The entry I've
been wanting to write desperately for a year, has
finally arrived. On the 10 year anniversary of the
first time I ever fired up "4tvs", the momentum is
moving so quickly that I can't slow down. So much so
that my current job is absolutely molasses. So in a
rare case of double entendre that isn't sexual, I
can't slow down and I can't slow down by
continuing to throw 40 hours of my life each week out
the window... even if it means living off a home
equity line. Now I know using a 2nd mortgage to pay
for a 1st is the equivalent of drinking your own urine
to survive, but sometimes you just have to jump. And
right now so many things are happening at once that
with just a little focused energy, I can pay
off that 2nd and turn my life completely
downside up. With that, I introduce, the flowchart -
unlocking alllllllllllll the secrets:
Hahahaha.
Look at that. My dad was trying to explain to someone
everything that has happened and was just confused. So
the other day he says: "You need to make a
flowchart". I laughed. He responds: "No,
seriously, I'm LOST. Make a flowchart". LOL. So I did,
and hours later I think I'm still lost. Wow, posting
that gives away the Seth Rogen secret doesn't it. Meh,
I'm not name dropping - it's just the truth. Also, if
you're still totally lost? Start at the green squares
and work your way up and it should make more sense.
Either way, it's very clear: I, Can't, Slow, Down.
Simple as that. If I don't quit this job and pursue
every single one of these angles to the absolute
maximum, I might as well become an accountant. This is
the type of momentum that is so laden with opportunity
that even focusing all of my energy on it, I'll still
probably miss some avenues...
...of course
that's where Paradigm comes in. I meet with Alisa on
Thursday and that will most likely be the piece that
allows me to juggle everything successfully - and even
make enough money that I'll wonder why I ever stayed
so long at the 9-5 in the first place. However,
there's even some romance in that. I started
the first week of June last year and I'm ending the
last week of May this year. I never enter year two. As
a guy who loves to find the romantic angles to even
the most mundane situations, that's pretty
"Journeyriffic".
As is this entry's
video:
If your computer
can handle it (meaning it doesn't stutter once it's
loaded) click the "HD" button...
incredible.
A song I recorded
15 years ago seemingly foreshadows this moment
beautifully and begs the question, "what the
hell could you possibly be doing in high
school that would inspire this song?". But seriously,
do you remember high school? High school was busy as
SHIT. I remember getting to college and
exhaling because it was so much easier. I wrote
this song in the middle of my senior year when I was
dealing with 8 classes, the lead in the school
musical, putting together my first cassette "Unreal",
and wanting to throw all that shit out the
window to spend every second with Burgundie. I'd
venture to say it was one of the busiest moments of my
life. I recently found one of my notebooks from high
school which included this page:
Welcome to the
beginning of knowing I was in the wrong place. You're
sitting in English class and you're writing lyrics and
song titles, etc. By college? I was in a similar
situation in which I was designing my first CD cover,
writing topics for my WTVN talk show and trying to
concentrate on whatever the professor was saying. Wow,
I actually have THAT page too. I freaking save
EVERYTHING:
Years later, I'm
just spinning and the level just keeps getting higher
and higher. Bottom line - if I don't really jump now?
When will I? If I don't use the equity in my home this
year? What's the point of investing in my home (that
is redefining 'upside down' by the month)? Am I gonna
do this when I'm 40? No. I'm gonna do this now. I'm
gonna go grab my opportunites now and stop slowing
down putting energy towards something else. In short,
I'm gonna jump.
Hahahaha.
Look at that. My dad was trying to explain to someone
everything that has happened and was just confused. So
the other day he says: "You need to make a
flowchart". I laughed. He responds: "No,
seriously, I'm LOST. Make a flowchart". LOL. So I did,
and hours later I think I'm still lost. Wow, posting
that gives away the Seth Rogen secret doesn't it. Meh,
I'm not name dropping - it's just the truth. Also, if
you're still totally lost? Start at the green squares
and work your way up and it should make more sense.
Either way, it's very clear: I, Can't, Slow, Down.
Simple as that. If I don't quit this job and pursue
every single one of these angles to the absolute
maximum, I might as well become an accountant. This is
the type of momentum that is so laden with opportunity
that even focusing all of my energy on it, I'll still
probably miss some avenues...
