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4:20 PM, Saturday,
October 11th, 2008:
Today
I'm in both places (literally on the plane
at the moment) and I needed a breather. So
I figured this would be a nice bridge to
New York, and allow me to just relax. So
how do you say everything without saying
anything? Huge, gigantic
generalities.
I stopped
working out daily about 2 months ago.
Instead, every week I run 5K. Weird
thiing is? I need it. Like I've found that
I enjoy how I feel afterwards and a
week allows my freaking old-ass knees to
recoup. Understand this - I hate
working out with the passion of, uhm a
really passionate guy. Really hate it. So
this is a bit of a eurkea moment for me.
As well, food is that issue that really is
a compulsive behavior that I've never
found middle ground at. I have to
workout like crazy to combat it - and it's
a bad cycle...
...but suddenly,
not so much. Once a week I run, and I try to
eat reasonably the rest of the time. I still gain
about a pound a week (seriously, you guys can't fathom
how bad my body wants to be 30-40 pounds heavier) but
it's slow enough that I can keep it in control.
And, I actually look forward to it. It's been a great
way to clear my mind - and every single time I'm
amazed at how "easy" it gets when you've done it
a couple weeks in a row. And believe me, I'm a "run
only if you're being chased" kind of guy... but
somehow at this age, it's working. Crazy.
As well there's a
lot to be said for maturity. After the life
experiences I've been through it's almost impossible
for me to say: "I just can't do it" when it
comes to working out or eating right. I've proven that
I can do just about anything and I've grown to have
such a disdain for the word "can't" I won't even say
it myself. "Won't" I'll say every now and then... but
rarely a can't.
Soooooo stalling.
Remember why you were in Wrigleyville the last two
days and learn from it. Although you will inevitably
be involved in similar situations due to your field,
there are ways to avoid it. Your strength to get that
project finished on your birthday of all days speaks
volumes and you kept your head throughout... but Adam,
really... you shouldn't be paying those kind of
"school fees" at your age. Follow your instincts, they
saw this coming from a mile away.
Alright. Had to be
said, had to be read, and had to be learned. I reread
these entries all the time and you can't imagine how
much they help years down the road. I think anyone who
writes should do the same because so much of the
advice you need is within you. You just have so much
other shit inside you, you can't get to it. And
nothing resonates like personal experience. Moo, veen,
on.
New York awaits at
the most beautiful time of the year and I have no
doubt I'm going to fall in love with it. This morning
I had to steal wi-fi in Wrigleyville (and ended
up sitting on the stoop that I stayed at when I stayed
with my friend Jeff in 1997 - how unbelieveable is
that, had no idea) and looking around I have to admit
I missed it. A lot. I meant what I said in that
radio interview... my heart is east where the seasons
change. It just is. Of course I don't like winters but
hating those are why you love fall and spring. It's
the same thing I said in 2005 when I was certain I
would move, but the reality is I have a home in
LA and I do love that home and the proximity to
everything in my life. I won't move - but I have to
come back more. I just have to. But come on "moment
man" don't wax poetic on what you have to do when
you're back in LA - you're here now.
Enjoy.
I talked about the
goals for the trip and Chicago a few entries ago and
it pretty much played out as well as I could have
hoped - from the radio to the performance to the
celebrity (which I can announce after the debate) to
Erin's finished video... I'm proud of all of it and
considering the conditions it even takes on a new
light. New York however has much, much higher goals.
These meetings have to land something huge. Be it with
Friedman and his company, be it with the new people at
CBS with Tammy's help, I need to make this happen and
quite a bit really is out of my hands. This will be
the ultimate test of established, proven talent vs.
who you know. I hate to tell you the odds of the
former winning...
...but
I can't wait to see what happens
next.
:-)
Adam
PS - A pic of the
highschool gang I got to see after several
years...
How
middle-eastern do I look in this pic, no? I would so
stop my ass at an airport...
