I looked up, and a week
passed. Wow. I've left the house ONCE since "Tootie".
That was of course to go finally pass the drivers
test. Damn stupid test. The 2 out of 36 I missed
STILL pissed me off. Stupid laws. Won't even
So why has Adam been a slug? Well,
I was stupid enough to put up a few pages of Palaur
last week, and got some reaction. Well, really good
reaction. And since that time (roughly last Monday)
I haven't stopped. I've never in my life put so
much work into a compacted amount of time. Palaur has
become 10 times the work I thought it would be,
and it really is starting to come together.
I think I'm on to something here. I feel the
way I did when I thought of 4tvs. And with the
way people are reacting so far, I may be right.
If I could just say thank you to the 3 testers who
have dilligently worked with me. Stephen, Matt and
Amber. They have downloaded and tested everything I've
done and really shaped what the site is going to
become. I really believe that once up, this site could
start a new way of thinking as far as "releases" are
concerned in the music industry. Artists are already
telling record companies to eat it, and looking for
more creative ways to put out their material. This
certainly is a way. I hate to get everyone excited and
then say it's coming May 1st...but it is. As much as
I'm working, and as hard as I'm going at this...it
will take that long.
And, I need to lay-off it and go
get a job. HA! I've given 4tvs the initial push that
it needed, and it's paying off big time. Have you
checked out the shows
section lately? WOW. It's highly impressive. More than
I ever had in Columbus. Booked 3 nights at the
Gardenia, so my name will officially be in lights in
Hollywood. You will be seeing that footage later in
March. I've also given Palaur.com the push it will
need to make the rest of the site a bit easier. I
cannot believe the amount of time it has taken
already. I cannot wait to release it. But for now, we
must get some money - quickly. The unexpected costs of
things have killed us. Like my car lease went up ten
bucks a month because I live in California. WHAT?
Yup...tax. Uhm, my freakin insurance not only went up
- but went CRAZY. Jess and I are now approaching the
$500 a month mark just to be insured. They quoted us
$400 and then upped it. We still haven't gotten a why
out of them. It may be because (and I literally went
POSTAL when I saw this, nah we can't afford
postal - I WENT PONY) our driving points all
went up. A LOT. I had 4 points on my record.
I now have 8 points on my record. Why? I moved. I
FREAKIN' MOVED. The California DMV rates things
differently. So my 2 point "improper passing"
violation I got when I was at WTVN for
christ's sake is now 4 POINTS. It's getting crazy.
We're forking over money hand and foot, and can't keep
up. Me getting a job will help, but not much mind you.
This is all without having to pay RENT! The $1000 a
month for that was already paid! So things are a bit
shaky. I pray that by the end of next month when my
gigs start really goin', that I can make some extra
money and get some good exposure. 'Cause at this rate,
we're in trouble.
(sigh) So we keep on trying - Jess
is amazing, kicking an insane amount of butt at
starbucks. I swear she'll own one in a year. Her
spirits are definitely high as well because she gets
to plan a wedding. Those two things have kept her busy
and happy...thank GOD, 'cause the money is enough
stress to kill you. You know I always said that if
money was your only problem, you had no problems.
Well, that is true. Because right now everything in my
life is so exciting. I'm on the verge of so much. I am
completely happy. But ever since November of '98, the
day I thought up 4tvs, I've been scrimping and saving
to no end. To the point now where, if anything were to
break down - I'd be done. Credit cards are filled, and
bills are rollin'. So, lemme rephrase my earlier
thought: Hell yes you have problems if you have REAL
money problems. So many people think their life is
rough because they live paycheck to paycheck. Yeah...
well - got news for you: THIS IS SCARY. I
have seriously thought about radio again, and even if
it's not the best thing for 4tvs, I may have to do it.
Nowhere can I get more money than in radio with
my experience. We'll see. Still makes my head hurt to
think about it.
I really hope that this journal
doesn't end up with us back in Columbus. That would be
my saddest moment. To know I was here, and had it
in the palm of my hands...and let it go. Whew. It'd
make for a great album though. Keep your head up Adam,
it's gonna happen.
MUCH LOVE FROM SO CAL,
Jess & Adam
Oh! Yeah, the movie...heh
heh. First, you see me in the position I've
been in for half this month. And in my
hallucination of watching the flickering
screen for so long, I come to myself and
say to GET OFF MY ASS because
it's March already. You should enjoy this...