This will be one
of the stranger entries I write. :-)
So, I woke up
yesterday fightin' a headache. Nothin' seemed to work
and finally I just took a nap around 2pm. I had Chris
Mathews Hardball on a loop on msnbc.com and ended up
having all sorts of dreams (which is super-rare for
me) but the scene that stuck out was this:
I'm on the set of
Hardball, and I'm pregnant. I'm one of the guests, but
they are too busy talking about politics. And I'm
pacing thinking "For fuck's sake, I'm a pregnant MAN -
what more do I have to do?". All the while thinking of
Entry Titles to explain this little
chapter.
I
ended up sleeping for nearly 3 hours and
when I woke up it was pretty interesting
to me. I immediately thought of the line
in the Young & The Restless Egos bit
from Cameron "I'm Pregnant..." OOOH
THERE'S the video! Wahoo! AND the
entry title. Dig it. Love when that all
comes together...
...you
know I could just edit that line out
for a new video - but this episode was
totally underappreciated. I gotta give it
some love.
Anyway, I've never
dreamt I was pregnant before - and even remembering a
dream is pretty rare for me. I'm of the opinion that
you only dream if you have unresolved issues. And
every dream means something. It's your mind's
way of workin' through shit. So it brings us to what
has been on my mind...
I did hear
from my agent on Monday and unfortunately we need the
lawyer to look over some stuff and he's on
vacation this week (she was on vacation the
week before) - which means a whole 'nother week of
nothing. Frustration is finally setting in. I want so
badly to start working on this thing and as much as
I've enjoyed the rest... I'm ready to prove
myself.
I jump online and
was telling a friend about the dream. She responds
with a google search:
"A man who
dreams of being pregnant himself is often in a
situation where his virility or creative
participation in the world is in question. This
occurs most among men who see themselves as less
creative than they would like to be. The dream
serves as a form of compensation to illuminate the
more creative facets of their personality. Men who
are pregnant do not give birth exclusively to
children, but a wide range of objects that somehow
support their mission in the
world."
Isn't that
awesome? I've gotta say, dream interpretation has
always been dead-on accurate for me. It really amazes
me that our sub-conscious processes issues in similar
ways. you would think that environment or upbrining
would be so drastic there'd be no common bond - but
universally... teeth falling out in a dream for
example - is insecurity about something, falling in a
dream is about being out of control, etc.. Across
every culture, creed, millenium... as humans that's
how we sub-consciously process insecurity or control
issues? That just seems unbelieveable to me. How can
it really be that universal?
I guess there
could be other men who have dreamt about being
pregnant and had none of the present issues
I've described... who knows. But what a strange thing
to dream. Though shit, lemme re-google it - maybe
there's more than one definition...
Oh my dear lord
was this a stupid entry. There's about 20 definitions
the more you search. Shit. People know fuck-all about
this. I'm a moron. I just did an entire entry on how
it's all dead-on accurate and I fell for the freaking
"astrology" game. Enough variations and vagueness on
definitions and you cover everyone. Did I just write
this entire thing? <rolling eyes>
Well shit. What
the hell do I do now? I want to erase this entire
thing and act like it never happened. LOL. It's still
an interesting dream no matter what - and you can't
doubt that me pacing on a tv set because they're not
interviewing me doesn't need a lot of interpretation.
All you have to do is read about me getting bumped on
Olbermann's show in '06 for that one. I do find it
funny that not only did I have a lot to offer in
my dream on the show about what's coming up on Comedy
Central, but I was FREAKING PREGNANT and they
still kept talking politics. :-)
Speaking of which
- you catch Obama tonight? Will I ever stop being
impressed? I even think the health care plan is all
sorts of flawed and might be a bit too ambitious at
the moment... but you cannot come away from one of his
press conferences and not believe he's got a handle on
things. It's just impossible. It's not a subjective
statement to say he has an unbelieveable grasp on the
issues he speaks of and articulates his points so
clearly that if you're paying attention you forget
he's a politician. It feels like you're in school.
He's not dancing around the issues. I mean, his
answers might not be completely forthcoming, but even
that seems well articulated. It's that when asked
about a subject he breaks it down so well that you
follow his thought-process COMPLETELY. Agree or
disagree you know he's got every angle processed in
his mind at all times. I don't remember this level of
intellect even with Clinton. I just can't remember any
politician I've ever seen speak that was actually
intent on having you understand him. It's almost
always the opposite. They try to spin you around
enough so as to cover their own shortcomings (take
just about any line Sarah Palin ever utters). Even
smart politicians tend to direct your intellect to the
door while they spin and tap dance. But Obama actually
takes the time to explain his points fully, and really
set-up how he got to that opinion. Now again, you may
disagree with him... but he seems to respect your
intelligence enough to carefully describe his
positions. It's a pleasure to listen to him answer
questions and watch his mind work. And my goodness
when he said "I'd be shot" if he tried to break-in to
the White House? WHEW. I mean, yeah - funny as
fuck.... but whew. I went a good 3 months without
obsessing about him getting assassinated... now I'm
gonna think about it again... UGH.
Anyway - a random
coming up here before the end of the month. So much I
want to get into and as you saw in this entry, my mind
is all over the place. No better cure for that then a
Randoms Entry.
