- 8:30 PM,
Wednesday, May 19th, 2004:
- I was looking
over the journey the past week and thinking of what a
fitting end to it all would be. As if I were a reader
of some story. With all the character development I've
read in these entries - how does it end? So far I've
decided straight-jacket. That actually makes more
sense, more reasonable if you will, than any other
outcome I can think of. Take that however you see
- Unfortunately Mr.
Manager wasn't able to get back to me before he left
for Cannes (not that he said he would), which leaves
me with a nice big month of "meh" before he returns. I
really haven't thought about it too much since the day
I knew he had already left, but it is kinda hanging
there. Which of course leads to that other thing
that's just been haaaaaaaaanging there: The Final
- For the last
Trinitron shoot everything was dictated by my
schedule. I had certain long weekends off and
that determined the shoot. I knew I could do it no
other time and boom. That was the date. I would get
everything done by "x".
- Well it's all
screwy right now because of the appearence of guest
stars in the final show. Even more lovely I'm onscreen
with said guest stars as each character (sigh).
Couldn't make it easy could I? Another wrinkle, is
I can't really be "G" at work. So I have to do
ALL of G's stuff on the same day including the
scene with the guest star so I can take out my
cornrows and be presentable the next day. So let's say
I set it all up for a June 12th shoot. I get
my cornrows, ready to go, work it all out with the
guest star. That day he calls and says "Can we do it
next week?" - I'm absolutely fuuuuuuuuuuuuucked.
Remember, I'm not wearin' wigs here and it's my real
facial hair. So the thought of starting the whole
process of scheduling these actors and putting ungodly
amounts of preperation into one day, knowing full well
that they'll blow you off for a sunny day is
daunting to say the least. But I'm not changing a word
of my script so I do eventually have to do it.
- Yesterday at work
however I realized I knew someone who would be
perfect. Couldn't believe it. Out of the blue it just
hit me in the face. The "fill-in G" is supposed to be
extremely intimidating. A huge black guy who you'd be
crazy to say a negative word to. Amazingly I realized
yesterday that I know a towering football player that
is absolutely perfect. This guy has to be 6' 3", 300
EASY. He's actually waaaaaay too nice for the part,
but something tells me if he can rip people's heads
off to get a pigskin 10 yards, he can be intimidating.
I'll give him a call next week.
- That tiny incident
has finally brought my ass up from the ugliness of the
past 2 months. It's really difficult to have to waste
2 months of your life. Granted, I redid the bathroom,
kept the house up, kept the journey going creating
videos and whatnot...but I need to be pretty
hyper-productive career-wise to be happy. Period.
Whenever I'm stuck in a time where I have to wait -
I just get really antsy and really bummed. And
nothing is more "patience-testing" then waiting
for hair to grow. LOL. Anyway, it looks like the ball
is starting to roll now and at the end of the hill
will be the fully realized Trinitrons that will either
end it all in style or open up more doors to this
industry. My focus is just on the production of it all
right now. I pray there will be someone to help
push it around to the right places when it's necessary
- I believe there will.
- Amazingly, even
though the Columbus Show, which is tentatively set for
September 23rd or 24th, I'm pushing it time wise. Not
only does it all have to be completed - but it has to
be performed, filmed and the DVD completely produced
and pressed before then. Because of the guest stars,
the shooting schedule will take every moment of June
and July as opposed to just 2 or 3 weeks like before.
Leaving just August to film a live showing and
September to edit it all down. In the
"no-job" days this was easily doable...now with
domestic life under every crevace it's a helluva task.
But it's the kind of hyper-productivity I crave.
The busier I am the less I have time to
bitch and moan.
- And that's good
news for EVERYBODY. Heh. Anyway, my dad is
flying in tomorrow for a long weekend and I have more
than enough to do by the time he lands. Expect a funny
video or two next week.