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2:38 PM, Tuesday,
May 4th, 2006:
The past several
days I've been working feverishly on piecing together
the "negative entries" from 1999. I'll get into
it a bit more in the next entry, but suffice to say
I've been IN 1999 for a week. Reading my
journal entries and show reports from then have been a
whirlwind. I was deep into October 1999, reading about
me struggling with the CD101 offer or giving it all up
to go to Vegas and pursue 4tvs when at 10:14 AM, my
phone rang...
...and I got the
callback that I've made it at least to that first
taping. Now I assume reading "The
Journey" isn't as much of an out of body
experience to you guys as it is for me, but believe me
- when you start skimmig through 1999 and start to
take in the struggle it was - you're there. I think
they may be the most powerful entries of the entire
site leading to LA. So I'm sure you can imagine what a
time warp it was to zip ahead 7 years and take a phone
call of someone saying your little 4tvs act is gonna
be part of a national television show. The very
definition of surrealism.
In reality of
course, I don't know anything. This call
confirmed that they want me to be part of the taping
on the 19th and 20th. They need me to do a rehearsal
on the 15th or 16th to make sure we have all the
technical aspects down for the filming. But ahhh,
remember what I said last month?
"…in
an effort to stand apart from other shows,
the "America's Got Talent" auditions will
carry an element of chance."
"Everyone
who turns up will be sitting in the
audience, and no one knows if they'll be
auditioning until their name is called,"
Cowell explains. "There are going to be
about a thousand [hopefuls] a day,
and only 70 or 80 will get to see the
judges. So you've got to be dressed,
you've got to be prepared, and if your
name and number is called, you run up to
the stage and audition."
So all I'm really
assured of is sitting in the audience with the rest of
the people that they narrowed down and hoping my name
gets called. Pretty nerve-racking huh? I'm really
actually pretty floored they're going to such an
extent for this because, they held auditions in 6
cities I believe. That means they are flying in an
auditorioum's worth of contestants to sit there...and
the majority will never be called up? Fuck me. That
seems awfully expensive, but then again they're giving
away a million dollars so what's a couple hundred
plane tickets?
Had a
fairly long conversation with the lady who
called. Asking me all the questions you'd
assume, how I thought of it, what my
goals were, what my struggles were, what
my inspirations were. Fairly easy to
answer questions you've talked about for 7
years straight in a journal. HA. Didn't
stop me from pacing like a madman while
talking to her. Here's
what the bottom of my chin
sees
during the interview if you were
wondering. Heh.
So what does this
mean? First of all the "blackout" period
I mentioned last month is offiical. Starting May
19th - I will disappear from the web for at least
a month. No updates, no instant messages, no message
boards, no personal emails - nada. Don't call, I won't
answer. I suck at keeping secrets, and I can't
even tempt myself with being public during this
period. And guys, this is a $5,000,000 lawsuit secret.
That's not a misprint. I'm gonna be signing a 30 page
release and non-disclousre agreement and you'd better
believe that I won't be giving a goddamn thing away
until this puppy airs on June 21st. Luckily it's live
after that, so no problem. And it's not like
I can just have locked entries, the titles will
let everyone know if I made it on or not.
I can't have anything. Reality shows don't fuck
around with this at all. In fact, there's a slight
possibity this whole black out period is starting NOW.
I'll know tomorrow when I talk with the lawyers
at NBC. Just this callback may fall under
non-disclosure. I just don't know.
Crazy.
Of course if I
make it on, no big deal really because I'll be so damn
busy building the new 4tvs setup it won't matter...but
if I don't make it. Garrrrrrrrrrgh.
That will suck. Because this is my therapy if
nothing else. That would be the loneliest month of my
life. Whew.
One rather
pressing issue is the name of the band. Adam & The
Trinitrons will not be happening. Amy
Lou from
the boards (there I said your name you can have a
Journey Player plaque - lol) and I were throwing
around ideas when I came up with Adam & The
Wannabes. Kind of a direct slam at the band which I
love. She then countered with Adam & The Posers. I
like the name focusing on the characters now that
they're developed as opposed to the TVs themselves.
It's such a dick move to put your band members in TVs
and call them wannabes. LOL. I'm certainly open to
suggestions though so by all means throw in your ideas
in the feedback section of this entry. I have to have
a final name one week from tomorrow. Whew.
I obviously feel
really good about my chances though. I have a pretty
good grasp on what they're looking for and if I were
personally creating the show for me, I wouldn't
change a thing. In all seriousness, if I were
creating a game show that I was sure I could win? I'd
make one based solely on overall talent because that's
what 4tvs shows better than anything else. You can
dislike the show, but the talent to put it together is
absolutely undeniable. I feel I have almost an unfair
advantage being able to use the 4tvs canvas. So my
worry isn't so much getting on the show, it's what can
I do to seperate myself from the others...once I'm
competing with them. I realize thinking like that
might make me fall flat on my face come the 20th, but
I've analyzed this to death - and this thing is mine
to take. I'll truly stop at nothing. I'll pull all
nighters building sets, writing skits, changing the
show - everything. I will work harder than any person
on the planet and I will attack this show with all my
heart. "See the road ahead and make it yours..."
Thanks for showing me the road, I'll take care of the
rest.
When I got
off the phone I just kinda sat back like a 2x4
hit me. It's actually how I am right now to tell you
the truth. Hearing about the show is giddy. The first
audition was giddy. Knowing that I've been called back
and I'm at the start of a competition? That's
serious. This is not a time to celebrate. My goal is
to win and I fully believe I will. These are my
once in a lifetime playoffs and we're tipping off Game
1. Yes, I feel like I'm playing an 8th
seed but ask San Antonio how that's workin' out
for 'em. So Adam, stop smiling, and stop feeling like
you've accomplished ANYTHING. You haven't. And if you
feel like that, you're gonna get
blindsided.
