- 7:32
PM, Wednesday, April 2nd, 2003:
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- I
warned you guys. One of these days, the joke will be
the lack thereof. One of these days real life is gonna
happen on April 1st, and no one will believe me. Heh.
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- Unfortunately,
every single word of the last entry was true. In fact
I started writing it Monday night with no thought of
the date, and realized that at midnight it would be
April Fools. I'll admit that it was slightly in bad
taste, but only because you all expected a lie. The
entry itself is completely sincere. I also know my dad
is gonna be "Ok". If he was still going under the
knife - I would've changed the date to March 31st.
Wow, it really is amazing that this all came to pass
on 4/1. Your reactions were pretty funny though. They
ranged from "You are a sick fuck" to "Sucker! You
didn't get me this year!" Which is my favorite,
because some of you thought about this for a whole
friggin' year...how you wouldn't get taken, and then
in a way you still got it. Heh. Next year you might as
well not read it. However I am proud of the majority
of you who had the balls to say "Dude, if you're
making this up you're a total dickhead." I'm glad I
still have real friends that will call my ass out. I
would never make this shit up.
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- Most
importantly my father is doing fine right now. On the
meds and back at work. I guess the doctors believe if
the valve gets no worse, surgery is avoidable...but it
still seems like prolonging the inevitable to me. It's
a total Catch-22 situation. You're happy there's no
surgery, but it bites you when you think of it
happening in 10-15 years. For now, you just gotta
forget about it - take each day as it comes. Can't
wait to fly back tonight.
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- I'm
also officially starting to grow my "G" beard. Well, I
haven't shaved today. So in about 10 days I should be
lookin' all tough and shit. Of course talk about the
cart ahead of the ass. The script is still not
complete. Obviously the "bulk" is done, but there's a
lotta little stuff that needs to be ironed out. I have
25 days to do that. Also 25 days to get all the
materials and...wow. In the middle of that last
sentence I just realized I'm probably going to need to
wait. Shit. We have to save every penny we've got
right now to pull off the 5% on the house by mid May.
If I spend what I need to on everything, that will
kill us for the house. Shit. This is totally going to
have to wait. Son of a bitch. I had the time and
everything to do it...GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. Damnit, damnit,
damnit. Oh well, it shall be done. Ideally I would be
able to perform starting at the end of June and I need
to get in enough performances to make another kick-ass
DVD by a fall show. That would be awesome. Man that
really bites. I can't believe I have to push this off
again. Money! Money! The whole world is money! Hell I
had to second guess coming to see my father because of
money! Someday man... You know we all have to believe
in someday. We all have to believe we won't be a slave
to money our whole lives, but so few of us are able to
break that cycle. At least I have the talent and
potential to pull it off.
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- I
also have that amazing wife who I never mention
enough. We just get along so fuggin' well. I know it's
cliched, but having a best friend as a spouse is just
so fun. It's like the sleepover that never ends. I
think I'm most excited because she's into the new
Legend of Zelda game as much as me. LOL. That's such
an endearing quality about a woman to a videogame nut,
I can't even tell you. As well, the whole "house"
thing is a pretty cool bonding thing between two
people too. Yeah, nothin' says lovin' like a 1/4
million dollar DEBT. HA. But it's true, we even had a
"talk" before this. A good "Ok, I know we're married
and all - but are you suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuure about this?
'Cause this is a fuggin' HOUSE. Getting out of a
marriage is a helluva lot easier pre-house/kids." We
laughed at the time, but it's so true. A house is a
bigger commitment in the 21st Century than a Marriage
License. Sad but true. And of course kids, although a
foregone conclusion one of these years, is the
ultimate. Especially for me who grew up in a divorced
family. Can't have that for my kids man. Just can't.
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- Oh
and I missed another audition yesterday 'cause of
work. Grrr. My record stands at 4-3. Unfortunately the
more successful the business gets, the more impossible
it is for me to skip out for 2 hours. Sucks, but again
- these are not super-crucial to my career. It's not
like these are actual roles. It's just the right face
for the right product. It would be nice money if I got
it - but otherwise, what can you do. Gotta pay the
bills.
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- Alright,
I have a plane to catch. Hope you all breathed a
sigh of relief that I didn't make that up just for a
joke. Although next year...heh - you guys seriously
might as well not read it. You'll have no idea what's
truth or not.
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- Adam
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