Waves. This is
CRAZINESS. This is exactly what happened in 2006 when
Let's Bomb Iran and Olbermann converged with America's
Got Talent which slammed into Living Room Live and CBS
& The Egos - while dealing with all sorts of
personal shit, a difficult job and the death of my
grandmother. The first decade of The Journey is
literally defined by streaks. Streaks of nothing
followed by streaks of everything. So it wasn't lost
on me that the Atom Films meeting was less than 24
hours after the Weller-Grossman explosion... and most
likely was gonna follow suit. What I didn't
realize, was just how valuable the previous meeting
would be to the latter.
Atom Films is now
part of Comedy Central. Like, I went to Comedy
Central's front desk, waited in their waiting room to
see Peter at Atom Films. The exact same place I'm
gonna be a couple weeks from now. And once I told
him what was going on with Weller-Grossman he was
really, really excited. He knew the production
company, obviously knew the guy I was meeting
with (even showed me the room and the conference room
we'd probably be in) and thought the timing was just
so cool. "Wow, you're gonna be right back here in a
couple weeks!" he smiled. And he's doing
awesome. When we first met we after they bought
"Let's Bomb Iran" it was at a restaurant on Larchmont
because (and I didn't realize this) he was working out
of his home. Now he has one of the pimpest offices
(with a view you have to see to believe) and is pretty
much running the programming side of Atom Films. Very
happy for him, he's obviously worked his ass off and
has seen the company from independent to being owned
by MTV Networks and playing with the big boys. They
even have a 30 minute slot on Comedy Central now in
late night. Great internet success story for
sure.
So we were both
just kinda giddy to start the meeting. Both in such
good places since the last time we met this became
less of a pitch as a way to keep the fun going, you
know? Because of the quality of The Egos episodes, and
the fact that I'm a one-man band budget-wise... this
is just a pretty easy sell. He thought the 4-Square
idea was great, wants to do the 10-part series this
summer and the only question now is if we can get a
sponsor to bring in real money. I mean even
without a sponsor we'll probably end up doing it
(considering I was gonna do it just for 4tvs.com
anyway) but there's a possibility that this gets a
good-sized sponsor. Seriously, I think this can
become an actual television show. Once you understand
the game? The whole "screw one guy" angle (that's
inherent in the game anyway) matches PERFECTLY with a
reality show. And you just can't fathom how much
emotion is involved when you've worked your way up to
A (techincally the "4" square) and you get knocked out
because two people decide to just screw you over (i.e.
one guy lobs it to the next and you get slammed). I'm
actually getting angry just typing about it. I'm
extremely excited to share it this July.
Oh, and that's how
it's probably gonna work. Casting in May and then the
first show will start in early to mid-July and run for
10 weeks to mid-September. And seriously - it's just a
question of "how much" not "if" at this point. Peter
knows what I can do and he's really excited. So
many things are converging at once I can barely keep
my head on straight...
...but guess what
I'm dreaming about? Guess what my sub-conscious
STILL can't wrap its head around? The girl I'll
just call POISON from now on. The one I wrote "How To
Hurt Me" about in February. Long story short, she
wanted the relationship to be more, I couldn't at the
time, we became friends for months afterwards until
suddenly - a complete erasing from her life. Out of
the blue. Someone I considered a really good
friend, whom I gave an expensive camera to so she
could put her portfolio together, and even introduced
to a contact at CBS and got her work - just
randomly blocked me from every single communication
with zero explanation at the start of the new year.
This is something that has never happened to me in my
life. I know it's strange being friends with
every woman you've ever known - but it's normal to me.
And I don't care if she can't be friends, just -
I don't know, let me know? LOL. Anyway, it never
enters my waking thought. This clearly wasn't a
"friend" so I don't waste time with it
anymore - but my sub-conscious mind can't get enough
of it. Yes, it's Sub-Co's FAVORITE
DREAMLAND SHOW! So in honor of that,
I present this:
If your computer
can handle it (meaning it doesn't stutter once it's
loaded) click the "HD"
button...
...which is about
as cryptic and symbolic as Journey videos get. It's
completely a message to her and all I can
say is that if you're going to shit on me and cause me
pain for longer than I even knew you... I'm
gonna at least have fun with it. :-) I'll at least
make art out of it. I'll at least make a game out of
it.
It is fascinating
just how much this affects me. It's making me
understand why I have such good relationships
with women in every possible stage. I see things
through, I communicate fully on every possible
level and I empathize constantly. There isn't a
moment in an interpersonal relationship where
I don't look at things from both sets of
shoes...and because of that, there are so many people
in my life that would otherwise be considered a "sore
point". It's funny, Charlotte is a good example of
that - and I have to admit, I haven't told her about
the most recent happenings because I am looking
at it from her perspective as an ex-manager, and
feeling how that will hurt. We've been able to
maintain a friendship simply not talking about that
side of things, but this all might blow that to hell.
Makes me sick to my stomach, but I care enough about
her to try and find a way that we can be in each
others' life without that "pink elephant" killing
us. So hard. That's the one problem with living your
life as I've chosen to... it only works if both people
are willing to face the same pain. Clearly, Poison
wasn't able to. Which to newcomers I should say -
that's completely cool with me, just
LET ME KNOW. But will Charlotte? If things
take off and it becomes clear that she and I weren't a
good fit in a business sense, is there a path?
I don't know. We tried to talk about the elephant
awhile back and it ended up going in circles with
nothing resolved. It could turn very ugly depending on
what happens with Comedy Central. I'm doing everything
I can to avoid that.
Anyway, I'm
bumming out a great entry which is the continuation of
the "high" from Weller-Grossman into Atom
Films... which then went into picking up my Dad at the
airport and watching movies and playing Rockband...
but I'll save that for the next entry.
Here's to "The
Dream" continuing for the foreseeable
future.
