When I saw
Jordan's #45 instead of #23 in Indianapolis in March
of '95 I was pretty disappointed. He was already gonna
be under a microscope as people compared him to his
former greatness, but now every single highlight reel
would have a distinct timestamp so there was no doubt.
I guess MJ thought was aware of it too 'cause #23 came
back in the playoffs and stayed for good.
The truth is, I
never minded the mole and in fact liked it. But it
just got too big. Gotta test that thing. It's strange
that every picture/video of me will instantly say
"Before or after August 2009" from this point on. And
considering the past few days of my life the timing
and symbolism of that isn't lost on me at all. Yes,
I'm still struggling with what those three entries
hold (estimated time of unlock somewhere between 2
months and never), and in the back of my head know my
character changed right under my nose. I always
thought I'd see the gradual change in character with
The Journey. But you never do. It always comes down to
moments of choice and you realize your decision is
unexpected, but nonetheless... you. Letting Jess go
back in '04 was one of those moments. Goddamn, 2000
Adam is gonna have a FIELD day with me in this
movie next year isn't he?
So, the proceedure
was simple. Of course I snuck in my camera and got a
bit of the "clean-up". I was already aware that taping
the actual proceedure would not only gross all of you
out, but has all sorts of legal ramifications for the
doctor, so I didn't even attempt it. But I'm pretty
impressed that I got the shots I did considering my
position while holding the camera. :-)
Very strange how
formal and then informal it is. I've had 2 deviated
septum surgeries and my tonsils out and you never just
jump off the table and walk down the hallway
whistling. Wow, it just occured to me I've now had 3
legitimate proceedures on my nose that weren't
nose jobs. LOL. Anyway, I was apparently way too
mellow already to get valium (I'll be sure to change
that character flaw for next time) and other
than the pinch of the needle as they were numbing it?
Painless. If not a bit surreal. Nothing like hearing a
loud SNAP and the doctor goin' "Ya doin' alright?" and
realizing a chunk of your nose just came off. Good
times.
And man, that
sucker was big. Doc said that the roots weren't
abnormally deep or anything. He also said there's a 1
in 20 chance that the mole grows back. He said he
would've had to take a LOT out to make that 0% and
unless it's cancerous, there's really no reason to dig
that much out. We should know the results next
week.
I got 10
vicodin for the pain and of course, that means it's
time for everyone's favorite game: "how many can we
save for when we're not in pain so we can act loopy!"
I joke, only because I'm far too cheap to actually be
addicted to vicodin. Fuckers are like $10 a pill on
the street. That's a lot of subway sandwiches man. Ha.
But I have no problem admitting that I will withstand
copious amounts of pain just to save them. LOL. That's
drug abuse, right? I'm admitting to drug abuse. Hmmmm.
Is this smart? Clearly since you're reading it I
eventually figure it's no big deal. I just actually
think it's funny that my mindset is to suck up the
pain to save the pills for later. And I am so not
alone here, don't you get all judgemental. I'm being
honest as fuck right now.
The pain actually,
was nothin'. I mean even this morning (been just under
24 hours as I'm writing this) is just kind of a dull
ache. I took some tylenol yesterday... no big whoop.
I've been through some pretty intense paing (the king
at smashing my finger in a door) and that ache is
faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar more intense. And I never even
went to a doctor for that. As Chris Rock said: "You
gotta be well past Robitussin..." And especially
without insurance. Seriously, I think I would build my
own cast for a broken leg if it came down to it.
And one quick word
on insurance - if a health care bill gets passed with
ANY sort of public option - everyone needs to BLOW
Barry. Didn't we all learn from the campaign last year
to reserve judgement until we see how it works out?
Remember how much we (me included) slammed Obama for
not being harder on Hillary, and it was months of
pundits and dems talking about what he was doing
wrong, etc. He even had to give a speech about it
saying: "Dude, I've got this, we're gonna win."
because his base was so worried. And now all these
articles about what he needs to do better, and yadda,
yadda, yadda. If this Health Care bill gets passed
with ANY sort of public option, in less than a year he
has done more than any president EVER in regards to
overhauling that system. Of course it will be flawed,
but it's a start. So while the media goes apeshit,
polls shoved in everyone's faces, all this hoopla
about how he doesn't know what he's doing, he may
actually have known exactly what he was doing the
entire time. Just like the campaign, and just like the
rest of his freaking life. Right now that's still a
big "IF", but I'm gonna reserve judgement until we see
the final bill.
Will society ever
just calm the hell down? I mean, I'm dying to see
the scar on my nose, but I'm not gonna rip off the
bandage. Wow, maybe California does make you mellow
out more. Hmmmmmmmmmmmm. I'm gonna go take a
nap.
