- 8:46 PM, Friday,
November 26th, 2021:
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- I can't believe
I'm still even capable of feeling like
this.
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- Of course, today
we got the tree, Buckeyes tomorrow... yadda yadda.
I'll get into that in the next entry. But #2189, I
believe, is a pretty special number. The second part
of that Beatles doc today triggered something in my
brain that just may have rewritten the entire decade
of the 20s for me. Goodness. This feels like the 4tvs
idea in 1998, this feels like RentTheDelorean in
2014... and all it is, is a studio.
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- I jokingly said to
Talya, that's what happens when you hear Get Back 17
times and they keep saying
"GET BACK TO WHERE YOU ONCE BELONGED."
over and over... but that wasn't really it. Ya know
what it was? Watching The Beatles problem solve song
production. I'm really good at that. I'm a really good
songwriter. It's what I was supposed to be, and what I
spent the 90s doing... then 4tvs turned that
songwriting into comedy and the rest is history...
then 10 years later showbiz kicked my ass and I turned
my problem-solving skills to construction the insanity
of the last 10 years... but there's something about
middle age. I don't care how good your life is (and
mine is fucking amazing)... I don't care how
accomplished you are - nearly all of us once belonged
on a different path and shifted because, well,
life.
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- I say
nearly all of us because there are a few people
that stayed focused on one thing and did it forever.
For the rest of us? That passion gets interrupted. And
it's not even a bad thing - I'm pretty pumped that I
was self-aware enough to follow more paths than music
because holy fuck look at The Journey. Ya know? These
last 20 years... good LORD what a story. A story
that would not have happened if I was blindly
pushing albums, singing, songwriting, etc. No those
songs became simple demos sung into a video camera on
top of a piano - and I love 'em because they were
indeed the moment. But what they were missing... was
the craft of truly producing music. I've never really
had the space or the equipment - hell I didn't
even own a fucking keyboard until last year when I had
to buy one to score Meeting Michael. A few times in
the last couple decades I'd layer some voices to those
simple piano songs or grab a drum loop and put
something together - but it was all to support The
Journey. It was never labored over, it was never truly
worked out. There's a refreshing aspect to that, but
oh how I miss crafting songs the same way, say,
I crafted the Fastest Delorean edit. Or sections
of GolfKon. It's this problem solving that requires a
leap of faith and "feel" that you can only understand
if you've done it yourself. And Get Back might as well
be crack to a songwriter. Because you understand
every, fucking, emotion. It's like you're in the room
talking with them. Half the time they're saying what
you're thinking, half the time they're introducing
things you hadn't thought of - it's the creative
process. The problem? They can't hear you and you
can't help. And I cannot be alone in this
inspiration... after awhile you just jump out of your
fucking chair and think:
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- "I HAVE TO WRITE MUSIC"
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- ...and then comes
the Adam part: "I will make a documentary about
remembering who you once were. I will build an entire
studio in the house, I'll document that, and I'll use
the time the children are at school to treat it like a
real job. I get up, go into the studio - and just see
what happens. I haven't produced an album like this
since 1996. When I walked into my dad's studio and we
worked through the songs I brought him. We made
cassettes in 1994 and 1995 and a CD in 1996. By then I
was at WTVN and made an a capella CD by myself
for 1997 and then, whew... 4tvs came along and changed
everything. The cool part? This is going to be a very
fast and exciting documentary because I can tie in all
those stories intercut between construction footage
and eventually music and producing footage. All the
while watching my appearence change as I still need to
do 2010 Adam for The Official Journey Volume 2 and
eventually The Return of The Egos. The narrative
having one, overarching mission statement: speaking to
the middle aged crowd who also want to return to where
they once belonged. It's the first time I've ever
thought I could inspire without being all
preachy. It always felt awkward to try and inspire
with The Journey because my talents aren't exactly
relatable...
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- ...but with "Where
You Once Belonged", it doesn't have to be. Sure, for
me it's music... for everyone watching they just apply
it to their own passions. And the ending doesn't even
matter - no one buys albums, I don't care. I want
to make an album like I did in the 90s. I want to
work on the cover art. Hell I might even make a vinyl
copy that hardly fucking anyone could actually play.
I just need this. I need to do what I was
meant to do, even if life and media has passed me by.
I've done the techno geek route, you're here (and I
have a Guinness World Record plaque to boot)... now I
desperately want to go back a 1/4 century and pick up
where I left off.
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- The timing is
right. That will be 2022. I'll release the doc in 2023
alongside a full album.
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- Those fucking
Beatles, man.
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- Adam
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