- 9:33 PM - May
- The thought of my
daughter losing her "goofiness" might be one of my
only fears. Fear might not be the best word...just
UTTER sadness that something in her life will force
her to hide that. "Inside Out" deals with this
beautifully and it's something I consistently come
back to because Vienna is soooooo shy unless
conditions are just right...
- ...and then she's
just stupid. Like hilariously stupid and funny and
gives no fucks because she's enjoying herself so much.
She responds to you in funny voices, she makes up
funny games, her brain is just brilliant and
I love it love it love it...
- I think the
reason I want to document this so much is that
it's CONSTANT and EFFORTLESS for Cam. Cam the
Ham. He's SO alpha and SO gregarious that it's second
nature. Vienna would be the first to tell you she'd
rather watch and laugh at Cam than perform
- ...but it's
actually in her too. You watch her and you can't help
but think if she can ust gain the self-esteem to
continue to be goofy and not care what people think
she can OWN THE WORLD. That's how funny she
is. That's how "out-of-the-box" she is and as she gets
closer and closer to her teens it's the one thing I
want her to hold onto the most.
- I'm worrying way
more here than I do in reality in the moment... that's
kind of the curse of The Journey - it can cement
neurosis that is just a fleeting thought. But this
fleeting thought flies by often and I figure it's
worth remembering as she gets older. I can't
shield her from all the things that break your spirit
in this world... but I can certainly continue to
act ridiculous with her and embrace it.
- Love you,