeWorkin:
and I learned a lot about how people
tick
- AdamBeWorkin:
and it engrained a lot of "truths" in
my mind
- majoralaur:
meaning..?
- AdamBeWorkin:
you will most likely stay with your
husband
- AdamBeWorkin:
and consider me some
rebound
- AdamBeWorkin:
that's what's most
likely
- majoralaur:
no, no, no...........
- AdamBeWorkin:
how can you say no?
- AdamBeWorkin:
it's the path of least
resistence!
- AdamBeWorkin:
it's HARD to do the opposite of that
statement
- AdamBeWorkin:
so you're most likely to not "rock the
boat"
- AdamBeWorkin:
hell - with the past relationship - she
even told him...
- AdamBeWorkin:
and still stayed
- majoralaur:
he stayed to?
- majoralaur:
after knowing that?
- majoralaur:
??
- AdamBeWorkin:
god she had the intestinal fortitude of
an amoeba
- AdamBeWorkin:
oh yeah he stayed
- AdamBeWorkin:
they're still together
- majoralaur:
damn
- majoralaur:
I cant imagine...
- AdamBeWorkin:
people always take the easier way
out
- majoralaur:
staying..after knowing
that...
- AdamBeWorkin:
*almost always
- majoralaur:
unless it was just
physical
- AdamBeWorkin:
no he knew how intense we
were
- AdamBeWorkin:
but with counseling you can put up with
anything
- majoralaur:
mmmm
- majoralaur:
I suppose
- majoralaur:
temporarily
- AdamBeWorkin:
but the bottom line is, it takes a
certain type of person
- AdamBeWorkin:
to make that step
- AdamBeWorkin:
to change your own life
- AdamBeWorkin:
comfort is more powerful than
CRACK
- AdamBeWorkin:
lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
so it's my job to make you miss me so
goddamn much
- AdamBeWorkin:
that you're uncomfortable when we're
not together
- AdamBeWorkin:
lol
- majoralaur:
lol
- majoralaur:
your duty, hm?
- majoralaur:
wanna see some pics?
- AdamBeWorkin:
hell yeah i do
- AdamBeWorkin:
you serious?
- majoralaur:
lol
- majoralaur:
just some random ones from
miami
- majoralaur:
my friend just sent me
some
- AdamBeWorkin:
you made my heart skip a
little
- AdamBeWorkin:
lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
that rules
- majoralaur:
nothing too risque
- majoralaur:
lol
- majoralaur:
;)
- AdamBeWorkin:
akontras@myjobwhichivekeptsecreton4tvs.com
- majoralaur:
k hold on
- AdamBeWorkin:
i'll find some of me...
- majoralaur:
send em!
- majoralaur:
of course, i'm sure u have plenty on
your website
- AdamBeWorkin:
oh yeah
- AdamBeWorkin:
i'm just linking you
- AdamBeWorkin:
lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
i have one page with my goofy ass
headshots
- AdamBeWorkin:
http://www.4tvs.com/Journey/yearthree/entries/J169-012002.html
- AdamBeWorkin:
whew
- AdamBeWorkin:
that's some serious red eye
babe
- AdamBeWorkin:
but your tits look fuckin
unreal
- majoralaur:
ewww I know huh
- AdamBeWorkin:
LOL
- majoralaur:
little devil
- majoralaur:
hahah
- AdamBeWorkin:
sorry for the crassness
- majoralaur:
hahah
- AdamBeWorkin:
but that was the first thing that came
to mind
- AdamBeWorkin:
ha
- majoralaur:
thanks ;)
- AdamBeWorkin:
and babe - you gotta smile
more
- AdamBeWorkin:
i can't wait to take your
picture
- AdamBeWorkin:
you'll smile for me...
- majoralaur:
I did smile!
- majoralaur:
in that one
- majoralaur:
I have some better ones from
bangkok
- majoralaur:
riding an elephant!
- majoralaur:
nice headshots,
btw....lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
heh
- AdamBeWorkin:
it's a funny entry
- AdamBeWorkin:
me kicking and screaming all the
way
- AdamBeWorkin:
I'm just not an actor
- AdamBeWorkin:
i fucking hate actors
- AdamBeWorkin:
lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
i'll fix your red eye
btw
- AdamBeWorkin:
send it back to ya
- majoralaur:
ahhh, I appreciate
it...
