- 7:46 AM, Wednesday,
October 14th, 2025:
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- The melody that has
followed me for 15 years... I adore this
story.
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- Here's the
original
entry, but
long story short: Talya and I went to a Q&A with Ryan
Gosling for the movie Blue Valentine at the VERY
beginning of our relationship: like 10 days in LOL. Ends
up the movie shows a relationship at the same place and
intercuts with it 10 years later as they're breaking up.
It's a gut-punch and maybe the worst first-date after
being in love of all-time. Talya was devastated at her
choice of activities that night (LMFAO) and of course, I
was a bit crushed remembering JUST how much you believe
and then get wallopped. But a funny thing happened that
night... I still believed. I just did. From the
entry:
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- "We walked out
and Talya was noticeably concerned. I said that I felt
like I was the "end of the relationship" man, trying
to talk to the "beginning of the relationship" woman
and was struggling to convey what I saw. She
understood and was certain I was about to cut things
off. To the point of tears when I didn't. And why
didn't I? Because I looked at her and still believed.
Not with my heart (that believed long ago), but with
my head. I believe she gets it. I mean, the woman has
simply never wavered from her calm, confident
acceptance of reality. She's so logical I still check
for a penis from time to time. I've thankfully not
found one, but at this point even if I did I'd
probably still go for it."
- HAAAA. But that's
really what happened. As I say in the
song "I can tell you all the ways this won't
work out..." annnnnnd still I still love you. It's like
the scene in Eternal Sunshine where he looks at her
(after literally knowing the future and that it doesn't
work out) and still can't turn away. In fact that's the
night we both said I love you and I wrote the song the
next morning. Fucking, magic.
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- And of course that
piano melody became... like MY melody - how I'm most
known. We walked down the aisle to it... later when
I need something that felt "magic" for my Meeting
Michael film, it was obviously that... and now I get to
remind everyone ("Hey, that was for my wife, not Jordan"
lol). It's also just the motto for
EVERYTHING I DO: I believe. If I can get to
those two words? AWWWW SHIT. You're gonna see me
COMMIT. I don't often do it in big ways, but when I do?
I go prettttttttty hard. I believed in "us" 15
years ago and here we are.
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- I adore this
song.
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- Adam
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- PS - musically
speaking this song is so bizarre. Very simple piano
part... very simple to sing. For WHATEVER REASON I
have a hard time concentrating on how I sing...
while playing that part. <throws hands up>. I sing
a little too "matter-of-factly" when doing both at the
same time. If I just concentrate on singing, it
sounds way better... but I'm doing all of these live in
one take - so there you go. Anyway, I couldn't let this
entry go without sharing that - LOL=
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