- 9:33 AM - October
- OK, I can
finally admit it. Whew, here we go...
I did not think Cameron had it in him. I couldn't even
tell while shooting if it was going to work. I stopped
after about 90 minutes and told him we were done for
the day and I loaded all the footage and started
editing because I just needed to see it.
- Ya see, I had a
plan B. I would absolutely cut them out of this movie.
I'm really really weird about this and I feel the need
to explain myself.
I hate kid actors and the idea of kid actors. I
think it's forcing children into adult situations
(show-business) and adding stress to their brains that
is unnecessary. It immediately blunts their ability to
be carefree and kid-like. Social media does this too.
So when I had the idea to have the kids ask me
questions to tell the story of Meeting Michael, I
resisted. Like, I just resisted my own
- Then I went into
the attic (which they've never been in until this last
weekend) and I felt that 80s magic of old attics and
kids finding things and... the wonder/magic... it was
overwhelming. And I realized I owed it to the idea to
just try it. Because the truth is, we're in our house.
I'm not taking them to an audition, they're not on a
real set... none of this is like showbusiness. They
will feel NONE of the actual stress of performing,
they're just hanging out in the attic with lights and
- But I also
realized they might not be able to "act" in front of a
camera. That's a thing that is harder than people
think. And there's tons of examples (even in BIG
TIME movies) where the kid doesn't have it and
was clearly someone's family member getting a gig.
It's embarrasing and I hate it. So I most
assuredly had a back up plan if it wasn't
- My concern was Cam
overacts all the fucking time. He thinks acting is
being BIG AND FUNNY AND OVER-EMOTIONAL.
That worried me. Vienna is shy and too much in her own
head. Neither of these are great traits for what we're
doing. End result so far? Vienna is still too much in
her own head and it took a LOT of takes to get
her out of that and have her just say things
comfortably so it wasn't like she was reading the
words in her mind. She mostly got there, but it was a
lot of work and repetition. She's honest to fuck too
smart for her own good sometimes. It's spooky how her
- Now this is going
to sound like I'm saying mean shit about Cam, but,
Cam's brain doesn't think much.
- He's in the moment
- ALL THE GODDAMN TIME. I knew that...
but what I didn't know? Is that he could deliver a
line like he just thought of it and you literally
cannot tell. Everything he says in the movie I worked
out with him beforehand and then he performed it...
and honest to motherfuck while editing I couldn't
remember if that was true or he was ad-libbing most of
the time. A couple lines were over-the-top, but the
opening scene where he's looking at the pics and the
towel? He was so good, it rewrote the script. I had to
react in real-time and he
MADE THE MOVIE BETTER because of his
line-delivery and how it changed MY reaction. I'm good
at ad-lib, I've done it for 20+ years now and I'm very
self-aware of how the scene is goin while filming...
it's a rhythm thing you can't really teach? You're
born with it and then you practice repeatedly and you
get this groove where you just feel it. Hard to
explain. It's why I can do split screen Egos stuff
effortlessly because I just know the characters and
the point of the story so well it's IN me.
But to do that with a 6 year old? I mean... he just
nails it. And he understands, like... here watch
- That's video of me
absolutely fucking up what we agreed to. He rolled
with it in the only way you could - and then when
I called him out he defended what his choice was
- AND HE WAS RIGHT. He had to say it
like a question AGAIN because I fucked up. But he
didn't ruin the take. He just kept going until
I RUINED the take.
- Dude. DUUUUUUUDE.
You see me laugh as he was totally right and of course
my brain is thinking more about the lighting and
camera angle than ANYTHING I'm actually saying...
but after loading that footage? And watching his brain
work? Holy shit - he's born with it. Like, I can act
with him and he brings shit TO the table. He's
thinking of the better GOOD. He's thinking of what the
scene is supposed to be in the END... he's not
thinking about HIMSELF. It's the core of good acting:
you have to be outside yourself and you have to do it
at lightening speed.
- So yeah, this is
deeper than just "being a performer", his brain works
in a way that is valuable for performing in intimate
settings like film and television. He's born with it.
No other way to put it.
- And when he's an
adult, he can do with that as he will. He will not be
going to acting classes, he will not be going to
auditions. He gets to be a kid and play. But he has
options many don't if he chooses hat
- ...thank GOD
because I'd have cut those little fuckers in a
heartbeat if they sucked.