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7:51 PM, Saturday,
December 13th, 2008:
You know, it
seemed like a good title when I wrote it but the more
I think of it... kinda shitty right? Friends?
They're for doing nice things for me. LOL. That's what
friends are for. They're for making me happy. Ha. Not
at all what I meant, but considering this is
about a friend being incredibly giving and sweet the
title comes off a bit egocentric.
Right Adam, it's
the title that comes off egocentric, not the
830 entries before it. :-)
So
Linda calls me up (radio producer that got
me into the debates) and says "Can
I buy you a tree?". She's moving to
New York via Germany then Paris (and you
guys thought I did crazy shit) and
wouldn't be able to enjoy it so she wanted
to usy my house for surrogate
Christmasdom. How sweet right? Conspiracy
theorists, she's not moving in, is madly
in love with someone else and is really
just that nice. :-)
The song is
actually one of my favorite Christmas songs ever...
that no one knows. It's a Harry Connick Jr. original
that just sticks with ya. I did a Late show song to
the tune of this called "This is the Late show" and
used the background parts which are "oooh sweet jesus"
laughing throughout because it is so ridiculous for me
to be singing a gospel song - but they all have the
soul you know? Crooning "the Lord" just sounds
fuckin' cool. Once the piano starts it's more of a
"me" song talkin' about how the songs will get me
through. As I said several years ago in a song to
my grandmother: "I never believed in the
God you sold, my faith was all in song."
<btw - How
stunning is the new higher def YouTube videos? I don't
know how they can host all this shit for free. I see a
very shitty day in my future when they grab all of our
balls and start charging a fee. Gulp.>
Speaking of
nut-grabbing plane ticket prices this season were so
insane I wasn't gonna be able to go home. But
guesswhat happens when you're willing to ruin your
Christmas Day in an airplane... you can save $450.
?!?!! My work closes down the last 2 weeks of the year
and I was so bummed that tickets home were $700
and I couldn't see my family - until
I looked at flights on Christmas Day... $252
round-trip. Who knew right? So thankfully I'll be able
to see friends and family and you get to avoid what
was sure to be at least 2 "Oh my fuck I'm so lonely"
videos. Ha. I still have to do my yearend drunk
video (estimated date for that is Sunday the 21st so
drunk dialing recipients beware) but I'm thinking it's
gonna be... actually - WOW - what a year to do that
video. So much has happened. I'm actually a bit
anxious as to what that may hold.
Anyway, back to
the friends thing. More than I ever realized
before, people have my back. It's a support system
I could never really focus on because I was
always so focused on my mate. And though I'll always
prefer the intensity of a connected, soulful
relationship, with it comes expectations and right now
I just can't. And I'm very lucky to have
"whatever you need" friends that aren't going to
make a book of "favor counts" after any act of
kindness. Linda certainly falls into this category
(with Laura and longtime member Paddy) and I struggle
to find ways to say thank you when someone has been so
kind. Besides the debates in New York in October,
Linda has gotten me several little free lance jobs
with the Tavis Smiley show asking nothing in return.
And Laura has all but adopted me into her family more
certain than even I am that my career will be
zooming next year thanks to the contacts she can
connect for me. And yes, both from Facebook. LOL. It
really is extraordinary the power of that site.
Especially for someone like me that communicates
through the internet as if I invented the thing.
There's no doubt that it will lead to my next break
because in about 6 months just about everyone I have
any contact with will probably be traced back to it.
I do need a break (relaxing not career) soon
though 'cause I'm so burnt out on networking. I get so
many comments scoffing at my dread for it because
I seem so good at it but rest assured that I just
want to stop. LOL. I don't want to add you, bug
you, annoy you... I just want to be me and
everyone be happy.
Not in Hollywood
Adam. In Hollywood you speak about yourself in third
person and then write another sentence afterwards
pointing that out being even more self-referential.
You're a literary Escher painting.
