- 8:08 AM, Sunday,
October 5th, 2021:
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- It's
time...
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- I wish I
could sit here and not address the fact that Eminem
mentioned me in a song but it's The Journey and I
can't let that pass.
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- ...now we all know
he didn't, and technology has gotten to the point
where you can literally type into a website and have
it spit back out audio in different voices. Throw in a
beat and suddenly it's fairly indistinguishable other
than the fact that I'm not even famous enough for
Eminem to say he DOESN'T know me. LMFAO. Even THAT
would be a level a fame. And as I stated earlier,
quite clearly no one reads Guinness anymore. I presume
copyright-wise I can't legally do this, but this will
have nothing to do with the release in December and
I guess if YouTube takes it down so be it. I
really just thought the technology was cool (and super
scary) and it totally blew my mind. Also, Eminem was a
pretty big goddamn deal at the turn of the century and
it really just fits with the story I'm trying to tell
2000-2010.
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- And of course it
sets off the start of the editing journey and, well,
it's not a fun one. It's one I've been avoiding
because even after like 5 minutes back in that world
the emotions kick my ass. Even 20 years later. 10
years ago it was painful too, but since it was such a
"present" project I soldiered through. Now? Oh
jesus I'm so far removed from that period and to rip
open those wounds again? Not so much the personal
relationship ones - but the career ones will always
sting. No matter how much my brain knows I played the
cards I was dealt as well as I could possibly do
it (even if they were badly played) - you still see
underachievement. But I look at it like this: for
everyone who thinks I'm the Delorean guy... who see me
struggling sometimes with what THEY see as the best
life ever - as if I'm humblebragging when I'm
frustrated - I focus on telling THEM the story of why
my soul is always somewhere else. Very few people in
my life now know what I'm capable of and I kind of
want to show them and then say "See why everything is
a little bittersweet?" - which is what Volume Two will
show. I wouldn't trade Volume 2 for Volume 1
EVER... best ten years of my life by FAR... but man, I
was really good. I needed a few more things to go
my way and, well, they didn't.
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- But I'm alive. And
I still believe. I'm ready to put 2000-2010 to
rest.
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- Adam
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