Called up Sam Ash and they said
they're still interviewing and they'll make a decision
next week. Such a nice vote of confidence. I can't
imagine why they have reservations about me. Selling
is knowing your product and being personable. The
product, though I've never been a turntable DJ, is
pretty simple for someone who's been around music
equipment his whole life. And I must be somewhat
personable with the background in radio I have. The
worst part is that I can do nothing more to convince
them. I thought about going to the store and hanging
out, but I don't want to be annoying to them. I gotta
face it, I'm at their beck and call. The extra couple
of days will allow me to make a nice 5-minute promo
tape for the Tonight Show. Hopefully, just enough to
make them want to know more... Part of me knows that
without an agent I might as well send the video to the
moon. Then again, stranger things have
happened.
So I jumped online and tried to
see what I could do to improve the site. Now that I
can pull off video rather easily, I thought I'd sit at
the piano and sing a bit. Then my honesty got to me a
bit. I wrote a bit of a secretive song in November. I
couldn't, nor shouldn't have sung it to anyone, but
sometimes you have to get things off your chest.
Feelings are hard to decipher, but they certainly are
genuine. As you all know, I tend to wear my heart on a
sleeve, and this song is no different. Then again, it
simply isn't right for me to blab the meaning. So let
it get you wondering, but have fun with that 'cause
the real truth is quite a ways down the road. There's
only about 90 seconds of it...just a
taste.
In a related feeling, radio is
knocking around in my brain again. I can't help but
want to throw my resume and Listener Bit tape to some
stations. I know I could get a production gig. Damnit.
I gotta quit worrying. I've always followed my heart.
Always. And...it always ends up positive. And it
really isn't my heart that's looking at radio, it's my
bank account. I need to be fair with people though,
and I couldn't do that with a radio station. You gotta
have your heart into your work, or it brings everyone
else down. Especially in a "team oriented" job like
radio. Oh well.