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8:44 PM, Friday,
July 18th, 2008:
At least it was
only 10 entries...
I
mean, this is nothin'. For real
masochists out there check out the
America's
Got
Talent
episode. That mofo ran months, nearly 35
entries - and actually entailed 10
seperate entries of hell before it turned
into nothing. That's the real Journey.
Come to think of it, maybe you shouldn't
check that out. LOL. There's nothing
remotely redeeming about how hard that
was. But I bring it up because in the
scheme of things, this was nothin'. What's
crazy is the exact same footage from last
month, but with this song, has an entirely
new meaning. I love the "I just can't work
a 9-5" line as I'm AT the 9-5. Life is
poetry.
So the CBS thing
ain't happenin' now, and most likely - ain't
happenin'. I wish I could tell you more, I wish I
could even understand what's happening myself, but the
bottom line is everything is pushed until November. At
which point, I have no idea what they want to do, what
part I would have, even how long it would be. I don't
know because they don't know... and maybe they do but
I simply cannot communicate with anyone there. LOL.
I mean it's almost like speaking in a different
language. Questions aren't really answered, they're
alluded to or passed off or sometimes just completely
ignored. In fact I knew of this "November" thing for
over a week but we were told that they wanted the
finale in November... which means we have to start at
the end of August...
...soooooooooooo?
Days pass and that was never really responded to...
and now they said: "pushed to November" again and you
just throw your hands up because you know what's gonna
happen. We're gonna get to October and it'll be rushed
and end up being a 2 to 3 week thing because there's
no time to plan and we have to make November sweeps.
Crazy isn't it? All I want to do is sit down and have
a meeting. I can give them a full presentation, show
them everything we did - show them the entire layout
of the structure of the competition... all the work
has been done already - and they're interested... yet,
no one seems to be able to communicate with the people
they're literally FEET from and I'm ripping my hair
out 2500 miles away. It's just maddening and there's
not a thing I can do at this point. When it was still
a "summer" thing I was gonna take time off and
fly to NY and try to get the ball rolling there - but
this is now the second time the "Novemeber" thing has
come up and it's clear the person passing that info on
is being told by higher-ups: "put this away for now".
Which is fine, but it's difficult to explain that this
takes preperation without exhausting the situation
completely. Like I get the feeling if I showed them
this:
Monday, August
25th - Group A Week 1
Monday,
September 1st - Group A Week 2
Monday,
September 8th - Group A Week 3
Monday,
September 15th - Group A Finalist Round
Monday,
September 22nd - Group B Week 1
Monday,
September 29th - Group B Week 2
Monday, October
6th - Group B Week 3
Monday, October
13th - Group B Finalist Round
Monday, October
20th - Group C Week 1
Monday, October
27th - Group C Week 2
Monday,
November 3rd - Group C Week 3
Monday,
November 10th - Group C Finalist Round
Monday,
November 17th - Ultimate Finalist Round with the
winner announced Thursday the 20th...
(Band would
perform either Monday, Tuesday or Wednesday of the
following week - we did it 3 different days the
first 3 seasons)
...which is the
schedule we'd have to follow to have the finale during
November - they'd go: "well that's too damn
complicated so we'll do a 3 week thing. We'll talk in
October. LOL. Nevermind the announcement which would
have to be nearly 4 weeks previous because you have to
give people time to submit the acts... it's a lot of
planning...
...but it's
already been DONE. Three times. We have it down.
Maddening is the only word I can think of. And since
I'm apparently alone in this feeling, you have to just
let it be. They know what I bring to the table, again
thank the fuck christ I killed myself every week, and
when it's time... it's time.
That's The
Journey. I had a great little symbolic scenario pop in
to my head last night about it all:
You paddle
and fight and swim to get out to the sailboat in
the middle of a huge lake. Once you're in however,
you have to put down the paddle. Certainly you move
the sail around trying to see which way the wind is
blowing, you never stop that... but you can't
paddle and paddle once you're in the boat. You're
also pretty foolish to look for better boats
constantly and keep jumpin' ship. I'm lucky - I
found the right boat. I'm in it and I'm constantly
trying to determine which way the sail should go
and every once and awhile it TAKES off. But when
the wind dies down, I just tend to chill out. I'm
not feverishly trying to paddle so it moves where I
want it, I'm simply using the tools I have on
the boat... so shit like this doesn't phase me. Of
course I'm bummed... because this sailboat was
FLYING. But that's the way the wind blows man. You
just don't leave the boat. You don't give up. Being
in the boat is half the battle. So I keep on
keepin' on...
In the meantime,
I'm doin' good at work, still doin' the realtor video
stuff and I even did a paid voice over for my job
today. I won't get into all it entails here, the whole
job and who we actually work for is definitely it's
own entry, but the wind is definitely blowing and the
gust is comin'. Meantime I'm enjoying the cool breeze
and decompressing. Everything really does seem to be
working perfectly.
And we all know
November is my month, so who are we kidding. Hell
November is a freaking Journey God...
...but I did enjoy
the egg last month. Hope you did too.
