- 9:02 PM,
Wednesday, January 20th, 2021:
- It. Is.
- I don't ever
remember a day being on the verge of tears for this
long. Not even election day. This was just an exhale
of pent-up emotion... just so much trauma.
I think that's the takeaway I want to
document in these entries: we were going through
trauma and we're now dealing with legit PTSD symptoms.
It effected our families so deeply. The quarantine,
the fears... the death. The insurrection... just so
much. Too much.
- Last night Biden
held the tiniest of memorials for COVID victims. It
was the first time I cried about my grandfather who
passed last April from COVID. Moreso for my mother who
I couldn't be with while she went through that.
I just cried. It was like his one act of kindness
allowed me to not feel the need to FIGHT. Fight with
people who thought this was fake.
- We haven't been
allowed to GRIEVE for a PANDEMIC because we
have to fight leaders telling us it ISN'T REAL!
FUCK. That's NOT NORMAL. FUCK, YOU,
- But, he is gone. I
get to disconnect from politics for probably the
better part of this year. I don't care. I know the
adults are in charge and I can relax.
I'm just so emotionally exhausted... but today was the
start of the healing.