- 10:56 AM, Monday,
October 30th, 2023:
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- What an entry.
I have to interject and just mention how
heartbroken I am over Matthew Perry. I adored his
fearlessness with addressing his addiction problems.
Of course I loved Chandler, everyone loves Chandler...
but he blew me away with his ability to not only be
honest about his struggles, but his utter lack of fear
when talking about how it actually FELT. He knew half
the people listening thought "you're famous, you have
no money concerns, fuck off..." and he still had the
strength to be vulnerable about how unfair it felt
that "the other 5" could enjoy what he couldn't
process. His interviews the past year have been
unbelievable and I wish this wasn't stuck in an
entry about New Zealand. May have to break the
100/year rule in 2023. But for now I'll move
on...
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- So - uhm, holy
shit, I got a tattoo. For a guy who has never been
CLOSE to getting a tattoo, this is a big moment for
me. Once you see the video however, I think
you'll be just as blown away with the process as I
was. Here's the link, but I'll describe everything for
those without headsets or those who simply don't want
to watch a video with a running time over a
half-hour.
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- So I really
didn't understand what was happening. I trusted Ihi, I
felt honored at the opportunity, but I was going
in blind. So when I found out that a moko was a story
of your life, I started to get chills. That has always
been my aversion to getting a tattoo: I'm a different
person every 5-10 years. I am a chameleon on so many
levels, I cannot fathom what on earth I'd choose! 4tvs
logo? GolfKon? Delorean (oh fucking kill me on that
one...) who am I? And then I was immediately put
at ease when I realized the dude was gonna talk to me
and learn who I was.
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- Quick aside:
I am so goddamned annoyed I come off as if
I need to be reminded of my own family. LOL.
Anyone who has followed one second of The Journey
knows what Talya and the kids mean to me but
I have to explain my thought process going into
this entire trip: I had to block them out, concentrate
on "Work Adam" because the thought of them not being
with me depressed the ever-loving shit out of me. So
you're watching me in WORK MODE. That is not the
daily me. Anyone who even knows how to get to this
site and read this knows that, but I look at every
video as if it's someone's first time and seeing Ihi
have to REMIND ME I have children. And since
I was filming by myself (sigh) I missed the part
where I talked about Talya and the whole video
feels unbalanced.
HOWEVER if you know me? You can see how emotional I am
because I desperately miss my family and am so honored
to have them now WITH ME for the rest of my life.
I just can't say enough how much this entry means
to me, how much this experience has moved me, and how
incredible it is that I waited 48 years to do this...
only to have something created specifically for me, in
New Zealand, by a Maori. I'm overcome with
gratitude.
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- Whew. What, an,
experience.
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- Adam
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