This is a
daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaangerous month. I know athletes go
through primes, musicians go through primes... I feel
like I'm starting mine. I feel like I control my own
destiny in a way I never have before. Pulling off
a month like this? Forget just the 30 entries and
videos, actually physically pulling off this much
traveling, scheduling... with
ONE CARRY-ON BAG. LOL. It just makes me
wanna RISSSSSSSSSK some shit. How far can I jump?
This is intoxicating. I believe we're all more
powerful than we realize... and I'm actually starting
to realize just what I can do. With the Comedy Central
opening... fuuuuuuuuck. Shit is about to get crazy.
And in the midst
of it all, a nice little "Part 1" of a worldwide Egos
bit...
...and THE way to
end this ridiculous month. I'm not even slightly
exagerrating when I say this month will change
the way I live my life forever. I would never think I
was capable of 30 entries and 30 videos in 30 days
while doing this amount of traveling. But
I did it easily. And all this work... and on my
own dime? Does anyone ever do this? I must be fucking
insane. It's along the same lines of the last entry
where even I step back and scratch my head at
this much productivity. What the fuck am I racing
against? How am I not tired? I mean, I'm ready to
get home - but I'm ready to get home to do
MORE WORK on an even bigger level! GODDDAMN when
you guys hear the May 28th news, you're alllllllllllll
gonna get it. Shit is ready to blow.
And you know what
I'm even more proud of this month? Inspiring people to
jump. To "fall up the stairs". I mean the jumps are
all relative. Not everyone should leave the country
for a month while they're kids go hungry... but in
everyone's life there's little opportunities to seize
the moment that just FLY by people. Things they
really really want, but talk themselves out of.
Simply 'cause they're scared to fail! Take it from the
guy who has more public failures within these magic
walls than anyone who has ever chosen to do this...
nothing is worse than not doing. It's the infamous
Mark Twain quote about looking back on your life.
You're always more regretful about what you didn't
do... then what you did. I guess I didn't realize
it, but I paraphrased that in my "50 Years" reprise
last year:
In 50 years
I won't remember,
All the
fire, all the embers,
All I'll
know is that I jumped again,
I'll know
life did not destroy my heart,
It's always
been strong from the start,
And when
it's time, it will be there to
lend...
That's what not
fearing failure gives you. The ability to actually
enjoy the jump no matter the outcome. That's
how you cheat failure. Jesus, this is a book isn't it.
And then a month
like this? Days so filled I have to do 2 entries
in a day. Believe me, that shit is gonna STOP when I
get home. LOL. I would like to actually sleep again.
But I am literally, figuratively and most definitely
creatively - on top of the world.
And you know what?
These are actually the hardest entries to share. It's
not the personal sutff. It's the arrogant stuff.
That's the stuff you want to keep to a minimum because
it looks soooooooooo bad when shit fails. You want to
look reserved, cautious and wise -- but that's not the
truth. I'd be an absolute liar if I didn't write this
final entry in June and say:
"LOOK AT HOW HUGE MY BALLS ARE."
'Cause that's exactly how I feel. How could
I feel anything less? And how disengenuous of me
would it be to hold that in? I'm a big boy, I take my
lumps when this sort of bravado gets bitch slapped. I
show you that side. Those tears, those gut-wrenching
videos and moments... so you'd better believe I'm
showin' this.
Thank you June
2009. What a wonderful kick-off the rest of my
life.
