- 10:34 AM, Friday,
March 25th, 2022:
- This is probably a
bigger entry than it seems on face value. Video
- I feel like
I need to be clear that I really didn't show the
whole thing. Like, my voice-over says I'm not showing
what I'm CLEARLY showing, but the lead-up and the
actual audio... whew. That's what I wasn't showing.
It's a different story. A very, very different
story... but that leads to the main point about
sanitizing the journey and one that should be kind of
clear here in year 23:
- I'm honest about
ME. I'll show my ugly sides all day. I can't do that
to my kids, man. I can't do that to my wife...
hell there's a reason so many Jess entries are
STILL LOCKED nearly 20 years later. I love
these people, it's not my place and there's already
more than enough places where I feel I may have
said too much. Seriously, if not for Donna writing her
own entry pressing me to be open, even THAT would be
locked. There's a reason why you all think her name is
Charlotte, ya know? I refuse to "out" her,
I just need a safe space to talk about this
neurotic brain so I can lead a normal and
- I'd also be remiss
if I didn't address the whole gun vs. needle aspect of
ear piercing. I did the needle thing 30 years ago
(that's a story in and of itself, ain't it Christen?)
and would've gone that route if it were up to me...
however, with Vienna it was an absolute non-starter.
She has a phobia of needles that rivals all other
phobias and if it weren't for the invention of the
"gun" this wouldn't have happened. Just kind of the
way it is. I know all the arguments and at the
end of the day, the fact that Claire's has been in
business for 35 years means that the rumors of how
awful they are might just be a little exagerrated?
Maybe? But yes, had it even been in the realm of
possibility we would've chosen a tattoo parlor as it's
just a more pleasant experience.
- Now, the reason
this is probably a bigger entyr than initially
thought? The end. I think it's kind of official now:
this will be handed over to the kids when I pass. Part
of me thinks that's an inordinate amount of pressure
to put on your kids, but by the time that baton
passing happens, we'll probably have a better idea of
what's possible. But yeah, there's no reason they
can't keep documenting and have it be this massive
Kontras saga. I imagine people 50 years from now
finding that super interesting. Hell, it will be more
THEIR journey than mine at some point.
- Wait, fuck, wow.
1275 entries will be before kids. If The Journey then
spans their lives it'll dwarf that. It truly will be
their journey, and their dad just gave a 12 year
backstory. Man, that really changes perspective
doesn't it... whew.
- That really made
my head spin. Gonna go for a walk now.
- PS - Hiccups