Adam Kontras.com - 32 Birthdays and then some...





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9:00 PM, Tuesday, October 9th, 2007: I know it's really just timing. Had my birthday been a month earlier I could've parodied getting a "double-stack" with eating steak at CBS in the middle of shooting an Egos episode. But it doesn't change the fact that I actually can't afford to eat out right now as I need a miracle right now to save me. With the mortgage industry as it is - I have no fallback and with the amount I need to make since buying Jess out and losing Keith there's hardly a job OTHER than showbiz that will make ends meet. Something really needs to fall in my lap. Which it may have already done...
...why do I do this. LOL. 'Cause it's the truth! I had an audition today for the Soap Network and man, I friggin' nailed it. I just nailed it. Completely comfortable, there constant comments from the directors that I was incredibly professional and had a great news voice... made 'em laugh a bunch - just as good as it gets. As well, it was my BIRTHDAY, I was able to hand them a DVD of my Egos bit on the Young & The Restless set... I mean COME ON. The stars just align sometimes. It's as good as I've ever felt after an audition and I'm just dying to see how this turns out. I'm on a high tonight, but then of course you play the waiting game and - ugh. Usually no matter how good it feels you just never hear a thing again. It's so infuriating. However what makes this so edgy right now is that if this doesn't happen, I have no choice but to rent out my studio and do the waiter thang for the time being. Sadly however doing that would leave me roughly $1000 short every month... but I have no choice. It's really a crossroads for me. Whew. Next week will be HUGE. But right now I'm happy again. It's so the industry isn't it? All day today I was incredibly depressed. So much so... christ - just bad. 32 wasn't 30 or 31. Two wondrous times in my life. This is despair all piled on top of me and I'm just praying I have another "November to Remember"... ...but GOD the audition went well. And you know - what can you do if they don't hire me? I did my best. Of course I will say my weight could be better - my hair could be better - you play all that shit but I'm doing as much as I can with all that right now considering how sick I've been and how bad my friggin' foot is. Wow have I mentioned that? My foot... goddamnit - I did something to the arch of my left foot that just won't heal. When I was running earlier in May and June it just started to hurt. It's not bruised though - it's inside. So when I'm going up and down on the ball of my foot, even if my heel doesn't touch, my heel KILLS. Worse in the morning, gradually going - well numb later on... but I just can't workout on it. Sucks. Oh and my ears? I've been sick for like 3 weeks. I can't hear at ALL out of my right ear. It's horrible. Like I can hear that someone is talking to me - but if they're on my right side, I just can't make out the words. It's as bad as it's ever been and it's not getting better. My dilemma is I know where a cash-trip to the ear/nose/throat doctor leads: same place it did in 2001 - operation. And I can't pay THAT with cash. I NEED health insurance. I need a real job. I need this soapnet thing more than EVER. Please, please, please let the news come quick. The Journey's depending on it... Happy 32nd Adam. :-(

...why do I do this. LOL. 'Cause it's the truth! I had an audition today for the Soap Network and man, I friggin' nailed it. I just nailed it. Completely comfortable, there constant comments from the directors that I was incredibly professional and had a great news voice... made 'em laugh a bunch - just as good as it gets. As well, it was my BIRTHDAY, I was able to hand them a DVD of my Egos bit on the Young & The Restless set... I mean COME ON. The stars just align sometimes. It's as good as I've ever felt after an audition and I'm just dying to see how this turns out. I'm on a high tonight, but then of course you play the waiting game and - ugh. Usually no matter how good it feels you just never hear a thing again. It's so infuriating. However what makes this so edgy right now is that if this doesn't happen, I have no choice but to rent out my studio and do the waiter thang for the time being. Sadly however doing that would leave me roughly $1000 short every month... but I have no choice. It's really a crossroads for me. Whew. Next week will be HUGE. But right now I'm happy again. It's so the industry isn't it? All day today I was incredibly depressed. So much so... christ - just bad. 32 wasn't 30 or 31. Two wondrous times in my life. This is despair all piled on top of me and I'm just praying I have another "November to Remember"... ...but GOD the audition went well. And you know - what can you do if they don't hire me? I did my best. Of course I will say my weight could be better - my hair could be better - you play all that shit but I'm doing as much as I can with all that right now considering how sick I've been and how bad my friggin' foot is. Wow have I mentioned that? My foot... goddamnit - I did something to the arch of my left foot that just won't heal. When I was running earlier in May and June it just started to hurt. It's not bruised though - it's inside. So when I'm going up and down on the ball of my foot, even if my heel doesn't touch, my heel KILLS. Worse in the morning, gradually going - well numb later on... but I just can't workout on it. Sucks. Oh and my ears? I've been sick for like 3 weeks. I can't hear at ALL out of my right ear. It's horrible. Like I can hear that someone is talking to me - but if they're on my right side, I just can't make out the words. It's as bad as it's ever been and it's not getting better. My dilemma is I know where a cash-trip to the ear/nose/throat doctor leads: same place it did in 2001 - operation. And I can't pay THAT with cash. I NEED health insurance. I need a real job. I need this soapnet thing more than EVER. Please, please, please let the news come quick. The Journey's depending on it... Happy 32nd Adam. :-(