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11:32 PM, Wedesday
August 4th, 2004:
I believe we've
now officially put every phase of my life into
purgatory. This is going to cease to be amusing
relatively quickly, but for now - it makes me shake my
head and laugh.
So I sit down with
Doc at work and explain to her that unless things get
really busy, and I can depend on more normal
hours, starting in October I'll have to get another
job. To which she replied that she had a feeling it
wouldn't get much busier and now that I mention it she
was thinking about going it alone soon
anyway.
Slap.
I mean there
are zero hard feelings here, it's just the way it is
(sound familiar?). So starting October 1st,
I will no longer be working at the Chiropractor's
office. In the meantime however...we get to joke about
the situation and say things like "You'll get rid of
me soon enough" (sound familiar?) all for the next 2
months. The parallels at work and at home are just
insane. It's this huge state of change when you're not
really all that unhappy. At work, yeah there are
things that bug me, it's not perfect...but it's
nothing "quitable" at this point (sound familiar?).
But lack of hours and lack of money...well there's no
compromise there. Kinda like movin' back to Ohio. Heh.
Again, the parallels are uncanny. But in my mind, at
least it's only for 2 months...
...or is it? Ahh
the chaos in my life continues:
So I get home last
night, ready to tell Jess - and of course she one-ups
me. She told her boss and to make a long story short -
they begged her to stay until Christmas. Now we had
worked up a proposal for her to actually work from
Columbus doing HR work. Though a bit of a longshot,
Jess is an incredibly dedicated employee and they know
it. Leaving the job is killing her, and she really
wants to continue even from a long distance. The
proposal is pretty huge, even including flying back
every month for meetings and whatnot, but several
companies have their HR person
out-of-town.
Thankfully in this
situation, everyone's being honest. They truly
appreciate her, and really need her to stay until
Christmas. She really wants to be able to continue
with this company back in Columbus. I believe we can
predict what's probably going to happen here. She'll
agree to help them out, if they allow her to work from
Ohio. Which means this puppy (our personal situation)
gets dragged out until Santa's on vacation.
Wheeeeeeeeew.
I am pretty mixed
here (surprise, surprise). Jess has to do it if they
let her work from Ohio starting on January 1st. That's
just a no-brainer. What's another 3 months (which
better be in writing) if they guarantee her job in
Ohio? For us though, it's taking the slowest 2 month
period EVER and making it fiiiiiiiiiiiiive
months. Long only because, our day-to-day life is that
of a happy married couple. Hell even moreso than in
the past several years...but we know we need to split
up. Personally, that meant trying to embrace this
single/artist life. Workin' on my guest house.
Transforming myself from part of a team, to being my
own independent person. It's a slow transition, but
once you start...it's very difficult to put on hold.
The thought of this limbo state for 5 months is almost
unbearable....but thankfully the almighty dollar will
probably make the decision for us. A few more months
means a bit more debt erased and an easier transition.
Financially mind you, not emotionally. Though by that
point, I think we'll be so sick of the
"limbo" situation we'll be ready to move
on.
Poetically
however... it ranks up there. Exactly 5 years. I will
start the new phase of my Journey in January 2005
exactly 5 years after it originally started. Hell I'm
plannin' on trying to recreate the infamous 1999/2000
New Year's Celebration Jess and I had at my father's
house the day before we left. I was flying back
for Christmas/New Years anyway, and Jess will be
actually moving back. It would be a cute video. Same
place, 5 years later...both about to embark on a new
phase in our lives, just as we did
before...
...but goddamn
that's 5 months away. Time will tell. We're both
honest we each other. If one of us is going
stir-crazy, we'll deal with it as it comes.
I just know that we're going to miss each other
tremendously, and we might as well have fun while we
can. Oh and my idea of fun is literally almost killing
myself.
I didn't
realize that the garage door springs were
"sprung" so to speak as I was
taking the door down. It whipped back and
came to rest on my chest, which although
it was done "whipping" when it hit my
chest, it still left a helluva welt....the
scary part is my HEAD was directly
in front of it like 10 seconds before, and
I just happened to move to the right
as it flew off the wall. Scary, scary -
stupid shit. I then went to the other
side and unhooked the spring. Duh. But of
course it's on tape....
Next up on the FUN
ride? Our Anniversary on the 13th. Now that'll just be
a barrel of laughs won't it?