- majoralaur:
;)
- majoralaur:
u look so different w/ short
hair
- AdamBeWorkin:
i know i think i look
better
- AdamBeWorkin:
long hair drives me
crazy
- AdamBeWorkin:
but i have to grow it out for this
part
- AdamBeWorkin:
it's insane how much different i look
with the slightest
differences
- AdamBeWorkin:
from hair
- AdamBeWorkin:
to facial hair
- AdamBeWorkin:
i mean -look at that pic on the page
where I shaved
- AdamBeWorkin:
it's 5 minutes apart from the previous
pics
- majoralaur:
I know!
- majoralaur:
how old are those pics?
- AdamBeWorkin:
but I look 10 pounds
heavier
- majoralaur:
lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
and 10 years younger
- AdamBeWorkin:
3 years
- majoralaur:
very cute
- AdamBeWorkin:
sorry i'm so damn scruffy
now
- majoralaur:
u look very different
- AdamBeWorkin:
http://www.4tvs.com/4tvs/trinitrons/gallerydewey.html
- majoralaur:
not to say you're not cute now...
;)
- AdamBeWorkin:
i look better "groomed"
- AdamBeWorkin:
i know
- AdamBeWorkin:
;-)
- AdamBeWorkin:
but if you can STAND the sight of me
now
- AdamBeWorkin:
you'll be pleasantly surprised come
fall
- AdamBeWorkin:
heh
- AdamBeWorkin:
of course I will have half my eyebrows
shaved off
- AdamBeWorkin:
but those grow quickly
- majoralaur:
hahahaha
- majoralaur:
sexy ;)
- AdamBeWorkin:
http://www.4tvs.com/Journey/yearfour/entries/J264-080303.html
- AdamBeWorkin:
look at that cute puppy
- AdamBeWorkin:
can you handle it?
- AdamBeWorkin:
heh
- majoralaur:
lets see...
- majoralaur:
awwww....wook at that wittle
face
- majoralaur:
heheh
- AdamBeWorkin:
he looks exactly the same now - just 10
times bigger
- majoralaur:
he's HUGE!
- majoralaur:
what do u feed that
boy?
- AdamBeWorkin:
heh
- majoralaur:
btw
- majoralaur:
you're such a Libra
- majoralaur:
I read about u the other
day...
- majoralaur:
..not that I really believe those
things..
- majoralaur:
hehe
- AdamBeWorkin:
(sigh) what did it say?
- AdamBeWorkin:
'cause as embarrasing as it is...I've
never seen them be wrong about
me
- AdamBeWorkin:
except I'm a helluva lot more logical
than they usually say
- AdamBeWorkin:
i'm basically a woman
- majoralaur:
;)
- majoralaur:
it's actually in this book someone here
at work has
- majoralaur:
I have to make a fukken copy of your
sign
- majoralaur:
so u can read it
- AdamBeWorkin:
and is that the co-worker on the
elephant in the
picture?
- majoralaur:
hehehehe
- majoralaur:
yep...
- AdamBeWorkin:
isn't he...
- AdamBeWorkin:
wait
- AdamBeWorkin:
on myspace
- majoralaur:
wait?
- majoralaur:
yeah
- AdamBeWorkin:
i thought i recognized
him
- majoralaur:
he's on my friend list
- AdamBeWorkin:
****?
- majoralaur:
u recognize him?
- majoralaur:
*****
- AdamBeWorkin:
yeah
- AdamBeWorkin:
i RULE
- majoralaur:
he's like my best friend out
here
- majoralaur:
u do rule...
- AdamBeWorkin:
well he had a picture of
you
- majoralaur:
is he on your buddy list
too?
- AdamBeWorkin:
on his space
- majoralaur:
hahahah
- majoralaur:
yeah..
- AdamBeWorkin:
that's how I remembered
- majoralaur:
from Bangkok
- majoralaur:
too funny..
- majoralaur:
he's very cool
- AdamBeWorkin:
that poor elephant
- majoralaur:
poor?
- majoralaur:
what r u trying to
say!?!?
- majoralaur:
lol
- AdamBeWorkin:
dawg is like - "fuck my
life"
- AdamBeWorkin:
oh yeha - you're so
HUUUUUGE
- AdamBeWorkin:
ha
- majoralaur:
seriosuly...
- majoralaur:
back and forth...
- AdamBeWorkin:
right
- majoralaur:
making fukken tourists laugh all
day
- AdamBeWorkin:
heh
- majoralaur:
so what is it exactly...that u want to
pursue..?
- AdamBeWorkin:
well when I was with my
manager
- AdamBeWorkin:
we were working on a pilot with all
those characters
- AdamBeWorkin:
so I'm doign that
- majoralaur:
ok...
- AdamBeWorkin:
but obviously
- AdamBeWorkin:
i'm a songwriter
- majoralaur:
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