Not sure how it's
possible but we are again at the end of a month where
the mantra is inverted. "How Much More", the song that
defined my absolute exasperation at what this journey
could throw at me next, for one fleeting moment
actually defines the excitement at the coming month.
It's incredible because similarities like this usually
happen YEARS apart (Aspen/AGT - Palaur/Minialaur) but
this is back to back. It's another amazing month like
April with the peak happening RIGHT at the end,
and if history is any indication it will soon
vanish...
...except this
time. History is NO indicator because nothing has
ever been set-up like this before. We all
control this. We determine this unlike any other thing
that's happened. Rush Limbaugh getting arrested won't
bump me like on MSNBC. An America's Got Talent segment
producer won't decide a stripper is better for their
show than 4tvs after booking me 24 hours before. All
I have to do to control my entire opportunity is
get people to vote for me in 2 weeks. Because of my
grandmother I will be going back to Columbus and will
be able to use any free time to personally go to the
TV and radio stations to push this. I will also
personally go door-to-door in my neighborhood and hand
out flyers to remind people to vote as much as
possible from July 10th-12th. It is such an incredibly
freeing feeling to completely understand the
obstacle between me and success. I feel like the
luckiest man on earth.
Although my
luckiness is just a feeling, my competitiveness
certainly is not. I actually shock myself at just how
intensely competitive I am. This is my personal
World Cup. I was knocked out of my previous 2
competitions with 4tvs (Aspen/AGT) before I ever got
to play...but now? Oh shit IT IS ON.
I read this on Trevor's site:
PLEASE
vote on
www.cbsnews.com
Mon-Tues
July 10th-11th
click
on early show
then
click living room...live
link
please
vote for me as many times
as
possible!!
I turned into a
GANGSTER. LOL. I actually started sub-consciously
gritting out angry "G" phrases towards the screen
under my breath. It's this overwhelming, barbaric male
reaction of:
I WILL FUCKING DESTROY YOU
BRAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! <GODZILLA FIRE>. It's
so not me. I actually think Trevor's cool, dug his
song - thought his juggling rouse at the beginning was
really funny. Hell, we'd probably get along - but in
this scenario... I become a cowboy man. I'm Dubya
and the other contestants are the rest of the world.
It's a pissing contest and I'm drinking 8 gallons a
day. It's that fire I talked about with AGT and
I will fight with everything I have to
assure victory. It's this focus that I can barely
explain - and all of you reading have it too. Anyone
following this, knowing that it's also in your hands?
You just keep on clickin'. As a team, we're gonna make
this happen. I'm so proud of that.
Even in all my
chest-thumping roar a part of me jumps into the other
contestant's perspective for a bit. That has to kinda
suck. Although we're all on equal footing in our
careers (meaning we've gone nowhere), I have an
advantage of supporters as I've been publically trying
to make it for over 10 years. That has to be
absolutely daunting to the other competitors trying to
grab some votes. So for two seconds, I feel for
ya guys. That is indeed an advantage here. OK - two
seconds up.
WE WILL
DESTROY YOU BRAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
<GODZILLA FIRE>
:-)
Alright, to end
the month I have to show you guys this amazingly
eerie "Like Father, Like Son":
(Jesus
Doug, that mullet is ridiculous for the mid-90s.
LOL)
My Dad
was in a duo called Smith 'N' Kontras from
1991-1995 (3rd guy in the video was for
harmony, ironically also had the last name
of "Smith") and they performed on TNN in
1995. Unfortunately it wasn't live so
I knew from a phone call the results
well before it aired. It occured to me
last night how similar the situations
were, although Dad certainly owns an
advantage thus far as he actually got to
perform on the show. They won the first
round but lost the second (little lesson
in there for us). Just wild to me watching
the second half of the video and rooting
for my dad competing against two other
acts and having them win. Man how time
flies...
I will have a
flyer in the next entry that you can either link
people to, or print out if so inclined, for the voting
on July 10th-12th. Holy shit - I just realized that
the announcement of the winner is gonna be on my
fucking death date. CHRIST. That's not good. I dreamt
my death date when I was a kid: July 13th, 2057
and actually put it in the background of my a capella
version of "I Am The Walrus" on my 2nd
CD. Of
course that's the date of the announcement. Man
that's a bad omen! LOL. Oh well, it'll just make me
work harder.
July 13th.
Grrrrr.
Adam
PS - the title,
"Let's Try This Again" was referring to ending a month
like April saying "How Much More"...not: "Let's try as
a Kontras man to be in a competition and not
LOSE this time" LMFAO. That was totally
unintentional and only came across that way when
I added the picture to the already titled Entry
Bar. HAHAHA. So didn't mean it to look like
that.
