december 8th, 2000, as the world mourned the 20th
anniversary of his passing,
met john in a dream, and he told me an incredible
the past 20 years, he has been living peacefully on an
ocean in the sky.
knows nothing of earth since his passing. his days are
filled with poetry, music, and thought.
the moment of his earthly death in 1980, john was
brought to this landscape and given one
was the ability to go back in time and relive any part
of his life that he wanted.
simply thinking of a moment, he was immediately
is how he has lived his days as he awaits the moment
he can see his loved ones
told me he has relived the moments with sean and yoko
desperately wishes he knew what became of
asked him why he was contacting me, and he explained
he was given a second gift.
gift that will stay with him for the remainder of his
time while he waits.
has been given the ability to read your letters, to
hear your thoughts.
will now be able to piece together the time he has
missed through you.
will not be able to respond, but can receive your
words and pictures.
he faded away, he couldn't help but
was finally going to find out what the past 20 years
idea huh? It all began back in 1990.
was a freshman in highschool, and during my study
halls I'd write in my journal. I wrote as if
I was writing to John Lennon. I'd tell him about
what I was up to, and also tell him about things in
the 10 years since his death. It was pretty
therapeutic for me. As I may have stated before,
whenever I really think about his murder,
I just get enraged. Chapman's flippancy about it
fuckin' floors me. It was so incredibly meaningless. I
mean, at least let it be someone who hated his
beliefs, something political...Chapman was just a nut.
So writing to John as if he were still alive, but in
some distant place with no connection to earth except
me. A strange concept, but oddly comforting.
to last Sunday, watching the new John Lennon: Behind
The Music. No matter how much Yoko pleads, people
still commemorate his death as well as his birthday.
There's something voyeuristically attractive about the
8th of December. Same reason every time I went to
New York I'd sit and stare at the Dakota. I always
went in early December. It was so haunting to know
that this was where it happened. Chilling...literally.
Anyway, as I watched the episode, I just wanted him to
be alive. I just wanted the opportunity to talk
to him. I just wanted him to be able to know how
Sean was doing. How The Bealtes never gave into to do
some stupid concert tour without him. That they
released 2 songs using his demo tapes, and did a
brilliant job. That Linda died. It's just a fantasy
really. We all wish. But the great thing about it, is
that if crafted alright, it's almost reality. Even if
he was alive today, it's not like I'd be hangin' with
him. Or any of us really. We'd hear quotes, and so on.
See things on TV.
with "letters to lennon", I hope to be
able to create a mini-world. With people
setting up lines of communication.
Assuming the story that I wrote, and
continuing by talking with him. For huge
Beatles fans, the chance to be able to
catch John up on all he's missed is
exciting. For a moment we can pretend all
is right with the world. Go ahead and
click on his picture if you'd like to
visit the site. As well, you know I
HAD to make a promotional
there ya go. My schizophrenic mind spits out another
idea. I need to make a new year's resolution. To
stop creating, and start refining. Then again, sites
like this run themselves. There's no constant
updating. And if I get deluged with email, I can
set up a system that posts it automatically, as
opposed to me doing it by hand. We'll see. Anyway,
I hope people can enjoy it. I think it's a
nifty idea. I still don't know what I'm gonna write
good friend Rich Henn, who is putting me in his comic
book "Timespell" just bought Star Wars Blew...with
paypal! Duh, I forgot about how easy that is. You
can set up a paypal account that's hooked up to your
checking account. So if you wanna pay another paypal
member, you just drop in the amount, their email, and
pow the money is transferred. The cool thing is, we
can both get $5 if you've never done paypal before.
Meaning, you'd get Star Wars Blew FOR FREE. Just
paying the $2 shipping and handling. I'll gladly hand
my $5 right back to ya if you'd like to do this. If
you're interested, just email me, and I'll send a
referral email to you. You'll fill out out - send me
the $12, then get your $5 bonus for being a new member
(taking you down to $7), then I'll give you the $5
I received for referring you ('cause I'm that
excited about this disc, and would rather you be happy
than me pay my bills - LOL) - and it's all good.
I know this sounds too good to be true, but it is
the straight truth my brothas and sistas, and Star
Wars Blew is a classic disc. Check out the site
www.starwarsblew.com , I finally got every lyric typed
out - good LORD that took some time. G-Lester
alone took me 3 hours. Whew...but they're fun to read
also had some people ask about the Top 15 Listener
Bits CD. Well here's the kicker. Now that I see
how easily I can pull off making these discs look
extraordinarily professional, I'm all about making
it...problem is, I can't burn copies on my
computer. (sigh) - what a bitch. Ya see, Top 15 LB's
is actually one nice long 74 minute show with all the
bits, and music...and I put markers in for 40 tracks.
