I kid, I kid.
I'm sure there's a Kerry poster out there spelled
"Carrie", but ya gotta just love that
picture.
So here it is.
Hard to believe that it's possible that in 24 hours
this will all be over with. And honestly, I do believe
it will be known by then. The probability of it being
as close as it was before is truly astronomical. I
would gather if you set up a mock-state with 5 million
voters and told them WHO to vote for to make it
an exact tie - it still wouldn't be within 500 votes.
Just too many variables. So I do think we'll
know. And finally, I do believe that Bush will win
this. I think fear is more powerful than hope and
people are sheep. God I don't mean to be rude to Bush
voters, but I do believe the people that are voting
for Bush for security reasons are completely being
hoodwinked. Bush BY HIMSELF has created a bigger
world of enemies in such a short amount of time that
he alone is a threat to our security. Yet, he plays it
as his strength. Extraordinary. The only hope is that
the kids come out in droves. If we get over 60% of the
registered voters voting, Kerry should pull it
out...but man, there's a lot of young republicans out
there (ahem, the entry picture). It's a toss-up and as
I said before, I will be SHOCKED if "hope" beats
"fear". It's going to be one of the longest days I've
ever experienced.
Made just a bit
quicker by how busy I am at work...
YAHOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Yeah, so the
mortgage company finally called back. Well, it's more
like - I called over and over and herad nothing,
finally called the lady who originally told me about
it - and with her CELL PHONE, I finally
reached them in the office. (sigh). But I finally
got through, and started today.
It's funny,
I expected to be really anxious and have
everything go over my head and by the end of the day
I left feeling like I would kick ass. It really
all comes down to being trustworthy and working your
ass off to help people. I'm going to put in 12 hour
days and MAKE this work. I really don't have a
choice in the matter. As I've said before, this can't:
"Not work out". It has to, and I have to make it work.
If it means I SLEEP THERE...I'll bring my
pillow. I will make this work. Once I get
everything down, it will be a normal schedule but at
the beginning, I'm going to be a madman. My entire
dream depends on it - and FINALLY I have a goal,
and a path to get to it. Man, when I have that - I
have always succeeded.
The next question
has to be - when the hell will you do what you're
there to do!?!? You didn't move to LA to sell
mortgages! Thank you Captain Obvious. Maybe you're
just checkin' in on the journey, but this year would
be what we like to call a "critical crossroad" in
my life. To say I'm on the verge of losing everything
is an understatement. In fact, I've pretty much lost
everything I've ever cared about and am staring at
complete failure in life, let alone 4tvs. So all that
matters right now is securing my future and allowing
this to continue. It's a bit of a side-track, yes. But
in time, this should allow me the freedom to not only
stay here, but to be able to fund 4tvs the way it
needs to be.
So bear with me
for the next couple months. It's gonna be fuckin'
hard. These last 2 months with Jess are going to
redefine emotional. My ultimate hope is to have
January 1st 2005 arrive and not have to sell the house
and the dogs. But it's a non-issue. As I said
before - this will work. I will not sell this
house, I will not sell my dogs, and I will not
give up and go back to Ohio. So the next few months
will absolutely chronicle my success in securing all
of this so I can reconcentrate on everything
else.
What time man,
what a time. All in the most important election year
of many lifetimes. I'm videotaping me voting tomorrow.
Not that it really matters in California, but maybe
I won't be on the list and I can get all crazy
and shit. LOL. That would rule.
Adam
PS -
the video
is actually pretty extraordinary. While on
the Letterman show Bush thought the
cameras weren't rolling during a
commercial break. As the producer came
over to talk to Letterman, he grabs her
blouse and wipes off his glasses while
she's turned around. At first it struck me
as kind of funny and then it hit me just
how incredibly disrespectful it is. It's
such an insight into how he feels about
not only himself, but others. This is a
complete stranger to him, you know? Truly,
watch it a few times and think about the
context, it won't hit you right away...it
just kinda sets in. It's an absolutely
invaluable look into his mind.
I mean,
I would venture to say that even Clinton, who
thinks very, very highly of himself - would never be
this demeaning. Anyway, the video just really struck
me. Vote. And only for Kerry. Yeah, I realize it's
PC to say just vote, it doesn't matter who
for...but no - I'm gonna be honest. If you're voting
for Bush, I'd rather you stay home tomorrow mmmmk?
Ahhh, that felt better. LOL.
