Adam, you can stop
now. Grab a beer, watch Cheers and hang with the pups.
You don't need to produce anything more. You made it.
Nah, just a little
bit more...but I will grab that beer.
So in what was to
be the final Trinitron Chronicle, the big premiere,
I'm realizing it isn't the end of the line. The
finished product is the DVD, not the show, so tonight
was simply another taping. Strange isn't it? You can
see the winds of change sweeping over me as we speak.
Errr...write. It's not a change so much as... well
lemme get to the show:
It was surreal.
I was a director who happened to be onstage
during the movie. That's what it felt like. As I've
tried to explain before, this final show is very story
centered and Live Adam is just along for the ride.
I think everyone at the show tonight saw a guy
who wants so badly to make films he could barely stand
to be onstage...not because he didn't like performing
- but because he wanted to WATCH the show.
The big jokes all
worked, and although this show doesn't have as many
one-liners and sexual innuendos as the others - the
story is solid. To me it was my tribute to the
characters to give them a little more respect and end
it the right way. And man did it end right...the
reaction was awesome - people really just didn't see
it coming. In fact it's staring them in the face and
they still don't see it...and then it hits 'em. This
might be my favorite of the 3 simply because of the
audience reaction to the last moment.
After the show
I met some lady who completely grilled me on what
I was doing. You have to have a path, you have to
have a goal...why are you doing this...what do you
want to be? What I wanted was to kick her in the nuts,
but luckily she has none and I just sat there and
tried my damndest not to scream. On one hand, I
actually enjoy this personality type. She's what makes
a good manager and understands that there's a wealth
of talent and just didn't want to see it wasted.
However if she only knew, the years I have spent
answering those goddamn questions and that finally -
FINALLY - I've gotten to the place where I enjoy
the art so much, nothing else matters...she'd know it
was not the time to grill me. I'm not at that place.
I will be, but the art is so satisfying, this
DVD will be so fun to look at in 10 years - that
is what fuels me. All that other shit will come in
time, it's ten times more important for me to be at
peace with what I'm doing and create my HEART. Because
I guarantee you all - at some point, that freedom
will be gone. I will have to run every creative
idea through someone, some suit that just doesn't get
it, and the "art" of it all will go away. Now,
I get to enjoy the process. So lady,
please...shut the fuck up. But thanks for comin!
After the crowd
left Marshall, Daniel and I ran through certain parts
of the show and taped it from different angles (even
moving the camera which will make me have to friggin'
track every frame of that shit for the
TVs...nightmare). Strangely enough - this pissed off
the theater owner as he thought I should give him more
money for that extra hour? !?!?! Every show I've ever
done there (ten of em) the guy running it all but gave
me the keys while he went and drank in the back with
his buddies until like 1 in the morning. So needless
to say I was a bit surprised when he asked for
$20 more. Whatever, I was apologetic and
explained this was the case for every show I've ever
done there. In fact because my show is only 30 minutes
(the improv show is usually 90) I figured it was
all even. Thinking about it now though, it occured to
me why he was pissed - he knew I had a full house
and his agreement was just a flat fee not a piece of
that. Petty as hell. I gave him the $20 and drove
off. Seems a shitty way to leave all that after 2 1/2
years, but for as small as the theater is I just
don't see the point in continuing to rent that out. He
seemed like a pretty unhappy guy too. The improv group
that used to be there moved somewhere else and
I don't know...I just got a depressed vibe
from him. Hope things work out for him. So that will
be the last show there. C'est La Vie.
Now comes the
insanity of trying to edit all of this in less than
two weeks. Forget just the editing - try using that
GODDAMN DVD program. That's the part that will
drive me bonkers. Wish I had had time to learn a
new one. Alright, so the final taping is done! Heh.
That's so exactly what tonight was. It was another day
of taping with extras. This show will BE the
I'd like to act like this video was done
at this time - but that's a friggin' lie.
It took me another two weeks to get this
video done, but for those reading after
the fact - it all just fits together so
neatly! LOL - enjoy, good