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7:53 AM, Wednesday, January 22nd, 2025:   This is an unintentionally heavy entry for me, but we start first with the fun that was Monday night...     Jesus I need to lose some weight. LOL. I'm getting there, I'm getting there....   So yeah, Jimmy. I miss him terribly. It's something that just won't go away with time and the fact that he knows how much I miss him and doesn't care will just eat at me forever. He was the closest thing I've ever had to a brother and I labored over the most loving letter I could write - and that pissed him off to the point of ghosting everyone. Sucks. But I have to remember the details (thank goodness I save those) and realize I would do it over again if I was dealt those cards. I was honest, I was loving, and his reaction said more about him than me. All of that can be true, and then you watch the video of us jumping up and down and just remember how close you were. How you'd do anything for him. How you realized he was in a troubling relationship and you tip-toed around telling him until you finally had to protect your kids from her. Again, I don't regret nor can I think of any way to avoid what happened - it just kills me. I just miss old Jimmy. He's changed his surname and literally everything about him that made him the Jimmy my family loved so we just have to take the L here because he literally doesn't exist - but goddamnit he meant so much. The crazy thing is? He doesn't even watch football or care about The Buckeyes anymore. So what I miss just doesn't exist.   And that's devastating.   HOWEVER - holy shit that bingo card was hilarious and I love my family to death and it was so incredible to enjoy that with them. Hopefully it doesn't take another 10 years for that to happen again.   Adam