- 10:17 AM, Thursday,
December 11th, 2025:
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- Has to be the
weirdest entry I've ever written. I've just never been in
this situation. This video will speak
volumes...
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- I consider
myself a pretty "tell it like it is" kind of a guy. Like,
if I was on the witness stand and my kid had
murdered someone? I'd be like: "yeah, he murdered
someone. I love him, but yeah..." I mean, fuck I say that
but who knows, right? What I'm trying to say is: even if
the truth hurts, I say it.
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- Watching people say
shit about Pete fucking RIPS me up. In fact, that
along with the death of Boo and the amount of work the
end of the year requires on The Journey means I just have
to pause the whole "Journey Project" for a bit so I can
get through everything. The fact that I did 24 songs in
exactly 2 months from 10/10 to 12/10 is pretty poetic,
and I have the next couple of songs ready to go, but
I really can't lose "The Journey" to keep doing
this. Last month kinda killed me. Like I get really,
really, really fucking antsy if I'm not documenting all
of these feelings. 10 Journey Project songs a month is
just too crazy of a schedule and there's zero reason to
attempt to do 120 songs in a fucking year. It's fun. I am
CLEARLY enjoying myself, but I need to refocus
on telling this story because it's what makes things
actually happen. Have I ever really talked about
that?
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- Writing an entry and
setting it in stone? Resets my brain. It allows me to
look ahead and that's when things happen. So
pausing that to basically masturbate and have fun for 2
months, while clearly needed... just can't continue. Like
- you all basically witnessed a complete mental breakdown
at the start of September - LOL. I couldn't accept the
reality of everything I had just been through and
needed to find ME again. I am a songwriter and it
makes me happy. So that last few months have just been
HAPPY SAUCE. Oh so happy sauce.
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- Of course life kept
going and I wanted to write or document and suddenly
things are getting pushed (like that video is a week old)
and then moments happen that MUST be talked about or
else I can't relax. Like - when I know there's
something big that ISN'T on the site? I get fucking
antsy. It's bad. So that brings us back to
Pete...
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- I actually wrote to
him a couple days ago just offering some kind words and
he was quick to respond (like always within 24 hours -
he's on it) that he's doing ok and he appreciated the
email. This season has been awwwwwwful. To win your first
game and then go 1-11... just, goodness. And I find
myself in this extremely strange position where I'm
watching his press conferences and, like, I was there.
I stood in those halls, I sat in his office and
talked with him about everything. I know what his
expectations were, I had such high hopes and this is
just... fucking hell - next level bad. And fuck if I know
why? I know the head coach will always get the blame
in the end, but it can't be ALL him, right?
I just don't know enough about the subject and I'm
EXTREMELY biased. When I hear these talking heads
that I have listened to for so long... talk about my
dude? The guy that helped me?! The guy that
LEFT A MEETING to be in MY MEETING about
Virtual Presence? Who went to bat for me and did
everything in his power to help me? I have to turn it
off. I'm saying in my head "please stop, please stop,
please stop..." it's the WEIRDEST feeling. I've never
really known someone on a personal basis with
THAT level of scrutiny. I bet every kid in his class
at USC is also just WINCING at the absolute
pummeling he's taking right now. We all thought he would
succeed... I'm sure everyone is just in disbelief. The
thing is? He brought EXACTLY what he said he would
bring. The energy at that facility in the off-season was
INCREDIBLE. Everyone believed. He was hired as a
defensive minded VIBE and no one really knows why it's
been so bad. Is he too loyal to Geno? Probably. Was
Chip's play-calling really that bad? I mean, I think
so. The game where they got a total of 3 first downs is a
level of offensive anemia I can't even fathom. It's just
AWFUL. And I can say it now: holy fuck I'm glad I'm not
documenting this. Sure, I lost a bunch of money because
they put this all on ice, but wheeeeeeeeew. The amount of
shit Pete would've gotten for even PARTICIPATING in
Virtual Presence during a season like this?
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- Oh fuck it would've
been bad. I would've ADDED to his misery. I sit
here today absolutely stunned. I don't see how he isn't
fired and I just... goddamn. Can't believe it. He doesn't
deserve this ending. Would love to see him return to USC
somehow on a 2-year deal and ride off into the sunset,
but it just might be that this is it. Seems so unfair -
but hey, that's what you sign up for. Head coaching ain't
for the weak. At least he ain't the head coach of
Michigan (ha). GoBucks.
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- So there you are. The
remaining entries this month will be about Boo, a VP
Podcast with Don, a final trip to Disney (in VR180
weather permitting), Cam's birthday, Christmas,
Anniversary and a year-ender.
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- Whew.
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- Hang in there Pete.
Enjoy the little things. There's always happy moments in
the midst of chaos.
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- Adam
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