I think I've
figured out what I'll say to 2000 Adam in the movie.
When it hits him that as a whole the entire thing is
failure upon failure, as we end this year (with news
I'll give you in a moment) I'll simply ask him: "You
wanna hear what happens next?" -- and when he says
yes? I'll say: "Exactly." The Journey is what
it's always been. Potential personified. The absolute
knowing that this is going to happen and
wondering just how it does... and in turn, what,
happens, next. As long as I can convince that poor
schmuck of that fire? He continues onto LA no matter
the consequences. Time will tell if
I can.
So I, uhm, have an
agent. And believe it or not? Assuming I get sent out
to read for tv or film and don't get strung on for
months while nothing happens? It's the first one I've
ever had. Seriously, in my life I have never been on
an audition for a part on TV or in film. Bizarre
right? I had a commercial agent in 2002, but alas
my full-time position at the chiropractor's office
nixed that almost upon arrival. However, commercial
and theatrical is different - and though this agency
does both, it's the tv/film side that I'm clearly
excited about. Charlotte (my manager from 2001-2002,
2006-2008) never sent me out for a part on a tv show
or film... come to think of it, sweet jesus. Not once.
Once hosting gig... and a promo for somethin'... but,
wow <shakes head> So how did this all
happen?
Christine Barger
(who was one of the 12 players in "FOUR") emailed my
stuff to her agent, who is also a good friend of hers.
Simply put, he liked the sheer amount of things I was
doing and believes in my work. It really doesn't hit
you until you sit down and explain what's going on,
that you see just how many things I'm juggling at the
moment. From the first Video Blogger, to FOUR, to Adam
& The Egos, to just being a competent actor,
there's a lot to work with. I mean, duh, but
again -- never been sent out before. We met yesterday,
hit it off personally (I swear nerds somehow find each
other throughout all odds. He and Cameron would be
best friends instantly), and he was ready to go. Just
called him tonight with some information to get the
ball rolling and in a week or so I should be goin'
out. Voila.
And the nice thing
is, the direction is clear really: If I don't book
shit, everything else will fade. There is no grey area
with an agent/agency. It's as cut and dry as you can
be, they don't make money if you don't book and they
won't continue to waste their time if that's a
pattern. Considering the grey area in my life, nothing
I welcome more than that. :-)
And suddenly
everything is just... well strange. I'm happy to get
an agent, though it seems ridiculous it has taken this
long. I'm thrilled that it's a smaller agency, because
I think it's crucial to match "levels" when it comes
to talent/representation. If one or the other is too
big or too small? It simply won't work out. Hunger
levels have to be equal. But the strangeness
comes in being SOOOOOOOOOOO high from the 12th - 16th.
Getting bitch-slapped on the 17th... and then getting
lifted up on the 21st. It's a bit of a whirlwind and
what would've made the year pretty great by itself now
has a bit of a "band-aid" feel to it, considering the
wound I got just a few days ago. So I am still in
zombie mode...but happy. Bizarre.
The video is just
a slice of life as it was happening and even more of a
tease for the pilot which I'll be selling in Columbus
on January 2nd at the big 10-Year Celebration (Place
TBD).
It's also dripping
with symbolism of course. These are strange days for
me personally as well. So I just throwin in the part
of the pilot where Cam plays all 3 weddings behind
Adam to fuck with him. My life is just so rich with
fodder for videos, I should start a video blog or
something. :-)
But anyway, as I
explained in the last entry - though I'm dealing with
everything fine... it is still a process that I'm not
really through yet. I'm still trying to find my
bearing since Comedy Central defined so goddamn much
of who I was the past 6 months. I still have
things running through my head -- especially the show.
And now it's in a different light. The goal with the
agency on top of auditions is of course talking to
other networks and getting ahold of celebrities that
may be interested in the "muppet show" version.
So some of that scheming swagger is back, but so is
the exhaustion. It's just strange. No other way to put
it. Very similar to losing Americ's Got Talent,
writing the entry abotu watchign the premiere the
night before, and the next day getting on living Room
Live. Christ, that's should've been this entry's
video...
...seriously.
I could conceiveably do all of 2010
without ever making a new video. Soooooo
much fits PERFECTLY. I guess it stands to
reason considering we're so close to
1000... which of course brings me to the
next piece of insanity...
...though it's
highly implausible, if I read for something after
Thanksgiving... just maybe there are some good
developments before the end of the year? Just maybe
2000 Adam can wrap his head around more than "what
happens next?" as he decides whether to go west or
east the following morning?
I really have no
expectations of pulling something off in the final 13
entries of this year (999 will be 01/01 and 1000 will
be 01/02) ... but it's beautiful to me that the
possibility is there. It makes me smile. And after
this week? You have to love that.
Here's to taking a
week off from The Journey, and relaxing... for
probably the first time this year.
