- 7:15 AM,
Wednesday, February 18th, 2004:
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- This is most
likely a completely worthless entry. When I get
back from work tonight and nothing has happened with
all of this, I'll once again have egg on my face...
but not holding back is why you keep reading
right?
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- It has always been
my way to constantly look at situations through other
people's eyes. Most definitely to a fault. Because of
doing that, I believe there is the possibility that
the casting director at the show that I emailed last
night (and apparently quite a few of you emailed)
could respond positively. I explained the
semi-epic journey of getting my sign on the air, as
well as getting my face on the air and how yesterday I
actually succeeded but... well hell, here's what I
wrote:
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- It isn't out of
the realm of possibility that they may at least
ask to see a tape of the trinitrons as they
could make a funny story out of the "struggling
entertainer" who NAILED his way into the show. At
this moment that is still a reality.
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- So in my mind I go
through all the future steps. I see them finding
the show where you can see me sitting right over
Ryan's head outside in the courtyard a couple weeks
back, and now yesterday's show where "4tvs.com" was
visible for a beautiful 43 seconds and making a little
"story" out of it. From their perspective, with as
young as their show is, it's the first time anyone has
done this - and everyone likes "Where's
Waldo" type things (finding the hidden website in
the background). It would seem like a really
interesting piece, and if they think so, it's also
feasible that they would ask me to come on for like 2
minutes to explain how the hell I got my sign up
over the business just for a few seconds. I mean
they're on for 5 hours a week...you know?
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- Of course
I keep going with the chronological order. In my
over-analytical mind if they were gonna do a piece on
it, would they not ask me to come on for a second to
laugh about it all? Would it then not be feasible for
this "one-man boyband" to do a song? Hell it's all on
wheels, the two minute version of "Come To" is
ready to go...why not? Of course it's stretching, of
course it's dreaming - but that's exactly what you
never see in the one hour A & E biographies of the
celebrities. The moments of excitement when you think
something is happening. The ones that almost
inevitably blow up in your face. The ones most people
learn to keep inside because they don't want to look
like a fool because they admit they are excited yet
again.
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- But when you look
at the whole thing, it all fits. A guy who has
been out here over 4 years finally NAILING his
website to a building in hopes of a TV camera
spotting it because he can find NO OTHER WAY
to break in. And it works. Why the hell not?
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- And that's truly
what every journey out here is like. Dealing with all
the ups and downs. All the possibilities. Torturing
yourself with every step thinking...hmmm is this it?
As followers of this journey know, nothing was bigger
than "The Comedy Store" in November 2001. That
was it at the time. But what's amazing,
is that when you think about it, it's not out of the
realm of possibility that when I check my email
tonight I beat that night over 2 years ago.
GRRRRR.
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- What's worse is by
the time I upload this I'll already know...assuming
she even responds to my email. Wow. There's my entry
video. Taping my reaction. Why do I do this to
myself? Why do I insist on putting a big ass camera in
my face to show my reaction to huge moments in The
Journey when they've ALWAYS been bad. LOL. I guess
because I'm also the director of this project and the
shot that goes in at this point in the movie - is that
reaction. You're nuts not to capture that.
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- Adam
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