When I put it in my computer to make an exact
copy..it adds 2 seconds in between each track. (sigh)
- It sounds like shit. And I have yet to find a
way to make that copy without having that problem. I
think my dad's machine may be able to pull it
off...but what a pain in the izzz-nass (snoop slang
for ass), to have him make the CDs, then send them to
me for labelling and such. Ugh. Who knows. I'd also
need some people to say they wanted it as well.
Whereas Star Wars Blew will help me in LA, the
listener bits won't do a GODDAMN thing for me,
and is really just a nice thing to have. So let me see
if I can find a way to burn the discs correctly,
and then I'm all about making it. It truly as a
historic, and funny CD. Sex at Speedway is one of the
greatest things I've ever heard on radio. Eat your
heart out Howard.
Speaking of fun to read
along...uhm - well no this has nothing to do with fun.
J-Dog. As I've stated before the incessent crying is
getting to be too much. It his a whole new peak
Friday, and we finally took him to the vet. Spent
$206.50 and nothin'. Nothin' wrong whatsoever. Test
after test. Had to knock him out just to let the vet
check him out. Man does he hate the vet. They said he
has cat acne...he may be allergic to his plastic food
bowl. We changed them, and he still cries incessently.
So now he's annoying, constantly miserable, and
costing us a SIHTLOAD of money. It's getting
tough to justify him. He is not the J-Dog that left
Ohio a year ago. He's simply miserable. I've had to
get a water bottle to squirt him when he cries at the
door and the window. It sucks. Actually that works
pretty well. He runs and shuts up. But he's not happy.
I can't even let him out either. He cries constantly
outside! FOR CRYIN' OUT LOUD
- WHAT DO YOU WANT DOG! I've
been checkin' his journal, and no clues. I guess he
wants the farm back in Ohio, but that sure as hell
ain't happenin'. Hmm - anyway - j-dog.net
is fully updated. EXCEPT the Dear J-Dog stuff. I
had to reinstall windows and I erased
EVERY FREAKIN' LETTTER. I am so bummed. So can
the people who wrote him write back? You had some
GREAT ones. The one from Kermit was CLASSIC.
They'll be up ASAP. But the rest of the sections are
doin' good. Check out the enemies....lol.
the way, Ron, an old "Late Show" listener, and kick
ass supporter, recently asked me why I'm not on
Napster. Well here's how that works. Napster is a
program that allows people to connect to each other.
It's not some big index of mp3s. When you do a search,
you're just searching the hard drives of other people
who happen to be online at that moment. So in order
for me to always come up during a search, I'd have to
always be in the computer of at least one person in
the world logged into Napster at that second. Quite
the daunting task. It is possible though. If I make
enough mp3s, and get people trading them, it can
happen. I did find "Bread in the Freezer" once. That
was cool. It's just luck though. Someone happened to
be on that knew me or was a friend of a freind of a
freind...etc. But rest assured, when I can get a
faster connection, I will start making mp3s of every
song I have, and getting it passed around. I will also
CONSTANTLY be on Napster so people can always
access me. You also must realize that Napster has
gotten so big, that there's quite a few servers to
boot. So even if I'm always on Napster, not everyone
else on Napster will be able access me - only those on
my server, so that knocks the chances down even
further. It's a gigantic world out there, but it's
still possible. If you buy Star Wars Blew, feel free
to bootleg the ever-lovin' hell out of it. Make mp3s
and put 'em EVERYWHERE. It's funny, what would've
pissed me off 5 years ago, now makes me want to cream
my pants. The thought of bootlegged copies of my stuff
all over the world. Giddy-up. Uhm, please feel free to
also BUY the disc if you could be so kind, but if not
- i understand. LOL.
I have a huge show at the apartment building.
It's huge because there's a lot of connected people
here, and I could make a great impression. I'm
also playing on the night Lennon died, and it will be
on my mind for sure. As well, and I know I've said
this a thousand times before, I'm taking the final
measurements of the 4tvs shelves and buying the wood
on Saturday to create the infamous 4tvs boxes. So by
my last show of 2000, they should be ready. Giddy-up.
This one act should redirect 4tvs into a great
direction, allowing me to play any room, with just
about NO set-up. I dream of that
thanks for taking the time to read - you guys rock. As
you know I've trimmed my list by about 200 people, and
am happy to know the 50 remaining are rootin' for me.
When it all hits the fan, it'll be nice to know the
people that hung with me from the beginning, rather
than people that got stuck on a mailing list.