Finally
some humor enters into my life this week.
Nothing has been funny for awhile until I
thought of this
song
last night. Then I actually finally
relaxed. It's a parody of Paul Simon's "50
Ways to Leave your Lover". There's
something about his melody in the verses
that's almost "rap" like that I love.
It's very easy to craft a story within it
and make it sound poetic. Woah, I just
remembered I had a dream where I called up
Paul Simon and just talked to him. Weird.
Totally unrelated to this...or so
I thought. Who knows. Anyway - funny
song.
What's
not been so funny is this site being down. 12 days
man. 12 days of thinking some asshole was gonna steal
the name when it became public...TOMORROW. Finally
this morning it all went through. There were all these
24-72 hour waiting periods while Catnaz changed
contact names and whatnot. Meanwhile - no email or
web. In the 4 years I've had 4tvs.com it's
never been down. Amazing how stressful that is.
Even more incredible is how much I rely on the
fact that it's out there. I felt completely naked
these past 2 weeks. Like "If something happens, and
there's no entry - does it exist?". It's why as much
as I threaten to end this whole entry thing - it'll
probably never happen. It just can't. Writing is
sooooo in my blood at this point. I need to write, and
I need to be read. When that's cut-off I'm like the
sick E.T. and Elliot. "AHHHHHHH"(E.T.
voice)
So
as you could've guessed the house move in date is
still not entirely official. Everytime we think it's
fine there's another call. Most recently this weekend
the woman said there was no possible way to be out
before the 17th again. Just an abrupt message to her
realtor saying "can't do it". Heh. So then the
ex-husband happens to call the realtor just to see how
things are going and gets
filllllllllllllllllllllllllled in on the whole
situation. Needless to say he wasn't amused. He simply
said: "She'll be out". And that was that. LOL. I can
only imagine the stories in that household. A once
nice, understanding, loving Jess and Adam - no longer
give a fuck. Get the hell out. Although feasible we
still close on May 14th - it may be pushed to the 15th
because of all the tiny intricacies of the house
tenting, completion letters, loan funding, and final
closing. All sorts of fun. It's probably extraordinary
how fast 60 days has felt to her in comparison to how
long it's been for us. Oh well - next week man. Next
week.
Everything
else has just been...well stressful. I'm realizing
just how ideal my conditions were in 2001 to lose all
that weight. Cause when you have...well a REAL life,
guess what's really friggin hard? I'm still floatin'
around at 165. It's only 10 pounds from where I need
to be for the shoot, but at this point it might as
well be 100 pounds. My mind is just so tired from all
the shit that's been happening that the discipline to
work out is absolutely a joke. Nonexistent. All the
eating right in the world can't get me to the 150's. I
have to workout to achieve that. I will always
plateu in the 160's otherwise. I am totally jonesin'
for the shoot though. I believe once I get
moved into the house it'll be easier to focus on it.
Looks like it'll all be completed in the month of
June.
Oh
and a quick aside...met someone at work who is in the
"industry" and let her check out the Trinitrons DVD.
She's invited me to be part of a group of "chosen
people", heh, who meet every week to help out on other
people's projects and what not. Filmakers that need
editors, editors that need equipment, writers that
need actors - so on and so on. A group of 10-15
people she's met in her time out here who are
dependable and willing to help. Making sort've a
network of talent that can work towards mutual and
individual goals. She really dug the different aspects
shown on the DVD and asked if I'd be interested in
meeting everyone. Sounds like a great idea actually.
Just to meet and help like-minded people is exciting.
My only concern is that I really can't help with my
time in the very near future - as I have one huge
video editing project for a wedding band I'm currently
working on - as well as The Trinitrons sequel. But
I'll probably hit up the weekly meetings and just get
to know everyone. This is one of those things that
could be nothing in time, or could lead to everything.
And you know me, I have to wear everything on my
sleeve - LOL. So I'll write about it way too early and
then look foolish later. Ahh how you love me for that
don't you.
Either
way - just another sign to those thinking I'm falling
off "The Journey" bandwagon. I know it feels like
we're on the longest service road ever - you know what
though? It's totally just me. I'm the over-analytical
one that keeps thinking: "What are you doing
NOW for your career? You're just making
excuses. Stop. Do more. Get off your ass" I put a
tremendous amount of pressure on myself, and I'm not
sure that can ever truly get better until I'm
successful to some degree. It's like what your body
does to you when you're hungry. You can't really stop
it. You have to eat. So here's hopin' I pull of
something sooner rather than later.
Well,
as you may have guessed - there will be only one more
entry before we officially move in. And how may you
have guessed? The entry numbers man... it's gotta be
Entry 250. Gotta be. It all happens on the big numbers
people. Two Hundred and Fifty stories in this Journey.
Can it be?
