I desperately miss
the comraderie of The Egos shoots. I miss Tyson,
Hunter, Simon, Jim, Kenny, Les... I loved just
hangin' out and working on a common goal. I loved
trying to get through it really fast so we could go to
Dupar's for pancakes on CBS' dime. It was fun.
Funny how it
doesn't matter what you're doing, the same feelings
come through. Common goal and only "technically"
working? Fun. I guess it's why they make videogames
out of it: playing music with others is fun.
'Nuff said.
So I thought I'd
show a clip of the practice a couple of days ago for
Saturday's gig at the Key Club:
If your computer
can handle it (meaning it doesn't stutter) click the
"HD" button (you may need to let it
load).
Amazingly I'm doing
this with only one practice. Ridiculous for a practice
freak like me... but there's just no
time.
As
many of you can imagine however, this is
not just a little gig for me. If you catch
me at a time when I'm spinning and trying
to find some sort of direction - and then
throw this in my lap? I'm gonna be hard
pressed not to start reconsidering a few
things.
I mean,
it's no secret. The 200 Journey songs will
tell you what's in my heart - it isn't a
jump to think I would try and put a band
together and perform. My biggest problem
with that? Limiting. It's a part of me, it
is not all of me. It was at 18... and then
WTVN showed me I could do just about
anything my imagination could come up
with. Then throw in 4tvs, The Egos? Jesus,
the sky is the limit - and all I want
to do is push those limits. So the thought
of putting an inordinate amount of effort
into the music industry right now is
tough...
...but
it's so, goddamn, fun. It's so completely
natural for me. And I wasn't kidding when
I said that this guy is good enough
to make me re-think some things.
Incredibly talented, incredibly creative,
great sound/voice... everything. I don't
trust a lot of people's instincts that
I've met when it comes to songwriting -
but I trust his, and it's different enough
that the music lover in me wants to see
what we'd come up with together. Once
caveat though...
...how do I say
this without being mean - TO ME? Uhm. Adam
Darling IS a solo act. The man is TALL, STACKED, and
is absolutely the spotlight onstage. I pride myself at
being able to look at things from an unbiased
perspective and if I'm Adam's manager? He fronts the
gig. He doesn't share the spotlight. And even if we
were to do a side-gig together, I'm not sure
I can "see" it. Like, we feel like 2 solo
acts. You know?
I mean, we
totally get along, have mutual respect for
each other and have the same musical leanings
but I just feel like collaboration/duo
situations have to have a bit more equality
to the energy of it. Or else, why even do it
you know? Who wants to be Oates? I'm not
fuckin' Oates. He's not fuckin' Oates. But
Hall & Hall would've sucked
ass.
All that
said, I'm still having a blast and am
certainly glad I did this and can't wait
for the gig tomorrow. Time will tell if
things turn into more after that. I know
I certainly don't want to just play the
background in a band without ever singing or
playing any of my music. Happy to help, but
I have to use my time better than that
no matter how fun it is. If it ain't helpin'
the career and it's not paying my bills? It's
gonna be back-burner.
"I'm not
fuckin' Oates. He's not fuckin' Oates. But Hall
& Hall would've sucked ass." That made me
smile. :-) Christ I just quoted 7 sentences ago. That
has to break some sort of quoting rule or something.
Anyway I'll try to get some good footage of the show
for an entry on Sunday, but it may be tough. And of
course - anyone in LA, we're opening for Marcy
Playground, we go on at 10:15 Saturday night and it's
only $15. And I'm not playing "networking pimp" when
I say the songs are really, really good. You will
be pleasantly surprsied.
