- 1:36 PM,
Wednesday, March 29th, 2023:
- I've been shaking
my head for several minutes here. I'm honestly just
not sure how to express my feelings on this video.
- You're there,
you're there, you're there. The shot of the corner of
the Dakota is so overwhleming for me and I'm just not
sure if anyone else shares that opinion! Because so
few people are in headsets, nor can they comment after
they've watched. I guess we'll see when all of this
finally goes public.
- Oh and it should
go without saying... YouTube is gimping the resolution
by 1/2 and it does make a massive difference. So if
that's how you're watching it, keep that in mind....
lemme just put the video here so I'm out of the
- To be able to tell
that storyof my life, in this format? I'm literally
stuttering as I try to express how valuable it is to
me. Besides all the personal stuff with how that
"leap" defined my adulthood, let me go back to
- I've stood at that
spot, let me count... hmmm, seems like exactly 10
times. I've photographed it, recorded it... went from
SD to HD... I've seen it in newspapers and that
dark tunnel is burned in my brain as my imagination
can almost feel the scene that happened over 40 years
ago. Viewing it with cars passing, peoples taking
pictures and with the ability to see the
ENTIRE THING in your peripheral vision? Holy
fuck. That's the crazy part to me: your ability to
take the entire thing in... even look up at the top...
you're there. And again, as I said in the
previous entry, unlike Google Earth, this is living
and breathing. It's like you just stepped into my
head... It's absolutely breathtaking for me to be able
capture that feeling...
- However, t's
obviously NOT cinematic. I should do a flat short with
this camera and a normal lens to express just how
fucking amazing I can make a flat image look. Make no
doubt, by using a double fisheye lens you're killing
the majority of the beauty of this camera... I'm also
BLANKET color grading it for time and there's
mistakes abounding... but what it may lack in
fidelity, etc. it more than makes up for and sheer
scale. Not sure there's a better location on the
planet to feel it, either. Whereas trees wreak havoc
on the codec as the constant motion is a bitch to
transcode, buildings? Perfectly still, therefore they
can tower over you and make you feel their presence.
Just enamored with this...
- ...and then of
course the content. The literal core of my soul. I
honestly conisder it my birthplace. The balls to do
that at 19, and the confidence and honestly, that calm
assuredness that it would work out? Oh man, that's the
moment I look back on as a guy pushin' 50 where I
took a real risk.
- Now I could argue
that lip-syncing as a female opera singer in 6th grade
with fake boobs in a dress on-stage during a talent
show was also very "me" at an early age. But there's
little risk there other than looking foolish. Getting
MARRIED? Fuck. That's a "permanent record" choice
right there. Oh and then getting the talk show 6
months later and it being a pretty big part of my
persona? Whew. "Young Adam" they called me. With my
own CD, my radio show bits, being written up in the
paper... a wife?
ON TOP OF THE WORLD.
- And then one by
one I lost it ALLLLLLLLL. And did it publicly. Less
than a year after the divorce, lost the job and
suffered a personal and career BUTT-WHOOPIN' and found
myself at the BOTTOM at a mere 21. Life kicked my
ass... and I found a way to keep
- I really do
need to make a Journey Volume Zero. I sometimes belive
that's the foundation of everything.
- ANYWAY -
I adore this video. I am heartbroken so few
people can see it yet... but they will. It's funny,
the more ignored I feel by Meta or DeoVR (or
YouTube for that matter, which has clearly shadow
banned me since last year) I'm even more certain I'm
on the right path and as I look ahead at what the
first 50 Vrlogs will hold? Oh my goodness. It's like
formatting a television channel.
Wait'll you see what happens in the next couple
months. For the next entry however, The Nintendo